we wouldve played in traffic as children

[xMyOwnMindx]

i wanted to believe

i wasnt a phase

but i was

and i wanted to believe in friendship

but you took it away

i wanted to believe in family peace

my examples all crumbled

i wanted love and peace and unity

between countries races and neighborer's

i saw war

i saw hate

words and feelings crushed

cant you show me the places in my dreams?

cant i be the girl i wanna be?

wheres the peace we all stand for?

so much wrong in this world that i weap for

and who am i

to sit and say its gonna get better

when im wrapped up dying here

walking talking corpse

wheres the honesty?

that was promised to me

what happened to the way things seemed they'd turn out

from strong to weak to powerless

we slowly fall apart

a little hope

will never set this free enough

and every small decision

is weighed out to a million passing doubts

insecurities and selfdoubt

regrets and apathy

pull at the worn corners of my heart

i wanted happy endings

i hate this bitter sweet emptiness

[Horatio]

i wanted to believe

i wasnt a phase

but i was

and i wanted to believe in friendship

but you took it away

i wanted to believe in family peace

my examples all crumbled

i wanted love and peace and unity

between countries races and neighborer's

i saw war

i saw hate

words and feelings crushed

cant you show me the places in my dreams?

cant i be the girl i wanna be?

wheres the peace we all stand for?

so much wrong in this world that i weap for

and who am i

to sit and say its gonna get better

when im wrapped up dying here

walking talking corpse

wheres the honesty?

that was promised to me

what happened to the way things seemed they'd turn out

from strong to weak to powerless

we slowly fall apart

a little hope

will never set this free enough

and every small decision

is weighed out to a million passing doubts

insecurities and selfdoubt

regrets and apathy

pull at the worn corners of my heart

i wanted happy endings

i hate this bitter sweet emptiness

WOW! Very powerful.

[xMyOwnMindx]

thank you. i like it to. this one, the angel does bleed or wutever i called it and the weird one named the things i drink. lol.

they're like a 3 part story of my heart. lol

they just seem conected to me

i wish i knew how to write about something other then myself

im a big poetic crybaby. :Pp

[Horatio]

thank you. i like it to. this one, the angel does bleed or wutever i called it and the weird one named the things i drink. lol.

they're like a 3 part story of my heart. lol

they just seem conected to me

i wish i knew how to write about something other then myself

im a big poetic crybaby. :Pp

You are not a crybaby. You are expressing yourself with words. Not everyone has the ability to do this.

As for writing about other things, this will come. All in due time.

[xMyOwnMindx]

thank you. i like it to. this one, the angel does bleed or wutever i called it and the weird one named the things i drink. lol.

they're like a 3 part story of my heart. lol

they just seem conected to me

i wish i knew how to write about something other then myself

im a big poetic crybaby. :Pp

You are not a crybaby. You are expressing yourself with words. Not everyone has the ability to do this.

As for writing about other things, this will come. All in due time.

no ive tried

i cant write about anything

it stinks

 

i wish i could draw. that would be cool.

all i can do is cry out in a pretty way

pshh lame.

[Horatio]

thank you. i like it to. this one, the angel does bleed or wutever i called it and the weird one named the things i drink. lol.

they're like a 3 part story of my heart. lol

they just seem conected to me

i wish i knew how to write about something other then myself

im a big poetic crybaby. :Pp

You are not a crybaby. You are expressing yourself with words. Not everyone has the ability to do this.

As for writing about other things, this will come. All in due time.

no ive tried

i cant write about anything

it stinks

 

i wish i could draw. that would be cool.

all i can do is cry out in a pretty way

pshh lame.

You will be able to write about other things when you have put this phase of your life behind you. For now, you have helped others in a similar situation realize that there are other people who are going through what they are.

[xMyOwnMindx]

thank you. i like it to. this one, the angel does bleed or wutever i called it and the weird one named the things i drink. lol.

they're like a 3 part story of my heart. lol

they just seem conected to me

i wish i knew how to write about something other then myself

im a big poetic crybaby. :Pp

You are not a crybaby. You are expressing yourself with words. Not everyone has the ability to do this.

As for writing about other things, this will come. All in due time.

no ive tried

i cant write about anything

it stinks

 

i wish i could draw. that would be cool.

all i can do is cry out in a pretty way

pshh lame.

You will be able to write about other things when you have put this phase of your life behind you. For now, you have helped others in a similar situation realize that there are other people who are going through what they are.

i bet it, stinks doesnt quite say it..

[Horatio]

thank you. i like it to. this one, the angel does bleed or wutever i called it and the weird one named the things i drink. lol.

they're like a 3 part story of my heart. lol

they just seem conected to me

i wish i knew how to write about something other then myself

im a big poetic crybaby. :Pp

You are not a crybaby. You are expressing yourself with words. Not everyone has the ability to do this.

As for writing about other things, this will come. All in due time.

no ive tried

i cant write about anything

it stinks

 

i wish i could draw. that would be cool.

all i can do is cry out in a pretty way

pshh lame.

You will be able to write about other things when you have put this phase of your life behind you. For now, you have helped others in a similar situation realize that there are other people who are going through what they are.

i bet it, stinks doesnt quite say it..

It does not stink at all. Your poems are very emotional, powerful and packed with windows that view sensitive topics that some people would never dare speak of.

[xMyOwnMindx]

thank you. i like it to. this one, the angel does bleed or wutever i called it and the weird one named the things i drink. lol.

they're like a 3 part story of my heart. lol

they just seem conected to me

i wish i knew how to write about something other then myself

im a big poetic crybaby. :Pp

You are not a crybaby. You are expressing yourself with words. Not everyone has the ability to do this.

As for writing about other things, this will come. All in due time.

no ive tried

i cant write about anything

it stinks

 

i wish i could draw. that would be cool.

all i can do is cry out in a pretty way

pshh lame.

You will be able to write about other things when you have put this phase of your life behind you. For now, you have helped others in a similar situation realize that there are other people who are going through what they are.

i bet it, stinks doesnt quite say it..

It does not stink at all. Your poems are very emotional, powerful and packed with windows that view sensitive topics that some people would never dare speak of.

i meant the feeling.

 

id be cool if i believed you

but theres like 12 million emo kids on xanga that are writing stuff like mine

i dont really see it as special

but its cool you do

writing doesnt really help that much

only if you write like 19 poems at a time / a really long one.

or if you can write correctly, with like.. actual poem-y stuff. lol

[Horatio]

thank you. i like it to. this one, the angel does bleed or wutever i called it and the weird one named the things i drink. lol.

they're like a 3 part story of my heart. lol

they just seem conected to me

i wish i knew how to write about something other then myself

im a big poetic crybaby. :Pp

You are not a crybaby. You are expressing yourself with words. Not everyone has the ability to do this.

As for writing about other things, this will come. All in due time.

no ive tried

i cant write about anything

it stinks

 

i wish i could draw. that would be cool.

all i can do is cry out in a pretty way

pshh lame.

You will be able to write about other things when you have put this phase of your life behind you. For now, you have helped others in a similar situation realize that there are other people who are going through what they are.

i bet it, stinks doesnt quite say it..

It does not stink at all. Your poems are very emotional, powerful and packed with windows that view sensitive topics that some people would never dare speak of.

i meant the feeling.

 

id be cool if i believed you

but theres like 12 million emo kids on xanga that are writing stuff like mine

i dont really see it as special

but its cool you do

writing doesnt really help that much

only if you write like 19 poems at a time / a really long one.

or if you can write correctly, with like.. actual poem-y stuff. lol

I disagree that you need to write correctly with actual poemy stuff. If that was the case, Picasso's art would be worthless.

[xMyOwnMindx]

but there was only one guy like him

theres like.. a billion kids online that write the same/better then me

[Horatio]

but there was only one guy like him

theres like.. a billion kids online that write the same/better then me

I disagree. There is not a billion kids online that write the same/better than you.

[xMyOwnMindx]

but there was only one guy like him

theres like.. a billion kids online that write the same/better then me

I disagree. There is not a billion kids online that write the same/better than you.

id put up sites but youd shoot me in the behind. haha

[Horatio]

but there was only one guy like him

theres like.. a billion kids online that write the same/better then me

I disagree. There is not a billion kids online that write the same/better than you.

id put up sites but youd shoot me in the behind. haha

I would be in the major edit mode.

[xMyOwnMindx]

but there was only one guy like him

theres like.. a billion kids online that write the same/better then me

I disagree. There is not a billion kids online that write the same/better than you.

id put up sites but youd shoot me in the behind. haha

I would be in the major edit mode.

exactly.

any depressed teen can write a poem

[Horatio]

but there was only one guy like him

theres like.. a billion kids online that write the same/better then me

I disagree. There is not a billion kids online that write the same/better than you.

id put up sites but youd shoot me in the behind. haha

I would be in the major edit mode.

exactly.

any depressed teen can write a poem

No. Any depressed teen can put words down on paper or across a computer screen.

[xMyOwnMindx]

but there was only one guy like him

theres like.. a billion kids online that write the same/better then me

I disagree. There is not a billion kids online that write the same/better than you.

id put up sites but youd shoot me in the behind. haha

I would be in the major edit mode.

exactly.

any depressed teen can write a poem

No. Any depressed teen can put words down on paper or across a computer screen.

which is all i do

[Horatio]

but there was only one guy like him

theres like.. a billion kids online that write the same/better then me

I disagree. There is not a billion kids online that write the same/better than you.

id put up sites but youd shoot me in the behind. haha

I would be in the major edit mode.

exactly.

any depressed teen can write a poem

No. Any depressed teen can put words down on paper or across a computer screen.

which is all i do

I believe you have a bit more to say and a more more eloquent way of saying it.

[Mushroom_king]

thank you. i like it to. this one, the angel does bleed or wutever i called it and the weird one named the things i drink. lol.

they're like a 3 part story of my heart. lol

they just seem conected to me

i wish i knew how to write about something other then myself

im a big poetic crybaby. :Pp

You are not a crybaby. You are expressing yourself with words. Not everyone has the ability to do this.

As for writing about other things, this will come. All in due time.

no ive tried

i cant write about anything

it stinks

 

i wish i could draw. that would be cool.

all i can do is cry out in a pretty way

pshh lame.

You will be able to write about other things when you have put this phase of your life behind you. For now, you have helped others in a similar situation realize that there are other people who are going through what they are.

i bet it, stinks doesnt quite say it..

It does not stink at all. Your poems are very emotional, powerful and packed with windows that view sensitive topics that some people would never dare speak of.

i meant the feeling.

 

id be cool if i believed you

but theres like 12 million emo kids on xanga that are writing stuff like mine

i dont really see it as special

but its cool you do

writing doesnt really help that much

only if you write like 19 poems at a time / a really long one.

or if you can write correctly, with like.. actual poem-y stuff. lol

I disagree that you need to write correctly with actual poemy stuff. If that was the case, Picasso's art would be worthless.

*~*The Grand Illusion*~*The Final Cut*~*

 

And only about a hundred band's music would be worthless.

 

*kills herself for being such a geeky music encyclopedia*

 

*~*The Psychedelic Luau*~*The Astronomy Domine*~*

[xMyOwnMindx]

but there was only one guy like him

theres like.. a billion kids online that write the same/better then me

I disagree. There is not a billion kids online that write the same/better than you.

id put up sites but youd shoot me in the behind. haha

I would be in the major edit mode.

exactly.

any depressed teen can write a poem

No. Any depressed teen can put words down on paper or across a computer screen.

which is all i do

I believe you have a bit more to say and a more more eloquent way of saying it.

thanks.

too bad im too lazy to even attempt to improve at anything at all.

[Horatio]

but there was only one guy like him

theres like.. a billion kids online that write the same/better then me

I disagree. There is not a billion kids online that write the same/better than you.

id put up sites but youd shoot me in the behind. haha

I would be in the major edit mode.

exactly.

any depressed teen can write a poem

No. Any depressed teen can put words down on paper or across a computer screen.

which is all i do

I believe you have a bit more to say and a more more eloquent way of saying it.

thanks.

too bad im too lazy to even attempt to improve at anything at all.

Actually you have improved.

[xMyOwnMindx]

Actually you have improved.

how so

[Horatio]

Actually you have improved.

how so

In the manner in which you express yourself. The strutcure of your poetry.

To me, it flows better.

[xMyOwnMindx]

Actually you have improved.

how so

In the manner in which you express yourself. The strutcure of your poetry.

To me, it flows better.

thanks.

i want to improve

but im lazy. lol

i have no drive to do anything

[Horatio]

Actually you have improved.

how so

In the manner in which you express yourself. The strutcure of your poetry.

To me, it flows better.

thanks.

i want to improve

but im lazy. lol

i have no drive to do anything

Hopefully this will change.

[xMyOwnMindx]

Actually you have improved.

how so

In the manner in which you express yourself. The strutcure of your poetry.

To me, it flows better.

thanks.

i want to improve

but im lazy. lol

i have no drive to do anything

Hopefully this will change.

eh dont see how it will

[Horatio]

Actually you have improved.

how so

In the manner in which you express yourself. The strutcure of your poetry.

To me, it flows better.

thanks.

i want to improve

but im lazy. lol

i have no drive to do anything

Hopefully this will change.

eh dont see how it will

It will.

[xMyOwnMindx]

i guess ill need to grow into that?

[Horatio]

i guess ill need to grow into that?

Probably.

[xMyOwnMindx]

i guess ill need to grow into that?

Probably.

i dont wanna waste my youth waiting for a time ill grow into caring

but im so darn lazy

i dont want to TRY for anything

it all seems pointless

[Horatio]

i guess ill need to grow into that?

Probably.

i dont wanna waste my youth waiting for a time ill grow into caring

but im so darn lazy

i dont want to TRY for anything

it all seems pointless

The problem is that when you get into that state of mind, it seems useless to try and change.

But, once you get to college, I do see things changing for the better. Hopefully you will go to

school far from home, get into the dorm life and see how great things can be for you.

[xMyOwnMindx]

i guess ill need to grow into that?

Probably.

i dont wanna waste my youth waiting for a time ill grow into caring

but im so darn lazy

i dont want to TRY for anything

it all seems pointless

The problem is that when you get into that state of mind, it seems useless to try and change.

But, once you get to college, I do see things changing for the better. Hopefully you will go to

school far from home, get into the dorm life and see how great things can be for you.

part of me wnats to get out of this state and stuff

see more places and not on vaca

but part of me wants to go to Rutgers and stuff

and then part of me doesnt know if my grades/other stuff is even good enough for a real college..

[Horatio]

i guess ill need to grow into that?

Probably.

i dont wanna waste my youth waiting for a time ill grow into caring

but im so darn lazy

i dont want to TRY for anything

it all seems pointless

The problem is that when you get into that state of mind, it seems useless to try and change.

But, once you get to college, I do see things changing for the better. Hopefully you will go to

school far from home, get into the dorm life and see how great things can be for you.

part of me wnats to get out of this state and stuff

see more places and not on vaca

but part of me wants to go to Rutgers and stuff

and then part of me doesnt know if my grades/other stuff is even good enough for a real college..

You can definitely get into a "real" college.

 

There are different magazines that show how to make one application fee and it sends your application to a zillion schools and they respond back directly to you. There is also a reference book in the library, called The Blue Book of American Colleges and Universities. These books are outstanding and allow you to see what schools offer and expose you to all the schools in the USA. I highly recommend taking a look at these books. You can search via a number of different methods and find great results.

 

Personally, I recommend you go to a school that is far enough away from home that you are living in the dorm. This would be a really great experience for you. A community college or local four-year college might be nice, but I still think you need to experience living away. Also, I would not count out any other state, because there are some really outstanding schools that are outside of the Northeast area.

[xMyOwnMindx]

i guess ill need to grow into that?

Probably.

i dont wanna waste my youth waiting for a time ill grow into caring

but im so darn lazy

i dont want to TRY for anything

it all seems pointless

The problem is that when you get into that state of mind, it seems useless to try and change.

But, once you get to college, I do see things changing for the better. Hopefully you will go to

school far from home, get into the dorm life and see how great things can be for you.

part of me wnats to get out of this state and stuff

see more places and not on vaca

but part of me wants to go to Rutgers and stuff

and then part of me doesnt know if my grades/other stuff is even good enough for a real college..

You can definitely get into a "real" college.

 

There are different magazines that show how to make one application fee and it sends your application to a zillion schools and they respond back directly to you. There is also a reference book in the library, called The Blue Book of American Colleges and Universities. These books are outstanding and allow you to see what schools offer and expose you to all the schools in the USA. I highly recommend taking a look at these books. You can search via a number of different methods and find great results.

 

Personally, I recommend you go to a school that is far enough away from home that you are living in the dorm. This would be a really great experience for you. A community college or local four-year college might be nice, but I still think you need to experience living away. Also, I would not count out any other state, because there are some really outstanding schools that are outside of the Northeast area.

thanks.

i have no idea wut i wanna do my whole life

or major in

or where i wanna live

or anything

i hate thinking about the future, cuz i never wanted one..