xMyOwnMindx Posted April 26, 2007 Report Share Posted April 26, 2007 i wanted to believe i wasnt a phase but i was and i wanted to believe in friendship but you took it away i wanted to believe in family peace my examples all crumbled i wanted love and peace and unity between countries races and neighborer's i saw war i saw hate words and feelings crushed cant you show me the places in my dreams? cant i be the girl i wanna be? wheres the peace we all stand for? so much wrong in this world that i weap for and who am i to sit and say its gonna get better when im wrapped up dying here walking talking corpse wheres the honesty? that was promised to me what happened to the way things seemed they'd turn out from strong to weak to powerless we slowly fall apart a little hope will never set this free enough and every small decision is weighed out to a million passing doubts insecurities and selfdoubt regrets and apathy pull at the worn corners of my heart i wanted happy endings i hate this bitter sweet emptiness Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted April 26, 2007 Report Share Posted April 26, 2007 i wanted to believe i wasnt a phase but i was and i wanted to believe in friendship but you took it away i wanted to believe in family peace my examples all crumbled i wanted love and peace and unity between countries races and neighborer's i saw war i saw hate words and feelings crushed cant you show me the places in my dreams? cant i be the girl i wanna be? wheres the peace we all stand for? so much wrong in this world that i weap for and who am i to sit and say its gonna get better when im wrapped up dying here walking talking corpse wheres the honesty? that was promised to me what happened to the way things seemed they'd turn out from strong to weak to powerless we slowly fall apart a little hope will never set this free enough and every small decision is weighed out to a million passing doubts insecurities and selfdoubt regrets and apathy pull at the worn corners of my heart i wanted happy endings i hate this bitter sweet emptiness WOW! Very powerful. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted April 26, 2007 Author Report Share Posted April 26, 2007 thank you. i like it to. this one, the angel does bleed or wutever i called it and the weird one named the things i drink. lol. they're like a 3 part story of my heart. lol they just seem conected to me i wish i knew how to write about something other then myself im a big poetic crybaby. :Pp Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted April 26, 2007 Report Share Posted April 26, 2007 thank you. i like it to. this one, the angel does bleed or wutever i called it and the weird one named the things i drink. lol.they're like a 3 part story of my heart. lol they just seem conected to me i wish i knew how to write about something other then myself im a big poetic crybaby. :Pp You are not a crybaby. You are expressing yourself with words. Not everyone has the ability to do this. As for writing about other things, this will come. All in due time. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted April 26, 2007 Author Report Share Posted April 26, 2007 thank you. i like it to. this one, the angel does bleed or wutever i called it and the weird one named the things i drink. lol.they're like a 3 part story of my heart. lol they just seem conected to me i wish i knew how to write about something other then myself im a big poetic crybaby. :Pp You are not a crybaby. You are expressing yourself with words. Not everyone has the ability to do this. As for writing about other things, this will come. All in due time. no ive tried i cant write about anything it stinks i wish i could draw. that would be cool. all i can do is cry out in a pretty way pshh lame. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted April 26, 2007 Report Share Posted April 26, 2007 thank you. i like it to. this one, the angel does bleed or wutever i called it and the weird one named the things i drink. lol.they're like a 3 part story of my heart. lol they just seem conected to me i wish i knew how to write about something other then myself im a big poetic crybaby. :Pp You are not a crybaby. You are expressing yourself with words. Not everyone has the ability to do this. As for writing about other things, this will come. All in due time. no ive tried i cant write about anything it stinks i wish i could draw. that would be cool. all i can do is cry out in a pretty way pshh lame. You will be able to write about other things when you have put this phase of your life behind you. For now, you have helped others in a similar situation realize that there are other people who are going through what they are. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted April 26, 2007 Author Report Share Posted April 26, 2007 thank you. i like it to. this one, the angel does bleed or wutever i called it and the weird one named the things i drink. lol.they're like a 3 part story of my heart. lol they just seem conected to me i wish i knew how to write about something other then myself im a big poetic crybaby. :Pp You are not a crybaby. You are expressing yourself with words. Not everyone has the ability to do this. As for writing about other things, this will come. All in due time. no ive tried i cant write about anything it stinks i wish i could draw. that would be cool. all i can do is cry out in a pretty way pshh lame. You will be able to write about other things when you have put this phase of your life behind you. For now, you have helped others in a similar situation realize that there are other people who are going through what they are. i bet it, stinks doesnt quite say it.. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted April 26, 2007 Report Share Posted April 26, 2007 thank you. i like it to. this one, the angel does bleed or wutever i called it and the weird one named the things i drink. lol.they're like a 3 part story of my heart. lol they just seem conected to me i wish i knew how to write about something other then myself im a big poetic crybaby. :Pp You are not a crybaby. You are expressing yourself with words. Not everyone has the ability to do this. As for writing about other things, this will come. All in due time. no ive tried i cant write about anything it stinks i wish i could draw. that would be cool. all i can do is cry out in a pretty way pshh lame. You will be able to write about other things when you have put this phase of your life behind you. For now, you have helped others in a similar situation realize that there are other people who are going through what they are. i bet it, stinks doesnt quite say it.. It does not stink at all. Your poems are very emotional, powerful and packed with windows that view sensitive topics that some people would never dare speak of. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted April 26, 2007 Author Report Share Posted April 26, 2007 thank you. i like it to. this one, the angel does bleed or wutever i called it and the weird one named the things i drink. lol.they're like a 3 part story of my heart. lol they just seem conected to me i wish i knew how to write about something other then myself im a big poetic crybaby. :Pp You are not a crybaby. You are expressing yourself with words. Not everyone has the ability to do this. As for writing about other things, this will come. All in due time. no ive tried i cant write about anything it stinks i wish i could draw. that would be cool. all i can do is cry out in a pretty way pshh lame. You will be able to write about other things when you have put this phase of your life behind you. For now, you have helped others in a similar situation realize that there are other people who are going through what they are. i bet it, stinks doesnt quite say it.. It does not stink at all. Your poems are very emotional, powerful and packed with windows that view sensitive topics that some people would never dare speak of. i meant the feeling. id be cool if i believed you but theres like 12 million emo kids on xanga that are writing stuff like mine i dont really see it as special but its cool you do writing doesnt really help that much only if you write like 19 poems at a time / a really long one. or if you can write correctly, with like.. actual poem-y stuff. lol Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted April 26, 2007 Report Share Posted April 26, 2007 thank you. i like it to. this one, the angel does bleed or wutever i called it and the weird one named the things i drink. lol.they're like a 3 part story of my heart. lol they just seem conected to me i wish i knew how to write about something other then myself im a big poetic crybaby. :Pp You are not a crybaby. You are expressing yourself with words. Not everyone has the ability to do this. As for writing about other things, this will come. All in due time. no ive tried i cant write about anything it stinks i wish i could draw. that would be cool. all i can do is cry out in a pretty way pshh lame. You will be able to write about other things when you have put this phase of your life behind you. For now, you have helped others in a similar situation realize that there are other people who are going through what they are. i bet it, stinks doesnt quite say it.. It does not stink at all. Your poems are very emotional, powerful and packed with windows that view sensitive topics that some people would never dare speak of. i meant the feeling. id be cool if i believed you but theres like 12 million emo kids on xanga that are writing stuff like mine i dont really see it as special but its cool you do writing doesnt really help that much only if you write like 19 poems at a time / a really long one. or if you can write correctly, with like.. actual poem-y stuff. lol I disagree that you need to write correctly with actual poemy stuff. If that was the case, Picasso's art would be worthless. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted April 27, 2007 Author Report Share Posted April 27, 2007 but there was only one guy like him theres like.. a billion kids online that write the same/better then me Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted April 27, 2007 Report Share Posted April 27, 2007 but there was only one guy like himtheres like.. a billion kids online that write the same/better then me I disagree. There is not a billion kids online that write the same/better than you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted April 28, 2007 Author Report Share Posted April 28, 2007 but there was only one guy like himtheres like.. a billion kids online that write the same/better then me I disagree. There is not a billion kids online that write the same/better than you. id put up sites but youd shoot me in the behind. haha Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted April 28, 2007 Report Share Posted April 28, 2007 but there was only one guy like himtheres like.. a billion kids online that write the same/better then me I disagree. There is not a billion kids online that write the same/better than you. id put up sites but youd shoot me in the behind. haha I would be in the major edit mode. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted April 28, 2007 Author Report Share Posted April 28, 2007 but there was only one guy like himtheres like.. a billion kids online that write the same/better then me I disagree. There is not a billion kids online that write the same/better than you. id put up sites but youd shoot me in the behind. haha I would be in the major edit mode. exactly. any depressed teen can write a poem Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted April 28, 2007 Report Share Posted April 28, 2007 but there was only one guy like himtheres like.. a billion kids online that write the same/better then me I disagree. There is not a billion kids online that write the same/better than you. id put up sites but youd shoot me in the behind. haha I would be in the major edit mode. exactly. any depressed teen can write a poem No. Any depressed teen can put words down on paper or across a computer screen. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted April 28, 2007 Author Report Share Posted April 28, 2007 but there was only one guy like himtheres like.. a billion kids online that write the same/better then me I disagree. There is not a billion kids online that write the same/better than you. id put up sites but youd shoot me in the behind. haha I would be in the major edit mode. exactly. any depressed teen can write a poem No. Any depressed teen can put words down on paper or across a computer screen. which is all i do Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted April 28, 2007 Report Share Posted April 28, 2007 but there was only one guy like himtheres like.. a billion kids online that write the same/better then me I disagree. There is not a billion kids online that write the same/better than you. id put up sites but youd shoot me in the behind. haha I would be in the major edit mode. exactly. any depressed teen can write a poem No. Any depressed teen can put words down on paper or across a computer screen. which is all i do I believe you have a bit more to say and a more more eloquent way of saying it. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mushroom_king Posted April 28, 2007 Report Share Posted April 28, 2007 thank you. i like it to. this one, the angel does bleed or wutever i called it and the weird one named the things i drink. lol.they're like a 3 part story of my heart. lol they just seem conected to me i wish i knew how to write about something other then myself im a big poetic crybaby. :Pp You are not a crybaby. You are expressing yourself with words. Not everyone has the ability to do this. As for writing about other things, this will come. All in due time. no ive tried i cant write about anything it stinks i wish i could draw. that would be cool. all i can do is cry out in a pretty way pshh lame. You will be able to write about other things when you have put this phase of your life behind you. For now, you have helped others in a similar situation realize that there are other people who are going through what they are. i bet it, stinks doesnt quite say it.. It does not stink at all. Your poems are very emotional, powerful and packed with windows that view sensitive topics that some people would never dare speak of. i meant the feeling. id be cool if i believed you but theres like 12 million emo kids on xanga that are writing stuff like mine i dont really see it as special but its cool you do writing doesnt really help that much only if you write like 19 poems at a time / a really long one. or if you can write correctly, with like.. actual poem-y stuff. lol I disagree that you need to write correctly with actual poemy stuff. If that was the case, Picasso's art would be worthless. *~*The Grand Illusion*~*The Final Cut*~* And only about a hundred band's music would be worthless. *kills herself for being such a geeky music encyclopedia* *~*The Psychedelic Luau*~*The Astronomy Domine*~* Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted April 28, 2007 Author Report Share Posted April 28, 2007 but there was only one guy like himtheres like.. a billion kids online that write the same/better then me I disagree. There is not a billion kids online that write the same/better than you. id put up sites but youd shoot me in the behind. haha I would be in the major edit mode. exactly. any depressed teen can write a poem No. Any depressed teen can put words down on paper or across a computer screen. which is all i do I believe you have a bit more to say and a more more eloquent way of saying it. thanks. too bad im too lazy to even attempt to improve at anything at all. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted April 28, 2007 Report Share Posted April 28, 2007 but there was only one guy like himtheres like.. a billion kids online that write the same/better then me I disagree. There is not a billion kids online that write the same/better than you. id put up sites but youd shoot me in the behind. haha I would be in the major edit mode. exactly. any depressed teen can write a poem No. Any depressed teen can put words down on paper or across a computer screen. which is all i do I believe you have a bit more to say and a more more eloquent way of saying it. thanks. too bad im too lazy to even attempt to improve at anything at all. Actually you have improved. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted April 28, 2007 Author Report Share Posted April 28, 2007 Actually you have improved. how so Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted April 28, 2007 Report Share Posted April 28, 2007 Actually you have improved. how so In the manner in which you express yourself. The strutcure of your poetry. To me, it flows better. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted April 28, 2007 Author Report Share Posted April 28, 2007 Actually you have improved. how so In the manner in which you express yourself. The strutcure of your poetry. To me, it flows better. thanks. i want to improve but im lazy. lol i have no drive to do anything Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted April 28, 2007 Report Share Posted April 28, 2007 Actually you have improved. how so In the manner in which you express yourself. The strutcure of your poetry. To me, it flows better. thanks. i want to improve but im lazy. lol i have no drive to do anything Hopefully this will change. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted April 28, 2007 Author Report Share Posted April 28, 2007 Actually you have improved. how so In the manner in which you express yourself. The strutcure of your poetry. To me, it flows better. thanks. i want to improve but im lazy. lol i have no drive to do anything Hopefully this will change. eh dont see how it will Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted April 28, 2007 Report Share Posted April 28, 2007 Actually you have improved. how so In the manner in which you express yourself. The strutcure of your poetry. To me, it flows better. thanks. i want to improve but im lazy. lol i have no drive to do anything Hopefully this will change. eh dont see how it will It will. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted April 29, 2007 Author Report Share Posted April 29, 2007 i guess ill need to grow into that? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted April 29, 2007 Report Share Posted April 29, 2007 i guess ill need to grow into that? Probably. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted May 2, 2007 Author Report Share Posted May 2, 2007 i guess ill need to grow into that? Probably. i dont wanna waste my youth waiting for a time ill grow into caring but im so darn lazy i dont want to TRY for anything it all seems pointless Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted May 2, 2007 Report Share Posted May 2, 2007 i guess ill need to grow into that? Probably. i dont wanna waste my youth waiting for a time ill grow into caring but im so darn lazy i dont want to TRY for anything it all seems pointless The problem is that when you get into that state of mind, it seems useless to try and change. But, once you get to college, I do see things changing for the better. Hopefully you will go to school far from home, get into the dorm life and see how great things can be for you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted May 2, 2007 Author Report Share Posted May 2, 2007 i guess ill need to grow into that? Probably. i dont wanna waste my youth waiting for a time ill grow into caring but im so darn lazy i dont want to TRY for anything it all seems pointless The problem is that when you get into that state of mind, it seems useless to try and change. But, once you get to college, I do see things changing for the better. Hopefully you will go to school far from home, get into the dorm life and see how great things can be for you. part of me wnats to get out of this state and stuff see more places and not on vaca but part of me wants to go to Rutgers and stuff and then part of me doesnt know if my grades/other stuff is even good enough for a real college.. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted May 2, 2007 Report Share Posted May 2, 2007 i guess ill need to grow into that? Probably. i dont wanna waste my youth waiting for a time ill grow into caring but im so darn lazy i dont want to TRY for anything it all seems pointless The problem is that when you get into that state of mind, it seems useless to try and change. But, once you get to college, I do see things changing for the better. Hopefully you will go to school far from home, get into the dorm life and see how great things can be for you. part of me wnats to get out of this state and stuff see more places and not on vaca but part of me wants to go to Rutgers and stuff and then part of me doesnt know if my grades/other stuff is even good enough for a real college.. You can definitely get into a "real" college. There are different magazines that show how to make one application fee and it sends your application to a zillion schools and they respond back directly to you. There is also a reference book in the library, called The Blue Book of American Colleges and Universities. These books are outstanding and allow you to see what schools offer and expose you to all the schools in the USA. I highly recommend taking a look at these books. You can search via a number of different methods and find great results. Personally, I recommend you go to a school that is far enough away from home that you are living in the dorm. This would be a really great experience for you. A community college or local four-year college might be nice, but I still think you need to experience living away. Also, I would not count out any other state, because there are some really outstanding schools that are outside of the Northeast area. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted May 2, 2007 Author Report Share Posted May 2, 2007 i guess ill need to grow into that? Probably. i dont wanna waste my youth waiting for a time ill grow into caring but im so darn lazy i dont want to TRY for anything it all seems pointless The problem is that when you get into that state of mind, it seems useless to try and change. But, once you get to college, I do see things changing for the better. Hopefully you will go to school far from home, get into the dorm life and see how great things can be for you. part of me wnats to get out of this state and stuff see more places and not on vaca but part of me wants to go to Rutgers and stuff and then part of me doesnt know if my grades/other stuff is even good enough for a real college.. You can definitely get into a "real" college. There are different magazines that show how to make one application fee and it sends your application to a zillion schools and they respond back directly to you. There is also a reference book in the library, called The Blue Book of American Colleges and Universities. These books are outstanding and allow you to see what schools offer and expose you to all the schools in the USA. I highly recommend taking a look at these books. You can search via a number of different methods and find great results. Personally, I recommend you go to a school that is far enough away from home that you are living in the dorm. This would be a really great experience for you. A community college or local four-year college might be nice, but I still think you need to experience living away. Also, I would not count out any other state, because there are some really outstanding schools that are outside of the Northeast area. thanks. i have no idea wut i wanna do my whole life or major in or where i wanna live or anything i hate thinking about the future, cuz i never wanted one.. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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