crushed pills in a baggie become my heart and soul

[xMyOwnMindx]

scars

from past lives

ones with you and me

and back when everything wasnt different

who are you now?

i cant see the girl i went through so much with

where is she?

where am i?

we've both moved away

on and through the hills

and we slightly look back

just enough to see

theres nothing left

lets keep lying

keep saying were not parted

and everything is like back in 05 when i smiled at those little things

and when you let things pass you without crying

and i cant believe we ever wanted to die

we all tried to take our lives

ive been there

i tried to end everything

i convinced myself that i didnt

but i did.

i wanted to be buried

i wanted people to find my body

i thought about it everyday

now its all changed

we hug and cant believe we both felt that way too

weve all been there

the shocked

and now i kill myself

slowly

with the drug binge

that burned some holes im sure

and i see the selfdestruction

the way ive changed

how i can cover it

drugs are a whole new world

save me

save you

destroy us

we see this truth

we cant deny

keep on paining ourselves

for another day

another emotionless hour to sit back and think of how to get messed up

anything

everything

we can stand to be sober.

its crazy.