Glowurm Posted August 15, 2008 Report Share Posted August 15, 2008 Hey It's gonna snow tonight And guess what I'll be missing it Hey I'm gonna go tonight And guess what You'll be missing it Watch me turn and walk away Admire my behind, it's all you'll see You never intended to reject me, hey You didn't even know that you had Until I rejected you What do I have to do to get attention? Without my life being scrutinised What do I have to do to be invisible? Without being completely ignored How much alcohol do I have to drink to get in trouble How many times do I have to smoke before someone cares Before someone worries, for the first time in my life, about ME Oh sure, I rant to whomever But they never worry I have everything under control, right? But then, when they do worry? Sorry, I'm long gone Hey Someone's getting attention tonight And guess what I'm gonna be missing it Hey Someone's getting rejection tonight And guess what I don't get to miss it What now? You want to talk to me? You want to tell me everything I've done wrong? You want to punish me, hurt me, make me feel bad? Maybe that'll learn me right? Well punish me harder, make me feel like dirt Then perhaps I'll love you, then I might kiss your feet Don't hit me with a paper fan Hit me with a baseball bat Kill me, kill me, kill me, don't stop, Send me to h*** so I don't go to purgatory End it all so I'm not immortal But hey I can kill myself just fine I can hate myself just right I can be depressed without being sad Don't think 'cause I jump and shout that I'm happy Don't think 'cause I tell you it's alright that it is I'm a liar, I'm a thief. I steal people's attention Then I tell them I don't want it Tell them I don't need it Tell them I won't die without it Oh, boy, do I ever lie And now you love me Now you want to praise me Tell me everything I'm doing RIGHT? Tell me how great my life's going? Oh, too late! I'm already a rotten boy! I don't need your love, it's wasted on me Or at least that's what everyone believes Kiss me now and I'll shove you away You've already made it clear you hate me I've already made it clear everyone hates me Why should you love me? Simple, you don't You're doing it to make me feel good You're doing it to end my self-obsessed, indulgent, emotional, over-the-top, it's just way too much... You try to make me feel good When you made me feel bad You try to make me happy When you make me feel sad What's the truth then? And what's your lie? Do you hate me? Or do you love me? Either way, you've lied. Hey Someone's having fun tonight And guess what I'll be missing it Hey Someone's living a life tonight And guess what I'll be missing it ----- ...Uh, I don't even know what this is about, myself. I started and couldn't stop. Yeah, it follows no order or anything or whatever... It's just writing of a scattered mind? I guess so. It's bad anyway. Depression is fun, it gives me an excuse for feeling unhappy. So every time I want to die I just tell myself "HEY IDIOT, YOU'RE JUST BEING DEPRESSED, YOU'LL GET OVER IT". Works every time, it makes me push my emotions underground and take on an apathetic shield until I don't feel so sad any more. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted August 20, 2008 Report Share Posted August 20, 2008 You are an extremely talented writer. Sometimes depression lessens when you express yourself in written forms. There are others who can see themselves in your writing. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mushroom_king Posted August 21, 2008 Report Share Posted August 21, 2008 excellent! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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