xMyOwnMindx Posted May 30, 2007 Report Share Posted May 30, 2007 forgive me soulless society for i sinned i turned from you i thought for myself i thought for your army im done with this now i want to shed skin breathe on in my heart every word he's said is truth but am i betraying myself? all these thoughts you and i know they run me they eat me alive but can they see the sadness in my eyes? how i want to do so much how i want to live so much more how many lies are true? how many things you say have meaning? how am i so lonely? theres simple concepts ive failed to grasp here time and space alike i can skew this but never change it forever well he's right too. i am lost. but do i want to be found? do i wish to leave the maze? or stay a little longer? forever? the outside says stay stay but the inside says leave this world forever Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted May 30, 2007 Author Report Share Posted May 30, 2007 no sleep for me :closedeyes: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted May 30, 2007 Report Share Posted May 30, 2007 no sleep for me :closedeyes: Write more if you can't sleep. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted May 30, 2007 Author Report Share Posted May 30, 2007 too late. i cleaned a bit played pokemon and passed out im super late all nighter was a bad idea i have my 6 lap test today. not that im gonna try Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted May 30, 2007 Report Share Posted May 30, 2007 too late.i cleaned a bit played pokemon and passed out im super late all nighter was a bad idea i have my 6 lap test today. not that im gonna try Just try anyway. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 1, 2007 Author Report Share Posted June 1, 2007 i didnt. but i did today i felt good first, then bad, then horrible, then good, then i was hot and miserable for the rest of the day untill i hung out with people and it was all good but i lost my ciggs and when i went to look for me then friend ate and left my house without telling me.. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted June 1, 2007 Report Share Posted June 1, 2007 i didnt. but i did today i felt good first, then bad, then horrible, then good, then i was hot and miserable for the rest of the day untill i hung out with people and it was all good but i lost my ciggs and when i went to look for me then friend ate and left my house without telling me.. oh. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 2, 2007 Author Report Share Posted June 2, 2007 today ended up better. i got another pack for only $3. and christine decided to spend her money. so we had some fun. i wasnt down to get drunk tonight. everything changed since tuesday Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted June 2, 2007 Report Share Posted June 2, 2007 today ended up better. i got another pack for only $3. and christine decided to spend her money. so we had some fun. i wasnt down to get drunk tonight. everything changed since tuesday What happened Tuesday? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 2, 2007 Author Report Share Posted June 2, 2007 thats when i made plans for friday Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted June 2, 2007 Report Share Posted June 2, 2007 thats when i made plans for friday And your plans for Friday? What happened with your loss of cell phone privileges, etc.? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 2, 2007 Author Report Share Posted June 2, 2007 thats when i made plans for friday And your plans for Friday? What happened with your loss of cell phone privileges, etc.? were to get drunk. but i didnt want to most of the day. and then when i did it was too late. i got my cell phone and internet back but my stereo is still gone. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted June 2, 2007 Report Share Posted June 2, 2007 thats when i made plans for friday And your plans for Friday? What happened with your loss of cell phone privileges, etc.? were to get drunk. but i didnt want to most of the day. and then when i did it was too late. i got my cell phone and internet back but my stereo is still gone. What happened that you lost all your privileges? If you don't want to talk about it, I understand. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 3, 2007 Author Report Share Posted June 3, 2007 thats when i made plans for friday And your plans for Friday? What happened with your loss of cell phone privileges, etc.? were to get drunk. but i didnt want to most of the day. and then when i did it was too late. i got my cell phone and internet back but my stereo is still gone. What happened that you lost all your privileges? If you don't want to talk about it, I understand. i was "fresh" Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted June 3, 2007 Report Share Posted June 3, 2007 thats when i made plans for friday And your plans for Friday? What happened with your loss of cell phone privileges, etc.? were to get drunk. but i didnt want to most of the day. and then when i did it was too late. i got my cell phone and internet back but my stereo is still gone. What happened that you lost all your privileges? If you don't want to talk about it, I understand. i was "fresh" I am assuming you were fresh to your parents and this did not go over too well. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 4, 2007 Author Report Share Posted June 4, 2007 thats when i made plans for friday And your plans for Friday? What happened with your loss of cell phone privileges, etc.? were to get drunk. but i didnt want to most of the day. and then when i did it was too late. i got my cell phone and internet back but my stereo is still gone. What happened that you lost all your privileges? If you don't want to talk about it, I understand. i was "fresh" I am assuming you were fresh to your parents and this did not go over too well. exactly thats just life Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 7, 2007 Author Report Share Posted June 7, 2007 sometimes ill sit and ask the atmosphere, how can anyone bear this? when it rips at every corner? it's shameful i'm failing, falling behind i dont know who to trust i cannot stand alone i disgrace my earth myself id kill to throw up the wasted feelings of full and even through the memories its haunting it hurts me nothing is right nothing is quite good enough cant help but wish to end my life when the options are unlimited its more a cry out now then about the flow to i guess it's always seemed that way but in my heart, it never was i wish to set myself free without them but i cant do it im trapped here lost here Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted June 8, 2007 Report Share Posted June 8, 2007 sometimes ill sit and ask the atmosphere,how can anyone bear this? when it rips at every corner? it's shameful i'm failing, falling behind i dont know who to trust i cannot stand alone i disgrace my earth myself id kill to throw up the wasted feelings of full and even through the memories its haunting it hurts me nothing is right nothing is quite good enough cant help but wish to end my life when the options are unlimited its more a cry out now then about the flow to i guess it's always seemed that way but in my heart, it never was i wish to set myself free without them but i cant do it im trapped here lost here ...I'm just going to keep quiet bc I'm not supposed to bring religion anywhere. I wish I could help you, Lauren. I know what it feels like to be lost and trapped =\ <.< I ended up going to counseling because of it. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted June 8, 2007 Report Share Posted June 8, 2007 ...I'm just going to keep quiet bc I'm not supposed to bring religion anywhere. Religion can be discussed in the religion topic. You could always ask Lauren to go there. Or provide her with a link to your post there. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted June 8, 2007 Report Share Posted June 8, 2007 ...I'm just going to keep quiet bc I'm not supposed to bring religion anywhere. Religion can be discussed in the religion topic. You could always ask Lauren to go there. Or provide her with a link to your post there. a) too much work...my head hurts today. b ) last time I said something in the relig forum, it was either ignored or shot down, I don't remember. >.> that and I'm still trying to figure out the right tone to write in. woo! I might have a job! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted June 9, 2007 Report Share Posted June 9, 2007 ...I'm just going to keep quiet bc I'm not supposed to bring religion anywhere. Religion can be discussed in the religion topic. You could always ask Lauren to go there. Or provide her with a link to your post there. a) too much work...my head hurts today. b ) last time I said something in the relig forum, it was either ignored or shot down, I don't remember. >.> that and I'm still trying to figure out the right tone to write in. woo! I might have a job! Write when you feel like it. Just for the record, your post was about you writing in another forum about your religious views and people giving you an incredibly hard time. The people on the other website were really, really mean. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 9, 2007 Author Report Share Posted June 9, 2007 id just disregard your religion theory anyway. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted June 10, 2007 Report Share Posted June 10, 2007 id just disregard your religion theory anyway. I rest my case, H. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted June 10, 2007 Report Share Posted June 10, 2007 id just disregard your religion theory anyway. I rest my case, H. But you still have a place to express your ideas. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 11, 2007 Author Report Share Posted June 11, 2007 id just disregard your religion theory anyway. I rest my case, H. But you still have a place to express your ideas. wait i dont get why she cant say it herrrrrrre? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted June 11, 2007 Report Share Posted June 11, 2007 id just disregard your religion theory anyway. I rest my case, H. But you still have a place to express your ideas. wait i dont get why she cant say it herrrrrrre? Because HampsterKing has asked that religion matters be discussed in the religion topic. I am sure you could venture over to that topic. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted June 11, 2007 Report Share Posted June 11, 2007 id just disregard your religion theory anyway. I rest my case, H. But you still have a place to express your ideas. wait i dont get why she cant say it herrrrrrre? Because HampsterKing has asked that religion matters be discussed in the religion topic. I am sure you could venture over to that topic. that and the world isn't fair *goes to clean living room will be back in 30 min XD* Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 11, 2007 Author Report Share Posted June 11, 2007 id just disregard your religion theory anyway. I rest my case, H. But you still have a place to express your ideas. wait i dont get why she cant say it herrrrrrre? Because HampsterKing has asked that religion matters be discussed in the religion topic. I am sure you could venture over to that topic. that and the world isn't fair *goes to clean living room will be back in 30 min XD* free speech should apply anywhere..? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted June 11, 2007 Report Share Posted June 11, 2007 id just disregard your religion theory anyway. I rest my case, H. But you still have a place to express your ideas. wait i dont get why she cant say it herrrrrrre? Because HampsterKing has asked that religion matters be discussed in the religion topic. I am sure you could venture over to that topic. that and the world isn't fair *goes to clean living room will be back in 30 min XD* free speech should apply anywhere..? Not really. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted June 12, 2007 Report Share Posted June 12, 2007 id just disregard your religion theory anyway. I rest my case, H. But you still have a place to express your ideas. wait i dont get why she cant say it herrrrrrre? Because HampsterKing has asked that religion matters be discussed in the religion topic. I am sure you could venture over to that topic. that and the world isn't fair *goes to clean living room will be back in 30 min XD* free speech should apply anywhere..? Not really. proper time place and manner restrictions...and a safe haven for people online. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 12, 2007 Author Report Share Posted June 12, 2007 id just disregard your religion theory anyway. I rest my case, H. But you still have a place to express your ideas. wait i dont get why she cant say it herrrrrrre? Because HampsterKing has asked that religion matters be discussed in the religion topic. I am sure you could venture over to that topic. that and the world isn't fair *goes to clean living room will be back in 30 min XD* free speech should apply anywhere..? Not really. .. wow. just wow. thats real messed up Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted June 12, 2007 Report Share Posted June 12, 2007 id just disregard your religion theory anyway. I rest my case, H. But you still have a place to express your ideas. wait i dont get why she cant say it herrrrrrre? Because HampsterKing has asked that religion matters be discussed in the religion topic. I am sure you could venture over to that topic. that and the world isn't fair *goes to clean living room will be back in 30 min XD* free speech should apply anywhere..? Not really. .. wow. just wow. thats real messed up Not really. A perfect example of free speech not being permitted everywhere is this... Try out your free sppech idea in your parent's home. In most homes, I can pretty much guarantee you that your right to free speech will go as far as your parents patience. There are other places in public where free speech is not permitted... such as yelling "fire" in a crowded movie theatre. It comes to mind that if you started talking loudly or even yelling anything in a movie theatre you might be escorted out. When it comes to private property, the owner makes the rules. But for you, I think you should not try out the free speech idea unless you want to be grounded. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted June 13, 2007 Report Share Posted June 13, 2007 id just disregard your religion theory anyway. I rest my case, H. But you still have a place to express your ideas. wait i dont get why she cant say it herrrrrrre? Because HampsterKing has asked that religion matters be discussed in the religion topic. I am sure you could venture over to that topic. that and the world isn't fair *goes to clean living room will be back in 30 min XD* free speech should apply anywhere..? Not really. .. wow. just wow. thats real messed up Not really. A perfect example of free speech not being permitted everywhere is this... Try out your free sppech idea in your parent's home. In most homes, I can pretty much guarantee you that your right to free speech will go as far as your parents patience. There are other places in public where free speech is not permitted... such as yelling "fire" in a crowded movie theatre. It comes to mind that if you started talking loudly or even yelling anything in a movie theatre you might be escorted out. When it comes to private property, the owner makes the rules. But for you, I think you should not try out the free speech idea unless you want to be grounded. exactly. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 13, 2007 Author Report Share Posted June 13, 2007 id just disregard your religion theory anyway. I rest my case, H. But you still have a place to express your ideas. wait i dont get why she cant say it herrrrrrre? Because HampsterKing has asked that religion matters be discussed in the religion topic. I am sure you could venture over to that topic. that and the world isn't fair *goes to clean living room will be back in 30 min XD* free speech should apply anywhere..? Not really. .. wow. just wow. thats real messed up Not really. A perfect example of free speech not being permitted everywhere is this... Try out your free sppech idea in your parent's home. In most homes, I can pretty much guarantee you that your right to free speech will go as far as your parents patience. There are other places in public where free speech is not permitted... such as yelling "fire" in a crowded movie theatre. It comes to mind that if you started talking loudly or even yelling anything in a movie theatre you might be escorted out. When it comes to private property, the owner makes the rules. But for you, I think you should not try out the free speech idea unless you want to be grounded. exactly. fgjsdfl;fkjdslfkjsd;lkf parents censorship and hampsterdance >.<<<<<<<<<<<< Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted June 13, 2007 Report Share Posted June 13, 2007 id just disregard your religion theory anyway. I rest my case, H. But you still have a place to express your ideas. wait i dont get why she cant say it herrrrrrre? Because HampsterKing has asked that religion matters be discussed in the religion topic. I am sure you could venture over to that topic. that and the world isn't fair *goes to clean living room will be back in 30 min XD* free speech should apply anywhere..? Not really. .. wow. just wow. thats real messed up Not really. A perfect example of free speech not being permitted everywhere is this... Try out your free sppech idea in your parent's home. In most homes, I can pretty much guarantee you that your right to free speech will go as far as your parents patience. There are other places in public where free speech is not permitted... such as yelling "fire" in a crowded movie theatre. It comes to mind that if you started talking loudly or even yelling anything in a movie theatre you might be escorted out. When it comes to private property, the owner makes the rules. But for you, I think you should not try out the free speech idea unless you want to be grounded. exactly. <_> fgjsdfl;fkjdslfkjsd;lkf parents censorship and hampsterdance >. LOL True. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 14, 2007 Author Report Share Posted June 14, 2007 in deeeeed so ive almost decided that i should get therapy this summer Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted June 14, 2007 Report Share Posted June 14, 2007 in deeeeed so ive almost decided that i should get therapy this summer Please do. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 17, 2007 Author Report Share Posted June 17, 2007 eh. i dont really wanna anymore. why should i change? ive done nothing wrong i deserve no punishment and if people dont wanna hear me anymore then they should just say "shove it lauren" and ill just continue thinking the way i do silently Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted June 17, 2007 Report Share Posted June 17, 2007 eh.i dont really wanna anymore. why should i change? ive done nothing wrong i deserve no punishment and if people dont wanna hear me anymore then they should just say "shove it lauren" and ill just continue thinking the way i do silently We want to hear what you have to say. Friends care and do not want anything to happen to you. So we express our views even though they do not agree with your line of thinking. You contribute quite a bit to these boards and our lives. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 17, 2007 Author Report Share Posted June 17, 2007 eh.i dont really wanna anymore. why should i change? ive done nothing wrong i deserve no punishment and if people dont wanna hear me anymore then they should just say "shove it lauren" and ill just continue thinking the way i do silently We want to hear what you have to say. Friends care and do not want anything to happen to you. So we express our views even though they do not agree with your line of thinking. You contribute quite a bit to these boards and our lives. ok Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted June 17, 2007 Report Share Posted June 17, 2007 eh.i dont really wanna anymore. why should i change? ive done nothing wrong i deserve no punishment and if people dont wanna hear me anymore then they should just say "shove it lauren" and ill just continue thinking the way i do silently We want to hear what you have to say. Friends care and do not want anything to happen to you. So we express our views even though they do not agree with your line of thinking. You contribute quite a bit to these boards and our lives. ok Good. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 18, 2007 Author Report Share Posted June 18, 2007 i hope you know i dont believe that Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted June 18, 2007 Report Share Posted June 18, 2007 i hope you know i dont believe that That is your prerogative. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 18, 2007 Author Report Share Posted June 18, 2007 :[ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted June 18, 2007 Report Share Posted June 18, 2007 eh.i dont really wanna anymore. why should i change? ive done nothing wrong i deserve no punishment and if people dont wanna hear me anymore then they should just say "shove it lauren" and ill just continue thinking the way i do silently Do you honestly like feeling bad about yourself, or being controlled by a need for control? You don't really control yourself...you're controlled by what you think you control. It's a downward spiral that will land you in a very dark place...where nobody wants to be, ever. and um...yes you have. drugs are illegal. alcohol is illegal for anyone under 21. smoking is illegal if you're under 18 (and should be illegal for everyone). We like to hear from you. We also want to see you happy. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 18, 2007 Author Report Share Posted June 18, 2007 eh.i dont really wanna anymore. why should i change? ive done nothing wrong i deserve no punishment and if people dont wanna hear me anymore then they should just say "shove it lauren" and ill just continue thinking the way i do silently Do you honestly like feeling bad about yourself, or being controlled by a need for control? You don't really control yourself...you're controlled by what you think you control. It's a downward spiral that will land you in a very dark place...where nobody wants to be, ever. and um...yes you have. drugs are illegal. alcohol is illegal for anyone under 21. smoking is illegal if you're under 18 (and should be illegal for everyone). We like to hear from you. We also want to see you happy. "Do you honestly like feeling bad about yourself, or being controlled by a need for control?" sometimes YES, alot. and wutever im not stoppin that stuff. i dont think ive ever been happy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mega Wolf Posted July 8, 2007 Report Share Posted July 8, 2007 eh.i dont really wanna anymore. why should i change? ive done nothing wrong i deserve no punishment and if people dont wanna hear me anymore then they should just say "shove it lauren" and ill just continue thinking the way i do silently Do you honestly like feeling bad about yourself, or being controlled by a need for control? You don't really control yourself...you're controlled by what you think you control. It's a downward spiral that will land you in a very dark place...where nobody wants to be, ever. and um...yes you have. drugs are illegal. alcohol is illegal for anyone under 21. smoking is illegal if you're under 18 (and should be illegal for everyone). We like to hear from you. We also want to see you happy. "Do you honestly like feeling bad about yourself, or being controlled by a need for control?" sometimes YES, alot. and wutever im not stoppin that stuff. i dont think ive ever been happy You've had happy times. You just seem to forget about them. Of course, being like the majority. Thinking the bad outweighs the good. =/ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted July 10, 2007 Report Share Posted July 10, 2007 eh.i dont really wanna anymore. why should i change? ive done nothing wrong i deserve no punishment and if people dont wanna hear me anymore then they should just say "shove it lauren" and ill just continue thinking the way i do silently Do you honestly like feeling bad about yourself, or being controlled by a need for control? You don't really control yourself...you're controlled by what you think you control. It's a downward spiral that will land you in a very dark place...where nobody wants to be, ever. and um...yes you have. drugs are illegal. alcohol is illegal for anyone under 21. smoking is illegal if you're under 18 (and should be illegal for everyone). We like to hear from you. We also want to see you happy. "Do you honestly like feeling bad about yourself, or being controlled by a need for control?" sometimes YES, alot. and wutever im not stoppin that stuff. i dont think ive ever been happy You've had happy times. You just seem to forget about them. Of course, being like the majority. Thinking the bad outweighs the good. =/ I second. Lauren. You're not letting yoruself experience positivity. It's small wonder you like to feel bad, you have never let yourself feel good, so you don't know what you're missing. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted July 29, 2007 Author Report Share Posted July 29, 2007 thats not true i only write about unhappy times mostly thats all you know (and to correct whoever,idr, smoking under 18 is not illegal and why is everyone so closedminded? some people live differently) "as long as im alive ima live illegal" Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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