I hate and I Become

[Mushroom_king]

*~*The Grand Illusion*~*The Final Cut*~*

 

I hate you

I hate you and wish you weren't my friend

I don't even know why I'm still your friend

Because all you do is lie to me and pretend you do no wrong

I wish I could tell you that I dedicate my whole life to you

You wouldn't care

You'd never care

You'll never understand

I don't want to be violent, and I don't want to hate

I don't want to become these things I loathe about you

I hate you

I hate you

The way you urge her on when she needs to move on

The way you'll lie

The way you act two-faced

You claim you hate them but you still hang out with them

You're afraid of getting hurt by a girl

So you abandon

You'll lie so you seem great

You'd hurt to get things straight

 

I hurt myself today

I feel myself slowly turn to stone

My fingers cold as they wipe away my tears

and then my own blood and sweat comes to a complete stop

this is the way I kill my pain

This is the way to my sweet, sweet escape

I don't want to cut

I don't want to hurt myself

I just need to make sure I'm real

Make sure I'm not a ghost

It's hard when that's how I get treated

Make sure hating and violence didn't desensitize me

I want to make sure I'm still capable of forgiving you

Tomorrow we'll make up, you'll say never again

but a week later the process shall repeat again

I don't want to cry

I don't want to bleed

It's just a stereotype

 

I destroyed myself today

I killed myself today

I drained myself today

I beat myself today

It was all for you

It was all from you

 

*~*The Psychedelic Luau*~*The Astronomy Domine*~*

[Horatio]

:blink: :blink:

That's a very strong message.