wednesday

[xMyOwnMindx]

i tried with everything i am

to push this out of my life

in 24 hours.

it kinda of worked

and here you are

and im confused

i do want you back

to have and to hold

to love and to cheerish

please come tomorrow

please tell me everything is perfect

and how beautiful ill look at homecoming

im your little angel..

you cant let me go

put our picture back

change your satus

hold me tightly

and ill wipe away your tears

and you can wipe away mine

ill hold my breath till you love me again.

[Horatio]

i tried with everything i am

to push this out of my life

in 24 hours.

it kinda of worked

and here you are

and im confused

i do want you back

to have and to hold

to love and to cheerish

please come tomorrow

please tell me everything is perfect

and how beautiful ill look at homecoming

im your little angel..

you cant let me go

put our picture back

change your satus

hold me tightly

and ill wipe away your tears

and you can wipe away mine

ill hold my breath till you love me again.

It hurts me to see you in such pain. I wish I could help you.

[xMyOwnMindx]

i tried with everything i am

to push this out of my life

in 24 hours.

it kinda of worked

and here you are

and im confused

i do want you back

to have and to hold

to love and to cheerish

please come tomorrow

please tell me everything is perfect

and how beautiful ill look at homecoming

im your little angel..

you cant let me go

put our picture back

change your satus

hold me tightly

and ill wipe away your tears

and you can wipe away mine

ill hold my breath till you love me again.

It hurts me to see you in such pain. I wish I could help you.

 

im okay now.

he'll take me back

if i let him

 

untill then im free to party. which is amazingly sweet silver lining if you ask me.

[Horatio]

i tried with everything i am

to push this out of my life

in 24 hours.

it kinda of worked

and here you are

and im confused

i do want you back

to have and to hold

to love and to cheerish

please come tomorrow

please tell me everything is perfect

and how beautiful ill look at homecoming

im your little angel..

you cant let me go

put our picture back

change your satus

hold me tightly

and ill wipe away your tears

and you can wipe away mine

ill hold my breath till you love me again.

It hurts me to see you in such pain. I wish I could help you.

 

im okay now.

he'll take me back

if i let him

 

untill then im free to party. which is amazingly sweet silver lining if you ask me.

Perhaps you might think about the 'free to party' part. Perhaps this is part of the reason he left before. You need to understand the reason he left so that you do not repeat the behavior. If you continue, he will only leave again. The next time might possibly be for good.

 

I might suggest stopping the destructive behavior. You do not need to be saved and he will get very, very tired of saving. So, love yourself first, and Rob will love you even more. Take care of yourself for yourself. Enough said.

[xMyOwnMindx]

i tried with everything i am

to push this out of my life

in 24 hours.

it kinda of worked

and here you are

and im confused

i do want you back

to have and to hold

to love and to cheerish

please come tomorrow

please tell me everything is perfect

and how beautiful ill look at homecoming

im your little angel..

you cant let me go

put our picture back

change your satus

hold me tightly

and ill wipe away your tears

and you can wipe away mine

ill hold my breath till you love me again.

It hurts me to see you in such pain. I wish I could help you.

 

im okay now.

he'll take me back

if i let him

 

untill then im free to party. which is amazingly sweet silver lining if you ask me.

Perhaps you might think about the 'free to party' part. Perhaps this is part of the reason he left before. You need to understand the reason he left so that you do not repeat the behavior. If you continue, he will only leave again. The next time might possibly be for good.

 

I might suggest stopping the destructive behavior. You do not need to be saved and he will get very, very tired of saving. So, love yourself first, and Rob will love you even more. Take care of yourself for yourself. Enough said.

 

 

i dont care if he leave for good

he was lucky to have me

i wasnt the best girlfriend but i was pretty good

 

party is good for me

im a kid, its wut im supposed to do

its not wrong or anything

and im gonna have fun

im already having a good day cuz of it.

[Horatio]

i tried with everything i am

to push this out of my life

in 24 hours.

it kinda of worked

and here you are

and im confused

i do want you back

to have and to hold

to love and to cheerish

please come tomorrow

please tell me everything is perfect

and how beautiful ill look at homecoming

im your little angel..

you cant let me go

put our picture back

change your satus

hold me tightly

and ill wipe away your tears

and you can wipe away mine

ill hold my breath till you love me again.

It hurts me to see you in such pain. I wish I could help you.

 

im okay now.

he'll take me back

if i let him

 

untill then im free to party. which is amazingly sweet silver lining if you ask me.

Perhaps you might think about the 'free to party' part. Perhaps this is part of the reason he left before. You need to understand the reason he left so that you do not repeat the behavior. If you continue, he will only leave again. The next time might possibly be for good.

 

I might suggest stopping the destructive behavior. You do not need to be saved and he will get very, very tired of saving. So, love yourself first, and Rob will love you even more. Take care of yourself for yourself. Enough said.

 

 

i dont care if he leave for good

he was lucky to have me

i wasnt the best girlfriend but i was pretty good

 

party is good for me

im a kid, its wut im supposed to do

its not wrong or anything

and im gonna have fun

im already having a good day cuz of it.

If you do not care if he leaves you for good, then why did you miss him and want him to come back?

 

As for partying, some partying is good, but when you are hurting yourself and getting out of control by abusing substances, this is not really good.

[xMyOwnMindx]

i tried with everything i am

to push this out of my life

in 24 hours.

it kinda of worked

and here you are

and im confused

i do want you back

to have and to hold

to love and to cheerish

please come tomorrow

please tell me everything is perfect

and how beautiful ill look at homecoming

im your little angel..

you cant let me go

put our picture back

change your satus

hold me tightly

and ill wipe away your tears

and you can wipe away mine

ill hold my breath till you love me again.

It hurts me to see you in such pain. I wish I could help you.

 

im okay now.

he'll take me back

if i let him

 

untill then im free to party. which is amazingly sweet silver lining if you ask me.

Perhaps you might think about the 'free to party' part. Perhaps this is part of the reason he left before. You need to understand the reason he left so that you do not repeat the behavior. If you continue, he will only leave again. The next time might possibly be for good.

 

I might suggest stopping the destructive behavior. You do not need to be saved and he will get very, very tired of saving. So, love yourself first, and Rob will love you even more. Take care of yourself for yourself. Enough said.

 

 

i dont care if he leave for good

he was lucky to have me

i wasnt the best girlfriend but i was pretty good

 

party is good for me

im a kid, its wut im supposed to do

its not wrong or anything

and im gonna have fun

im already having a good day cuz of it.

If you do not care if he leaves you for good, then why did you miss him and want him to come back?

 

As for partying, some partying is good, but when you are hurting yourself and getting out of control by abusing substances, this is not really good.

 

eh, wutever.

i need a boyfriend that knows how to have a good time.

i really thought i loved him but wutever.

he wants to change me

and im not down with that.

[Horatio]

i tried with everything i am

to push this out of my life

in 24 hours.

it kinda of worked

and here you are

and im confused

i do want you back

to have and to hold

to love and to cheerish

please come tomorrow

please tell me everything is perfect

and how beautiful ill look at homecoming

im your little angel..

you cant let me go

put our picture back

change your satus

hold me tightly

and ill wipe away your tears

and you can wipe away mine

ill hold my breath till you love me again.

It hurts me to see you in such pain. I wish I could help you.

 

im okay now.

he'll take me back

if i let him

 

untill then im free to party. which is amazingly sweet silver lining if you ask me.

Perhaps you might think about the 'free to party' part. Perhaps this is part of the reason he left before. You need to understand the reason he left so that you do not repeat the behavior. If you continue, he will only leave again. The next time might possibly be for good.

 

I might suggest stopping the destructive behavior. You do not need to be saved and he will get very, very tired of saving. So, love yourself first, and Rob will love you even more. Take care of yourself for yourself. Enough said.

 

 

i dont care if he leave for good

he was lucky to have me

i wasnt the best girlfriend but i was pretty good

 

party is good for me

im a kid, its wut im supposed to do

its not wrong or anything

and im gonna have fun

im already having a good day cuz of it.

If you do not care if he leaves you for good, then why did you miss him and want him to come back?

 

As for partying, some partying is good, but when you are hurting yourself and getting out of control by abusing substances, this is not really good.

 

eh, wutever.

i need a boyfriend that knows how to have a good time.

i really thought i loved him but wutever.

he wants to change me

and im not down with that.

Having a boyfriend who cares about you and having a guy who wants to have a good time two different ducks. The guy that cares about you will not want to see you doing things to yourself that are self-destructive. The guy that genuinely cares about you will accept you exactly who you are for what you are. Because someone does not want to see you partying and destroying yourself, does not mean he is trying to change you, he is just trying to care about you. A guy interested in changing you would say something like this... I like you, but you are too fat. We will go out when you are 20 pounds later. If you encounter a guy like this................. RUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[xMyOwnMindx]

i tried with everything i am

to push this out of my life

in 24 hours.

it kinda of worked

and here you are

and im confused

i do want you back

to have and to hold

to love and to cheerish

please come tomorrow

please tell me everything is perfect

and how beautiful ill look at homecoming

im your little angel..

you cant let me go

put our picture back

change your satus

hold me tightly

and ill wipe away your tears

and you can wipe away mine

ill hold my breath till you love me again.

It hurts me to see you in such pain. I wish I could help you.

 

im okay now.

he'll take me back

if i let him

 

untill then im free to party. which is amazingly sweet silver lining if you ask me.

Perhaps you might think about the 'free to party' part. Perhaps this is part of the reason he left before. You need to understand the reason he left so that you do not repeat the behavior. If you continue, he will only leave again. The next time might possibly be for good.

 

I might suggest stopping the destructive behavior. You do not need to be saved and he will get very, very tired of saving. So, love yourself first, and Rob will love you even more. Take care of yourself for yourself. Enough said.

 

 

i dont care if he leave for good

he was lucky to have me

i wasnt the best girlfriend but i was pretty good

 

party is good for me

im a kid, its wut im supposed to do

its not wrong or anything

and im gonna have fun

im already having a good day cuz of it.

If you do not care if he leaves you for good, then why did you miss him and want him to come back?

 

As for partying, some partying is good, but when you are hurting yourself and getting out of control by abusing substances, this is not really good.

 

eh, wutever.

i need a boyfriend that knows how to have a good time.

i really thought i loved him but wutever.

he wants to change me

and im not down with that.

Having a boyfriend who cares about you and having a guy who wants to have a good time two different ducks. The guy that cares about you will not want to see you doing things to yourself that are self-destructive. The guy that genuinely cares about you will accept you exactly who you are for what you are. Because someone does not want to see you partying and destroying yourself, does not mean he is trying to change you, he is just trying to care about you. A guy interested in changing you would say something like this... I like you, but you are too fat. We will go out when you are 20 pounds later. If you encounter a guy like this................. RUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

ha. id never be with a guy like that.

 

anyway, i know hes just trying to care but ive always been deep dark and destructive AND thriving to have fun and know people and get out there and live

i felt ALIVE last night

i felt like living is worth it.

i know your gonna say i should feel that way more

but i really loved last night

and rob just never got into drugs or drinking and partying

and i started drinking at 10, and drugs and smoking at 14.

thats almost 6 years ive been drinking

ive always had my own little parties..

but parents were always there and we couldnt do anything

this party was great

im glad i went

and hey dont bash me for liking a party

im a teenager..

[Horatio]

i tried with everything i am

to push this out of my life

in 24 hours.

it kinda of worked

and here you are

and im confused

i do want you back

to have and to hold

to love and to cheerish

please come tomorrow

please tell me everything is perfect

and how beautiful ill look at homecoming

im your little angel..

you cant let me go

put our picture back

change your satus

hold me tightly

and ill wipe away your tears

and you can wipe away mine

ill hold my breath till you love me again.

It hurts me to see you in such pain. I wish I could help you.

 

im okay now.

he'll take me back

if i let him

 

untill then im free to party. which is amazingly sweet silver lining if you ask me.

Perhaps you might think about the 'free to party' part. Perhaps this is part of the reason he left before. You need to understand the reason he left so that you do not repeat the behavior. If you continue, he will only leave again. The next time might possibly be for good.

 

I might suggest stopping the destructive behavior. You do not need to be saved and he will get very, very tired of saving. So, love yourself first, and Rob will love you even more. Take care of yourself for yourself. Enough said.

 

 

i dont care if he leave for good

he was lucky to have me

i wasnt the best girlfriend but i was pretty good

 

party is good for me

im a kid, its wut im supposed to do

its not wrong or anything

and im gonna have fun

im already having a good day cuz of it.

If you do not care if he leaves you for good, then why did you miss him and want him to come back?

 

As for partying, some partying is good, but when you are hurting yourself and getting out of control by abusing substances, this is not really good.

 

eh, wutever.

i need a boyfriend that knows how to have a good time.

i really thought i loved him but wutever.

he wants to change me

and im not down with that.

Having a boyfriend who cares about you and having a guy who wants to have a good time two different ducks. The guy that cares about you will not want to see you doing things to yourself that are self-destructive. The guy that genuinely cares about you will accept you exactly who you are for what you are. Because someone does not want to see you partying and destroying yourself, does not mean he is trying to change you, he is just trying to care about you. A guy interested in changing you would say something like this... I like you, but you are too fat. We will go out when you are 20 pounds later. If you encounter a guy like this................. RUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

ha. id never be with a guy like that.

 

anyway, i know hes just trying to care but ive always been deep dark and destructive AND thriving to have fun and know people and get out there and live

i felt ALIVE last night

i felt like living is worth it.

i know your gonna say i should feel that way more

but i really loved last night

and rob just never got into drugs or drinking and partying

and i started drinking at 10, and drugs and smoking at 14.

thats almost 6 years ive been drinking

ive always had my own little parties..

but parents were always there and we couldnt do anything

this party was great

im glad i went

and hey dont bash me for liking a party

im a teenager..

I'm not bashing you for being a teenager and enjoying a party. I am only concerned that the substance abuse will lead you down a road that you probably will regret later in life and Rob seemed to be a really great person and a shining star in your life. What makes me sad is that you chose substance abuse over a really nice person. I am not trying to be hard on you, just showing you my viewpoint of things.

[xMyOwnMindx]

i tried with everything i am

to push this out of my life

in 24 hours.

it kinda of worked

and here you are

and im confused

i do want you back

to have and to hold

to love and to cheerish

please come tomorrow

please tell me everything is perfect

and how beautiful ill look at homecoming

im your little angel..

you cant let me go

put our picture back

change your satus

hold me tightly

and ill wipe away your tears

and you can wipe away mine

ill hold my breath till you love me again.

It hurts me to see you in such pain. I wish I could help you.

 

im okay now.

he'll take me back

if i let him

 

untill then im free to party. which is amazingly sweet silver lining if you ask me.

Perhaps you might think about the 'free to party' part. Perhaps this is part of the reason he left before. You need to understand the reason he left so that you do not repeat the behavior. If you continue, he will only leave again. The next time might possibly be for good.

 

I might suggest stopping the destructive behavior. You do not need to be saved and he will get very, very tired of saving. So, love yourself first, and Rob will love you even more. Take care of yourself for yourself. Enough said.

 

 

i dont care if he leave for good

he was lucky to have me

i wasnt the best girlfriend but i was pretty good

 

party is good for me

im a kid, its wut im supposed to do

its not wrong or anything

and im gonna have fun

im already having a good day cuz of it.

If you do not care if he leaves you for good, then why did you miss him and want him to come back?

 

As for partying, some partying is good, but when you are hurting yourself and getting out of control by abusing substances, this is not really good.

 

eh, wutever.

i need a boyfriend that knows how to have a good time.

i really thought i loved him but wutever.

he wants to change me

and im not down with that.

Having a boyfriend who cares about you and having a guy who wants to have a good time two different ducks. The guy that cares about you will not want to see you doing things to yourself that are self-destructive. The guy that genuinely cares about you will accept you exactly who you are for what you are. Because someone does not want to see you partying and destroying yourself, does not mean he is trying to change you, he is just trying to care about you. A guy interested in changing you would say something like this... I like you, but you are too fat. We will go out when you are 20 pounds later. If you encounter a guy like this................. RUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

ha. id never be with a guy like that.

 

anyway, i know hes just trying to care but ive always been deep dark and destructive AND thriving to have fun and know people and get out there and live

i felt ALIVE last night

i felt like living is worth it.

i know your gonna say i should feel that way more

but i really loved last night

and rob just never got into drugs or drinking and partying

and i started drinking at 10, and drugs and smoking at 14.

thats almost 6 years ive been drinking

ive always had my own little parties..

but parents were always there and we couldnt do anything

this party was great

im glad i went

and hey dont bash me for liking a party

im a teenager..

I'm not bashing you for being a teenager and enjoying a party. I am only concerned that the substance abuse will lead you down a road that you probably will regret later in life and Rob seemed to be a really great person and a shining star in your life. What makes me sad is that you chose substance abuse over a really nice person. I am not trying to be hard on you, just showing you my viewpoint of things.

 

 

i dont see it as abuse.

substances are fun!

hahah

he wasnt that wonderful

and he says he cant date a druggie

[Topazia]

Perhaps you might think about the 'free to party' part. Perhaps this is part of the reason he left before. You need to understand the reason he left so that you do not repeat the behavior. If you continue, he will only leave again. The next time might possibly be for good.

 

I might suggest stopping the destructive behavior. You do not need to be saved and he will get very, very tired of saving. So, love yourself first, and Rob will love you even more. Take care of yourself for yourself. Enough said.

 

 

i dont care if he leave for good

he was lucky to have me

i wasnt the best girlfriend but i was pretty good

 

party is good for me

im a kid, its wut im supposed to do

its not wrong or anything

and im gonna have fun

im already having a good day cuz of it.

If you do not care if he leaves you for good, then why did you miss him and want him to come back?

 

As for partying, some partying is good, but when you are hurting yourself and getting out of control by abusing substances, this is not really good.

 

eh, wutever.

i need a boyfriend that knows how to have a good time.

i really thought i loved him but wutever.

he wants to change me

and im not down with that.

Having a boyfriend who cares about you and having a guy who wants to have a good time two different ducks. The guy that cares about you will not want to see you doing things to yourself that are self-destructive. The guy that genuinely cares about you will accept you exactly who you are for what you are. Because someone does not want to see you partying and destroying yourself, does not mean he is trying to change you, he is just trying to care about you. A guy interested in changing you would say something like this... I like you, but you are too fat. We will go out when you are 20 pounds later. If you encounter a guy like this................. RUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

ha. id never be with a guy like that.

 

anyway, i know hes just trying to care but ive always been deep dark and destructive AND thriving to have fun and know people and get out there and live

i felt ALIVE last night

i felt like living is worth it.

i know your gonna say i should feel that way more

but i really loved last night

and rob just never got into drugs or drinking and partying

and i started drinking at 10, and drugs and smoking at 14.

thats almost 6 years ive been drinking

ive always had my own little parties..

but parents were always there and we couldnt do anything

this party was great

im glad i went

and hey dont bash me for liking a party

im a teenager..

I'm not bashing you for being a teenager and enjoying a party. I am only concerned that the substance abuse will lead you down a road that you probably will regret later in life and Rob seemed to be a really great person and a shining star in your life. What makes me sad is that you chose substance abuse over a really nice person. I am not trying to be hard on you, just showing you my viewpoint of things.

*raises hand politely*

Um.. excuse me? I'm almost 18. I've never had a drink. Never had a smoke. Never tried any drugs. Never got into the wrong crowd. Never gave myself away to a jerk (though I did come close two weeks ago). Never WANTED TO (okay maybe the last one...) do any of this stuff. I've never been to a party, (partly bc I was never invited) and frankly, I don't want to go to a party. I've had a whopping 3(THREE) boyfriends, and all three were idiots. I'm not a prep, and I'm not in "the bad crowd" (though most of the friends I have left are). I don't listen to dirty music (ICP), but I ordered Twistid from FYE three weeks ago. I like arguing, and I wish I could speak up, get my voice out there.

 

Lauren. If you want to be different, just quit doing everything you know full well is detrimental to your health... and your heart. I'm not talking religion here. When you deliberately go against someon, it feels good. But you feel bad about it, somewhere deep inside of you. After awhile it gets smaller, and less noticeable. I'd know. But it stays there.

 

If you want to be accepted, you can one of two things: lower your standards and let jerks (not Rob, he seems good for you) play with your mind, or raise your standards both for yourself and others so you don't get involved with jerks. From what you write here, guys like Rob are good for you. He obviously cared(s) about you and wants the best for you. Whereas other guys, the ones who prey on the minds of girls who do drugs and party like a mother-lover WILL NOT respect you.

 

Horatio and I care about you. I don't even know why I care about you, but I do. You're my friend. Albeit you live 3k miles away, but there you are. You can say stuff like you don't care, you don't listen, you don't give a **** about Christians, or you just wanna high again.

But it won't make me like you any less. Nay, it does the opposite. When youy push someone like me away, it only makes my devoted friendship stronger.

 

I've had too many jerks and jerkettes as friends not to be a strong friend. I don't want anyone experiencing the rejection I felt all through middle school. I am, of course, babbling by now, but I assure you, I mean every word.

 

I care about you. I don't want you getting hurt. You might be ana, death-wishful, high, drunk, burnt, and scarred, but guess what?

 

You're still my friend, and I'm still yours. You know all too well how I feel about it (I know I 've lectured you multiple times), but the actions of my friends don't turn me away. It's when they turn away from me without a word or do something directly to my family that I give up on them.

 

And since you are the kind of girl who will keep a friend as long as they accept you, and you live so far away, I don't see either of those happening in the near future. (lol, it's a quip. half-joking, but it's witty. laugh about it. please?)

 

Keep this in mind, Lauren. Horatio, I hope this input helps you with every friend you have.

 

Much love and a thousand KUDOS for confidence to each of you,

-4771-

[Horatio]

Perhaps you might think about the 'free to party' part. Perhaps this is part of the reason he left before. You need to understand the reason he left so that you do not repeat the behavior. If you continue, he will only leave again. The next time might possibly be for good.

 

I might suggest stopping the destructive behavior. You do not need to be saved and he will get very, very tired of saving. So, love yourself first, and Rob will love you even more. Take care of yourself for yourself. Enough said.

 

 

i dont care if he leave for good

he was lucky to have me

i wasnt the best girlfriend but i was pretty good

 

party is good for me

im a kid, its wut im supposed to do

its not wrong or anything

and im gonna have fun

im already having a good day cuz of it.

If you do not care if he leaves you for good, then why did you miss him and want him to come back?

 

As for partying, some partying is good, but when you are hurting yourself and getting out of control by abusing substances, this is not really good.

 

eh, wutever.

i need a boyfriend that knows how to have a good time.

i really thought i loved him but wutever.

he wants to change me

and im not down with that.

Having a boyfriend who cares about you and having a guy who wants to have a good time two different ducks. The guy that cares about you will not want to see you doing things to yourself that are self-destructive. The guy that genuinely cares about you will accept you exactly who you are for what you are. Because someone does not want to see you partying and destroying yourself, does not mean he is trying to change you, he is just trying to care about you. A guy interested in changing you would say something like this... I like you, but you are too fat. We will go out when you are 20 pounds later. If you encounter a guy like this................. RUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

ha. id never be with a guy like that.

 

anyway, i know hes just trying to care but ive always been deep dark and destructive AND thriving to have fun and know people and get out there and live

i felt ALIVE last night

i felt like living is worth it.

i know your gonna say i should feel that way more

but i really loved last night

and rob just never got into drugs or drinking and partying

and i started drinking at 10, and drugs and smoking at 14.

thats almost 6 years ive been drinking

ive always had my own little parties..

but parents were always there and we couldnt do anything

this party was great

im glad i went

and hey dont bash me for liking a party

im a teenager..

I'm not bashing you for being a teenager and enjoying a party. I am only concerned that the substance abuse will lead you down a road that you probably will regret later in life and Rob seemed to be a really great person and a shining star in your life. What makes me sad is that you chose substance abuse over a really nice person. I am not trying to be hard on you, just showing you my viewpoint of things.

*raises hand politely*

Um.. excuse me? I'm almost 18. I've never had a drink. Never had a smoke. Never tried any drugs. Never got into the wrong crowd. Never gave myself away to a jerk (though I did come close two weeks ago). Never WANTED TO (okay maybe the last one...) do any of this stuff. I've never been to a party, (partly bc I was never invited) and frankly, I don't want to go to a party. I've had a whopping 3(THREE) boyfriends, and all three were idiots. I'm not a prep, and I'm not in "the bad crowd" (though most of the friends I have left are). I don't listen to dirty music (ICP), but I ordered Twistid from FYE three weeks ago. I like arguing, and I wish I could speak up, get my voice out there.

 

Lauren. If you want to be different, just quit doing everything you know full well is detrimental to your health... and your heart. I'm not talking religion here. When you deliberately go against someon, it feels good. But you feel bad about it, somewhere deep inside of you. After awhile it gets smaller, and less noticeable. I'd know. But it stays there.

 

If you want to be accepted, you can one of two things: lower your standards and let jerks (not Rob, he seems good for you) play with your mind, or raise your standards both for yourself and others so you don't get involved with jerks. From what you write here, guys like Rob are good for you. He obviously cared(s) about you and wants the best for you. Whereas other guys, the ones who prey on the minds of girls who do drugs and party like a mother-lover WILL NOT respect you.

 

Horatio and I care about you. I don't even know why I care about you, but I do. You're my friend. Albeit you live 3k miles away, but there you are. You can say stuff like you don't care, you don't listen, you don't give a **** about Christians, or you just wanna high again.

But it won't make me like you any less. Nay, it does the opposite. When youy push someone like me away, it only makes my devoted friendship stronger.

 

I've had too many jerks and jerkettes as friends not to be a strong friend. I don't want anyone experiencing the rejection I felt all through middle school. I am, of course, babbling by now, but I assure you, I mean every word.

 

I care about you. I don't want you getting hurt. You might be ana, death-wishful, high, drunk, burnt, and scarred, but guess what?

 

You're still my friend, and I'm still yours. You know all too well how I feel about it (I know I 've lectured you multiple times), but the actions of my friends don't turn me away. It's when they turn away from me without a word or do something directly to my family that I give up on them.

 

And since you are the kind of girl who will keep a friend as long as they accept you, and you live so far away, I don't see either of those happening in the near future. (lol, it's a quip. half-joking, but it's witty. laugh about it. please?)

 

Keep this in mind, Lauren. Horatio, I hope this input helps you with every friend you have.

 

Much love and a thousand KUDOS for confidence to each of you,

-4771-

Wonderful words of advice. Thank you for posting Topazia.

[xMyOwnMindx]

Perhaps you might think about the 'free to party' part. Perhaps this is part of the reason he left before. You need to understand the reason he left so that you do not repeat the behavior. If you continue, he will only leave again. The next time might possibly be for good.

 

I might suggest stopping the destructive behavior. You do not need to be saved and he will get very, very tired of saving. So, love yourself first, and Rob will love you even more. Take care of yourself for yourself. Enough said.

 

 

i dont care if he leave for good

he was lucky to have me

i wasnt the best girlfriend but i was pretty good

 

party is good for me

im a kid, its wut im supposed to do

its not wrong or anything

and im gonna have fun

im already having a good day cuz of it.

If you do not care if he leaves you for good, then why did you miss him and want him to come back?

 

As for partying, some partying is good, but when you are hurting yourself and getting out of control by abusing substances, this is not really good.

 

eh, wutever.

i need a boyfriend that knows how to have a good time.

i really thought i loved him but wutever.

he wants to change me

and im not down with that.

Having a boyfriend who cares about you and having a guy who wants to have a good time two different ducks. The guy that cares about you will not want to see you doing things to yourself that are self-destructive. The guy that genuinely cares about you will accept you exactly who you are for what you are. Because someone does not want to see you partying and destroying yourself, does not mean he is trying to change you, he is just trying to care about you. A guy interested in changing you would say something like this... I like you, but you are too fat. We will go out when you are 20 pounds later. If you encounter a guy like this................. RUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

ha. id never be with a guy like that.

 

anyway, i know hes just trying to care but ive always been deep dark and destructive AND thriving to have fun and know people and get out there and live

i felt ALIVE last night

i felt like living is worth it.

i know your gonna say i should feel that way more

but i really loved last night

and rob just never got into drugs or drinking and partying

and i started drinking at 10, and drugs and smoking at 14.

thats almost 6 years ive been drinking

ive always had my own little parties..

but parents were always there and we couldnt do anything

this party was great

im glad i went

and hey dont bash me for liking a party

im a teenager..

I'm not bashing you for being a teenager and enjoying a party. I am only concerned that the substance abuse will lead you down a road that you probably will regret later in life and Rob seemed to be a really great person and a shining star in your life. What makes me sad is that you chose substance abuse over a really nice person. I am not trying to be hard on you, just showing you my viewpoint of things.

*raises hand politely*

Um.. excuse me? I'm almost 18. I've never had a drink. Never had a smoke. Never tried any drugs. Never got into the wrong crowd. Never gave myself away to a jerk (though I did come close two weeks ago). Never WANTED TO (okay maybe the last one...) do any of this stuff. I've never been to a party, (partly bc I was never invited) and frankly, I don't want to go to a party. I've had a whopping 3(THREE) boyfriends, and all three were idiots. I'm not a prep, and I'm not in "the bad crowd" (though most of the friends I have left are). I don't listen to dirty music (ICP), but I ordered Twistid from FYE three weeks ago. I like arguing, and I wish I could speak up, get my voice out there.

 

Lauren. If you want to be different, just quit doing everything you know full well is detrimental to your health... and your heart. I'm not talking religion here. When you deliberately go against someon, it feels good. But you feel bad about it, somewhere deep inside of you. After awhile it gets smaller, and less noticeable. I'd know. But it stays there.

 

If you want to be accepted, you can one of two things: lower your standards and let jerks (not Rob, he seems good for you) play with your mind, or raise your standards both for yourself and others so you don't get involved with jerks. From what you write here, guys like Rob are good for you. He obviously cared(s) about you and wants the best for you. Whereas other guys, the ones who prey on the minds of girls who do drugs and party like a mother-lover WILL NOT respect you.

 

Horatio and I care about you. I don't even know why I care about you, but I do. You're my friend. Albeit you live 3k miles away, but there you are. You can say stuff like you don't care, you don't listen, you don't give a **** about Christians, or you just wanna high again.

But it won't make me like you any less. Nay, it does the opposite. When youy push someone like me away, it only makes my devoted friendship stronger.

 

I've had too many jerks and jerkettes as friends not to be a strong friend. I don't want anyone experiencing the rejection I felt all through middle school. I am, of course, babbling by now, but I assure you, I mean every word.

 

I care about you. I don't want you getting hurt. You might be ana, death-wishful, high, drunk, burnt, and scarred, but guess what?

 

You're still my friend, and I'm still yours. You know all too well how I feel about it (I know I 've lectured you multiple times), but the actions of my friends don't turn me away. It's when they turn away from me without a word or do something directly to my family that I give up on them.

 

And since you are the kind of girl who will keep a friend as long as they accept you, and you live so far away, I don't see either of those happening in the near future. (lol, it's a quip. half-joking, but it's witty. laugh about it. please?)

 

Keep this in mind, Lauren. Horatio, I hope this input helps you with every friend you have.

 

Much love and a thousand KUDOS for confidence to each of you,

-4771-

1. do you want a cookie?

everyone lives life diferently. you chose to skip some fun stuff.

doesnt make a difference to me.

just dont tell ME how to live.

 

2. wut r u talking about doing stuff against people? not everyone is gonna accept my choices and thats fine.

 

3. who said anything about acceptance?

 

4. im starting to think distance is my friend..

[Horatio]

Perhaps you might think about the 'free to party' part. Perhaps this is part of the reason he left before. You need to understand the reason he left so that you do not repeat the behavior. If you continue, he will only leave again. The next time might possibly be for good.

 

I might suggest stopping the destructive behavior. You do not need to be saved and he will get very, very tired of saving. So, love yourself first, and Rob will love you even more. Take care of yourself for yourself. Enough said.

 

 

i dont care if he leave for good

he was lucky to have me

i wasnt the best girlfriend but i was pretty good

 

party is good for me

im a kid, its wut im supposed to do

its not wrong or anything

and im gonna have fun

im already having a good day cuz of it.

If you do not care if he leaves you for good, then why did you miss him and want him to come back?

 

As for partying, some partying is good, but when you are hurting yourself and getting out of control by abusing substances, this is not really good.

 

eh, wutever.

i need a boyfriend that knows how to have a good time.

i really thought i loved him but wutever.

he wants to change me

and im not down with that.

Having a boyfriend who cares about you and having a guy who wants to have a good time two different ducks. The guy that cares about you will not want to see you doing things to yourself that are self-destructive. The guy that genuinely cares about you will accept you exactly who you are for what you are. Because someone does not want to see you partying and destroying yourself, does not mean he is trying to change you, he is just trying to care about you. A guy interested in changing you would say something like this... I like you, but you are too fat. We will go out when you are 20 pounds later. If you encounter a guy like this................. RUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

ha. id never be with a guy like that.

 

anyway, i know hes just trying to care but ive always been deep dark and destructive AND thriving to have fun and know people and get out there and live

i felt ALIVE last night

i felt like living is worth it.

i know your gonna say i should feel that way more

but i really loved last night

and rob just never got into drugs or drinking and partying

and i started drinking at 10, and drugs and smoking at 14.

thats almost 6 years ive been drinking

ive always had my own little parties..

but parents were always there and we couldnt do anything

this party was great

im glad i went

and hey dont bash me for liking a party

im a teenager..

I'm not bashing you for being a teenager and enjoying a party. I am only concerned that the substance abuse will lead you down a road that you probably will regret later in life and Rob seemed to be a really great person and a shining star in your life. What makes me sad is that you chose substance abuse over a really nice person. I am not trying to be hard on you, just showing you my viewpoint of things.

*raises hand politely*

Um.. excuse me? I'm almost 18. I've never had a drink. Never had a smoke. Never tried any drugs. Never got into the wrong crowd. Never gave myself away to a jerk (though I did come close two weeks ago). Never WANTED TO (okay maybe the last one...) do any of this stuff. I've never been to a party, (partly bc I was never invited) and frankly, I don't want to go to a party. I've had a whopping 3(THREE) boyfriends, and all three were idiots. I'm not a prep, and I'm not in "the bad crowd" (though most of the friends I have left are). I don't listen to dirty music (ICP), but I ordered Twistid from FYE three weeks ago. I like arguing, and I wish I could speak up, get my voice out there.

 

Lauren. If you want to be different, just quit doing everything you know full well is detrimental to your health... and your heart. I'm not talking religion here. When you deliberately go against someon, it feels good. But you feel bad about it, somewhere deep inside of you. After awhile it gets smaller, and less noticeable. I'd know. But it stays there.

 

If you want to be accepted, you can one of two things: lower your standards and let jerks (not Rob, he seems good for you) play with your mind, or raise your standards both for yourself and others so you don't get involved with jerks. From what you write here, guys like Rob are good for you. He obviously cared(s) about you and wants the best for you. Whereas other guys, the ones who prey on the minds of girls who do drugs and party like a mother-lover WILL NOT respect you.

 

Horatio and I care about you. I don't even know why I care about you, but I do. You're my friend. Albeit you live 3k miles away, but there you are. You can say stuff like you don't care, you don't listen, you don't give a **** about Christians, or you just wanna high again.

But it won't make me like you any less. Nay, it does the opposite. When youy push someone like me away, it only makes my devoted friendship stronger.

 

I've had too many jerks and jerkettes as friends not to be a strong friend. I don't want anyone experiencing the rejection I felt all through middle school. I am, of course, babbling by now, but I assure you, I mean every word.

 

I care about you. I don't want you getting hurt. You might be ana, death-wishful, high, drunk, burnt, and scarred, but guess what?

 

You're still my friend, and I'm still yours. You know all too well how I feel about it (I know I 've lectured you multiple times), but the actions of my friends don't turn me away. It's when they turn away from me without a word or do something directly to my family that I give up on them.

 

And since you are the kind of girl who will keep a friend as long as they accept you, and you live so far away, I don't see either of those happening in the near future. (lol, it's a quip. half-joking, but it's witty. laugh about it. please?)

 

Keep this in mind, Lauren. Horatio, I hope this input helps you with every friend you have.

 

Much love and a thousand KUDOS for confidence to each of you,

-4771-

1. do you want a cookie?

everyone lives life diferently. you chose to skip some fun stuff.

doesnt make a difference to me.

just dont tell ME how to live.

 

2. wut r u talking about doing stuff against people? not everyone is gonna accept my choices and thats fine.

 

3. who said anything about acceptance?

 

4. im starting to think distance is my friend..

Distance is not always your friend. You will still be our friend even though you are geographically far away and we don't always agree on things.

[xMyOwnMindx]

Perhaps you might think about the 'free to party' part. Perhaps this is part of the reason he left before. You need to understand the reason he left so that you do not repeat the behavior. If you continue, he will only leave again. The next time might possibly be for good.

 

I might suggest stopping the destructive behavior. You do not need to be saved and he will get very, very tired of saving. So, love yourself first, and Rob will love you even more. Take care of yourself for yourself. Enough said.

 

 

i dont care if he leave for good

he was lucky to have me

i wasnt the best girlfriend but i was pretty good

 

party is good for me

im a kid, its wut im supposed to do

its not wrong or anything

and im gonna have fun

im already having a good day cuz of it.

If you do not care if he leaves you for good, then why did you miss him and want him to come back?

 

As for partying, some partying is good, but when you are hurting yourself and getting out of control by abusing substances, this is not really good.

 

eh, wutever.

i need a boyfriend that knows how to have a good time.

i really thought i loved him but wutever.

he wants to change me

and im not down with that.

Having a boyfriend who cares about you and having a guy who wants to have a good time two different ducks. The guy that cares about you will not want to see you doing things to yourself that are self-destructive. The guy that genuinely cares about you will accept you exactly who you are for what you are. Because someone does not want to see you partying and destroying yourself, does not mean he is trying to change you, he is just trying to care about you. A guy interested in changing you would say something like this... I like you, but you are too fat. We will go out when you are 20 pounds later. If you encounter a guy like this................. RUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

ha. id never be with a guy like that.

 

anyway, i know hes just trying to care but ive always been deep dark and destructive AND thriving to have fun and know people and get out there and live

i felt ALIVE last night

i felt like living is worth it.

i know your gonna say i should feel that way more

but i really loved last night

and rob just never got into drugs or drinking and partying

and i started drinking at 10, and drugs and smoking at 14.

thats almost 6 years ive been drinking

ive always had my own little parties..

but parents were always there and we couldnt do anything

this party was great

im glad i went

and hey dont bash me for liking a party

im a teenager..

I'm not bashing you for being a teenager and enjoying a party. I am only concerned that the substance abuse will lead you down a road that you probably will regret later in life and Rob seemed to be a really great person and a shining star in your life. What makes me sad is that you chose substance abuse over a really nice person. I am not trying to be hard on you, just showing you my viewpoint of things.

*raises hand politely*

Um.. excuse me? I'm almost 18. I've never had a drink. Never had a smoke. Never tried any drugs. Never got into the wrong crowd. Never gave myself away to a jerk (though I did come close two weeks ago). Never WANTED TO (okay maybe the last one...) do any of this stuff. I've never been to a party, (partly bc I was never invited) and frankly, I don't want to go to a party. I've had a whopping 3(THREE) boyfriends, and all three were idiots. I'm not a prep, and I'm not in "the bad crowd" (though most of the friends I have left are). I don't listen to dirty music (ICP), but I ordered Twistid from FYE three weeks ago. I like arguing, and I wish I could speak up, get my voice out there.

 

Lauren. If you want to be different, just quit doing everything you know full well is detrimental to your health... and your heart. I'm not talking religion here. When you deliberately go against someon, it feels good. But you feel bad about it, somewhere deep inside of you. After awhile it gets smaller, and less noticeable. I'd know. But it stays there.

 

If you want to be accepted, you can one of two things: lower your standards and let jerks (not Rob, he seems good for you) play with your mind, or raise your standards both for yourself and others so you don't get involved with jerks. From what you write here, guys like Rob are good for you. He obviously cared(s) about you and wants the best for you. Whereas other guys, the ones who prey on the minds of girls who do drugs and party like a mother-lover WILL NOT respect you.

 

Horatio and I care about you. I don't even know why I care about you, but I do. You're my friend. Albeit you live 3k miles away, but there you are. You can say stuff like you don't care, you don't listen, you don't give a **** about Christians, or you just wanna high again.

But it won't make me like you any less. Nay, it does the opposite. When youy push someone like me away, it only makes my devoted friendship stronger.

 

I've had too many jerks and jerkettes as friends not to be a strong friend. I don't want anyone experiencing the rejection I felt all through middle school. I am, of course, babbling by now, but I assure you, I mean every word.

 

I care about you. I don't want you getting hurt. You might be ana, death-wishful, high, drunk, burnt, and scarred, but guess what?

 

You're still my friend, and I'm still yours. You know all too well how I feel about it (I know I 've lectured you multiple times), but the actions of my friends don't turn me away. It's when they turn away from me without a word or do something directly to my family that I give up on them.

 

And since you are the kind of girl who will keep a friend as long as they accept you, and you live so far away, I don't see either of those happening in the near future. (lol, it's a quip. half-joking, but it's witty. laugh about it. please?)

 

Keep this in mind, Lauren. Horatio, I hope this input helps you with every friend you have.

 

Much love and a thousand KUDOS for confidence to each of you,

-4771-

1. do you want a cookie?

everyone lives life diferently. you chose to skip some fun stuff.

doesnt make a difference to me.

just dont tell ME how to live.

 

2. wut r u talking about doing stuff against people? not everyone is gonna accept my choices and thats fine.

 

3. who said anything about acceptance?

 

4. im starting to think distance is my friend..

Distance is not always your friend. You will still be our friend even though you are geographically far away and we don't always agree on things.

 

thats not wut i meant

[Horatio]

Perhaps you might think about the 'free to party' part. Perhaps this is part of the reason he left before. You need to understand the reason he left so that you do not repeat the behavior. If you continue, he will only leave again. The next time might possibly be for good.

 

I might suggest stopping the destructive behavior. You do not need to be saved and he will get very, very tired of saving. So, love yourself first, and Rob will love you even more. Take care of yourself for yourself. Enough said.

 

 

i dont care if he leave for good

he was lucky to have me

i wasnt the best girlfriend but i was pretty good

 

party is good for me

im a kid, its wut im supposed to do

its not wrong or anything

and im gonna have fun

im already having a good day cuz of it.

If you do not care if he leaves you for good, then why did you miss him and want him to come back?

 

As for partying, some partying is good, but when you are hurting yourself and getting out of control by abusing substances, this is not really good.

 

eh, wutever.

i need a boyfriend that knows how to have a good time.

i really thought i loved him but wutever.

he wants to change me

and im not down with that.

Having a boyfriend who cares about you and having a guy who wants to have a good time two different ducks. The guy that cares about you will not want to see you doing things to yourself that are self-destructive. The guy that genuinely cares about you will accept you exactly who you are for what you are. Because someone does not want to see you partying and destroying yourself, does not mean he is trying to change you, he is just trying to care about you. A guy interested in changing you would say something like this... I like you, but you are too fat. We will go out when you are 20 pounds later. If you encounter a guy like this................. RUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

ha. id never be with a guy like that.

 

anyway, i know hes just trying to care but ive always been deep dark and destructive AND thriving to have fun and know people and get out there and live

i felt ALIVE last night

i felt like living is worth it.

i know your gonna say i should feel that way more

but i really loved last night

and rob just never got into drugs or drinking and partying

and i started drinking at 10, and drugs and smoking at 14.

thats almost 6 years ive been drinking

ive always had my own little parties..

but parents were always there and we couldnt do anything

this party was great

im glad i went

and hey dont bash me for liking a party

im a teenager..

I'm not bashing you for being a teenager and enjoying a party. I am only concerned that the substance abuse will lead you down a road that you probably will regret later in life and Rob seemed to be a really great person and a shining star in your life. What makes me sad is that you chose substance abuse over a really nice person. I am not trying to be hard on you, just showing you my viewpoint of things.

*raises hand politely*

Um.. excuse me? I'm almost 18. I've never had a drink. Never had a smoke. Never tried any drugs. Never got into the wrong crowd. Never gave myself away to a jerk (though I did come close two weeks ago). Never WANTED TO (okay maybe the last one...) do any of this stuff. I've never been to a party, (partly bc I was never invited) and frankly, I don't want to go to a party. I've had a whopping 3(THREE) boyfriends, and all three were idiots. I'm not a prep, and I'm not in "the bad crowd" (though most of the friends I have left are). I don't listen to dirty music (ICP), but I ordered Twistid from FYE three weeks ago. I like arguing, and I wish I could speak up, get my voice out there.

 

Lauren. If you want to be different, just quit doing everything you know full well is detrimental to your health... and your heart. I'm not talking religion here. When you deliberately go against someon, it feels good. But you feel bad about it, somewhere deep inside of you. After awhile it gets smaller, and less noticeable. I'd know. But it stays there.

 

If you want to be accepted, you can one of two things: lower your standards and let jerks (not Rob, he seems good for you) play with your mind, or raise your standards both for yourself and others so you don't get involved with jerks. From what you write here, guys like Rob are good for you. He obviously cared(s) about you and wants the best for you. Whereas other guys, the ones who prey on the minds of girls who do drugs and party like a mother-lover WILL NOT respect you.

 

Horatio and I care about you. I don't even know why I care about you, but I do. You're my friend. Albeit you live 3k miles away, but there you are. You can say stuff like you don't care, you don't listen, you don't give a **** about Christians, or you just wanna high again.

But it won't make me like you any less. Nay, it does the opposite. When youy push someone like me away, it only makes my devoted friendship stronger.

 

I've had too many jerks and jerkettes as friends not to be a strong friend. I don't want anyone experiencing the rejection I felt all through middle school. I am, of course, babbling by now, but I assure you, I mean every word.

 

I care about you. I don't want you getting hurt. You might be ana, death-wishful, high, drunk, burnt, and scarred, but guess what?

 

You're still my friend, and I'm still yours. You know all too well how I feel about it (I know I 've lectured you multiple times), but the actions of my friends don't turn me away. It's when they turn away from me without a word or do something directly to my family that I give up on them.

 

And since you are the kind of girl who will keep a friend as long as they accept you, and you live so far away, I don't see either of those happening in the near future. (lol, it's a quip. half-joking, but it's witty. laugh about it. please?)

 

Keep this in mind, Lauren. Horatio, I hope this input helps you with every friend you have.

 

Much love and a thousand KUDOS for confidence to each of you,

-4771-

1. do you want a cookie?

everyone lives life diferently. you chose to skip some fun stuff.

doesnt make a difference to me.

just dont tell ME how to live.

 

2. wut r u talking about doing stuff against people? not everyone is gonna accept my choices and thats fine.

 

3. who said anything about acceptance?

 

4. im starting to think distance is my friend..

Distance is not always your friend. You will still be our friend even though you are geographically far away and we don't always agree on things.

 

thats not wut i meant

Okay.

*quits talking*

[xMyOwnMindx]

Perhaps you might think about the 'free to party' part. Perhaps this is part of the reason he left before. You need to understand the reason he left so that you do not repeat the behavior. If you continue, he will only leave again. The next time might possibly be for good.

 

I might suggest stopping the destructive behavior. You do not need to be saved and he will get very, very tired of saving. So, love yourself first, and Rob will love you even more. Take care of yourself for yourself. Enough said.

 

 

i dont care if he leave for good

he was lucky to have me

i wasnt the best girlfriend but i was pretty good

 

party is good for me

im a kid, its wut im supposed to do

its not wrong or anything

and im gonna have fun

im already having a good day cuz of it.

If you do not care if he leaves you for good, then why did you miss him and want him to come back?

 

As for partying, some partying is good, but when you are hurting yourself and getting out of control by abusing substances, this is not really good.

 

eh, wutever.

i need a boyfriend that knows how to have a good time.

i really thought i loved him but wutever.

he wants to change me

and im not down with that.

Having a boyfriend who cares about you and having a guy who wants to have a good time two different ducks. The guy that cares about you will not want to see you doing things to yourself that are self-destructive. The guy that genuinely cares about you will accept you exactly who you are for what you are. Because someone does not want to see you partying and destroying yourself, does not mean he is trying to change you, he is just trying to care about you. A guy interested in changing you would say something like this... I like you, but you are too fat. We will go out when you are 20 pounds later. If you encounter a guy like this................. RUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

ha. id never be with a guy like that.

 

anyway, i know hes just trying to care but ive always been deep dark and destructive AND thriving to have fun and know people and get out there and live

i felt ALIVE last night

i felt like living is worth it.

i know your gonna say i should feel that way more

but i really loved last night

and rob just never got into drugs or drinking and partying

and i started drinking at 10, and drugs and smoking at 14.

thats almost 6 years ive been drinking

ive always had my own little parties..

but parents were always there and we couldnt do anything

this party was great

im glad i went

and hey dont bash me for liking a party

im a teenager..

I'm not bashing you for being a teenager and enjoying a party. I am only concerned that the substance abuse will lead you down a road that you probably will regret later in life and Rob seemed to be a really great person and a shining star in your life. What makes me sad is that you chose substance abuse over a really nice person. I am not trying to be hard on you, just showing you my viewpoint of things.

*raises hand politely*

Um.. excuse me? I'm almost 18. I've never had a drink. Never had a smoke. Never tried any drugs. Never got into the wrong crowd. Never gave myself away to a jerk (though I did come close two weeks ago). Never WANTED TO (okay maybe the last one...) do any of this stuff. I've never been to a party, (partly bc I was never invited) and frankly, I don't want to go to a party. I've had a whopping 3(THREE) boyfriends, and all three were idiots. I'm not a prep, and I'm not in "the bad crowd" (though most of the friends I have left are). I don't listen to dirty music (ICP), but I ordered Twistid from FYE three weeks ago. I like arguing, and I wish I could speak up, get my voice out there.

 

Lauren. If you want to be different, just quit doing everything you know full well is detrimental to your health... and your heart. I'm not talking religion here. When you deliberately go against someon, it feels good. But you feel bad about it, somewhere deep inside of you. After awhile it gets smaller, and less noticeable. I'd know. But it stays there.

 

If you want to be accepted, you can one of two things: lower your standards and let jerks (not Rob, he seems good for you) play with your mind, or raise your standards both for yourself and others so you don't get involved with jerks. From what you write here, guys like Rob are good for you. He obviously cared(s) about you and wants the best for you. Whereas other guys, the ones who prey on the minds of girls who do drugs and party like a mother-lover WILL NOT respect you.

 

Horatio and I care about you. I don't even know why I care about you, but I do. You're my friend. Albeit you live 3k miles away, but there you are. You can say stuff like you don't care, you don't listen, you don't give a **** about Christians, or you just wanna high again.

But it won't make me like you any less. Nay, it does the opposite. When youy push someone like me away, it only makes my devoted friendship stronger.

 

I've had too many jerks and jerkettes as friends not to be a strong friend. I don't want anyone experiencing the rejection I felt all through middle school. I am, of course, babbling by now, but I assure you, I mean every word.

 

I care about you. I don't want you getting hurt. You might be ana, death-wishful, high, drunk, burnt, and scarred, but guess what?

 

You're still my friend, and I'm still yours. You know all too well how I feel about it (I know I 've lectured you multiple times), but the actions of my friends don't turn me away. It's when they turn away from me without a word or do something directly to my family that I give up on them.

 

And since you are the kind of girl who will keep a friend as long as they accept you, and you live so far away, I don't see either of those happening in the near future. (lol, it's a quip. half-joking, but it's witty. laugh about it. please?)

 

Keep this in mind, Lauren. Horatio, I hope this input helps you with every friend you have.

 

Much love and a thousand KUDOS for confidence to each of you,

-4771-

1. do you want a cookie?

everyone lives life diferently. you chose to skip some fun stuff.

doesnt make a difference to me.

just dont tell ME how to live.

 

2. wut r u talking about doing stuff against people? not everyone is gonna accept my choices and thats fine.

 

3. who said anything about acceptance?

 

4. im starting to think distance is my friend..

Distance is not always your friend. You will still be our friend even though you are geographically far away and we don't always agree on things.

 

thats not wut i meant

Okay.

*quits talking*

 

thats not wut i wanna do but im thinking its all best.

[Horatio]

Perhaps you might think about the 'free to party' part. Perhaps this is part of the reason he left before. You need to understand the reason he left so that you do not repeat the behavior. If you continue, he will only leave again. The next time might possibly be for good.

 

I might suggest stopping the destructive behavior. You do not need to be saved and he will get very, very tired of saving. So, love yourself first, and Rob will love you even more. Take care of yourself for yourself. Enough said.

 

 

i dont care if he leave for good

he was lucky to have me

i wasnt the best girlfriend but i was pretty good

 

party is good for me

im a kid, its wut im supposed to do

its not wrong or anything

and im gonna have fun

im already having a good day cuz of it.

If you do not care if he leaves you for good, then why did you miss him and want him to come back?

 

As for partying, some partying is good, but when you are hurting yourself and getting out of control by abusing substances, this is not really good.

 

eh, wutever.

i need a boyfriend that knows how to have a good time.

i really thought i loved him but wutever.

he wants to change me

and im not down with that.

Having a boyfriend who cares about you and having a guy who wants to have a good time two different ducks. The guy that cares about you will not want to see you doing things to yourself that are self-destructive. The guy that genuinely cares about you will accept you exactly who you are for what you are. Because someone does not want to see you partying and destroying yourself, does not mean he is trying to change you, he is just trying to care about you. A guy interested in changing you would say something like this... I like you, but you are too fat. We will go out when you are 20 pounds later. If you encounter a guy like this................. RUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

ha. id never be with a guy like that.

 

anyway, i know hes just trying to care but ive always been deep dark and destructive AND thriving to have fun and know people and get out there and live

i felt ALIVE last night

i felt like living is worth it.

i know your gonna say i should feel that way more

but i really loved last night

and rob just never got into drugs or drinking and partying

and i started drinking at 10, and drugs and smoking at 14.

thats almost 6 years ive been drinking

ive always had my own little parties..

but parents were always there and we couldnt do anything

this party was great

im glad i went

and hey dont bash me for liking a party

im a teenager..

I'm not bashing you for being a teenager and enjoying a party. I am only concerned that the substance abuse will lead you down a road that you probably will regret later in life and Rob seemed to be a really great person and a shining star in your life. What makes me sad is that you chose substance abuse over a really nice person. I am not trying to be hard on you, just showing you my viewpoint of things.

*raises hand politely*

Um.. excuse me? I'm almost 18. I've never had a drink. Never had a smoke. Never tried any drugs. Never got into the wrong crowd. Never gave myself away to a jerk (though I did come close two weeks ago). Never WANTED TO (okay maybe the last one...) do any of this stuff. I've never been to a party, (partly bc I was never invited) and frankly, I don't want to go to a party. I've had a whopping 3(THREE) boyfriends, and all three were idiots. I'm not a prep, and I'm not in "the bad crowd" (though most of the friends I have left are). I don't listen to dirty music (ICP), but I ordered Twistid from FYE three weeks ago. I like arguing, and I wish I could speak up, get my voice out there.

 

Lauren. If you want to be different, just quit doing everything you know full well is detrimental to your health... and your heart. I'm not talking religion here. When you deliberately go against someon, it feels good. But you feel bad about it, somewhere deep inside of you. After awhile it gets smaller, and less noticeable. I'd know. But it stays there.

 

If you want to be accepted, you can one of two things: lower your standards and let jerks (not Rob, he seems good for you) play with your mind, or raise your standards both for yourself and others so you don't get involved with jerks. From what you write here, guys like Rob are good for you. He obviously cared(s) about you and wants the best for you. Whereas other guys, the ones who prey on the minds of girls who do drugs and party like a mother-lover WILL NOT respect you.

 

Horatio and I care about you. I don't even know why I care about you, but I do. You're my friend. Albeit you live 3k miles away, but there you are. You can say stuff like you don't care, you don't listen, you don't give a **** about Christians, or you just wanna high again.

But it won't make me like you any less. Nay, it does the opposite. When youy push someone like me away, it only makes my devoted friendship stronger.

 

I've had too many jerks and jerkettes as friends not to be a strong friend. I don't want anyone experiencing the rejection I felt all through middle school. I am, of course, babbling by now, but I assure you, I mean every word.

 

I care about you. I don't want you getting hurt. You might be ana, death-wishful, high, drunk, burnt, and scarred, but guess what?

 

You're still my friend, and I'm still yours. You know all too well how I feel about it (I know I 've lectured you multiple times), but the actions of my friends don't turn me away. It's when they turn away from me without a word or do something directly to my family that I give up on them.

 

And since you are the kind of girl who will keep a friend as long as they accept you, and you live so far away, I don't see either of those happening in the near future. (lol, it's a quip. half-joking, but it's witty. laugh about it. please?)

 

Keep this in mind, Lauren. Horatio, I hope this input helps you with every friend you have.

 

Much love and a thousand KUDOS for confidence to each of you,

-4771-

1. do you want a cookie?

everyone lives life diferently. you chose to skip some fun stuff.

doesnt make a difference to me.

just dont tell ME how to live.

 

2. wut r u talking about doing stuff against people? not everyone is gonna accept my choices and thats fine.

 

3. who said anything about acceptance?

 

4. im starting to think distance is my friend..

Distance is not always your friend. You will still be our friend even though you are geographically far away and we don't always agree on things.

 

thats not wut i meant

Okay.

*quits talking*

 

thats not wut i wanna do but im thinking its all best.

Not best, but you will do what you want.

[Topazia]

I'm not bashing you for being a teenager and enjoying a party. I am only concerned that the substance abuse will lead you down a road that you probably will regret later in life and Rob seemed to be a really great person and a shining star in your life. What makes me sad is that you chose substance abuse over a really nice person. I am not trying to be hard on you, just showing you my viewpoint of things.

*raises hand politely*

Um.. excuse me? I'm almost 18. I've never had a drink. Never had a smoke. Never tried any drugs. Never got into the wrong crowd. Never gave myself away to a jerk (though I did come close two weeks ago). Never WANTED TO (okay maybe the last one...) do any of this stuff. I've never been to a party, (partly bc I was never invited) and frankly, I don't want to go to a party. I've had a whopping 3(THREE) boyfriends, and all three were idiots. I'm not a prep, and I'm not in "the bad crowd" (though most of the friends I have left are). I don't listen to dirty music (ICP), but I ordered Twistid from FYE three weeks ago. I like arguing, and I wish I could speak up, get my voice out there.

 

Lauren. If you want to be different, just quit doing everything you know full well is detrimental to your health... and your heart. I'm not talking religion here. When you deliberately go against someon, it feels good. But you feel bad about it, somewhere deep inside of you. After awhile it gets smaller, and less noticeable. I'd know. But it stays there.

 

If you want to be accepted, you can one of two things: lower your standards and let jerks (not Rob, he seems good for you) play with your mind, or raise your standards both for yourself and others so you don't get involved with jerks. From what you write here, guys like Rob are good for you. He obviously cared(s) about you and wants the best for you. Whereas other guys, the ones who prey on the minds of girls who do drugs and party like a mother-lover WILL NOT respect you.

 

Horatio and I care about you. I don't even know why I care about you, but I do. You're my friend. Albeit you live 3k miles away, but there you are. You can say stuff like you don't care, you don't listen, you don't give a **** about Christians, or you just wanna high again.

But it won't make me like you any less. Nay, it does the opposite. When youy push someone like me away, it only makes my devoted friendship stronger.

 

I've had too many jerks and jerkettes as friends not to be a strong friend. I don't want anyone experiencing the rejection I felt all through middle school. I am, of course, babbling by now, but I assure you, I mean every word.

 

I care about you. I don't want you getting hurt. You might be ana, death-wishful, high, drunk, burnt, and scarred, but guess what?

 

You're still my friend, and I'm still yours. You know all too well how I feel about it (I know I 've lectured you multiple times), but the actions of my friends don't turn me away. It's when they turn away from me without a word or do something directly to my family that I give up on them.

 

And since you are the kind of girl who will keep a friend as long as they accept you, and you live so far away, I don't see either of those happening in the near future. (lol, it's a quip. half-joking, but it's witty. laugh about it. please?)

 

Keep this in mind, Lauren. Horatio, I hope this input helps you with every friend you have.

 

Much love and a thousand KUDOS for confidence to each of you,

-4771-

1. do you want a cookie?

everyone lives life diferently. you chose to skip some fun stuff.

doesnt make a difference to me.

just dont tell ME how to live.

I'm not telling anyone how to live. You're the one who steroetyped teenagers as druggie-partyloving-maniac people. You can't do that. Yeah, I might have skipped out on stuff that would be fun at the time, but in the long run, it's stupid, Lauren. You can't understand that because you're only focused on the here and now. Who knows? Maybe you were meant to be a nothing to nobody. But You'll never know if you were meant for more if you don't start looking for the future. Find a passion other than drugs or self-mutilation, kita. It'll save your life.

 

2. wut r u talking about doing stuff against people? not everyone is gonna accept my choices and thats fine.

Maybe so, but that doesn't change the fact that some People have to accept you. I can't say Their names, but They exist whether you like it or not. I know you don't, so you can deal with it, accept the facts, move on. Life ####. Yours #### because you won't let yourself see there's more to you than what you've made of yourself.

 

3. who said anything about acceptance?

why do you do drugs, Lauren? Why do you want a boyfriend? why do you party? IT's fun, yes, but why did you start? What motivates you the most deep down? Ten H$ says it's acceptance or one of her relatives.

4. im starting to think distance is my friend..

Distance is not always your friend. You will still be our friend even though you are geographically far away and we don't always agree on things.

 

thats not wut i meant

Okay.

*quits talking*

 

thats not wut i wanna do but im thinking its all best.

Not best, but you will do what you want.

[xMyOwnMindx]

1. do you want a cookie?

everyone lives life diferently. you chose to skip some fun stuff.

doesnt make a difference to me.

just dont tell ME how to live.

I'm not telling anyone how to live. You're the one who steroetyped teenagers as druggie-partyloving-maniac people. You can't do that. Yeah, I might have skipped out on stuff that would be fun at the time, but in the long run, it's stupid, Lauren. You can't understand that because you're only focused on the here and now. Who knows? Maybe you were meant to be a nothing to nobody. But You'll never know if you were meant for more if you don't start looking for the future. Find a passion other than drugs or self-mutilation, kita. It'll save your life.

 

2. wut r u talking about doing stuff against people? not everyone is gonna accept my choices and thats fine.

Maybe so, but that doesn't change the fact that some People have to accept you. I can't say Their names, but They exist whether you like it or not. I know you don't, so you can deal with it, accept the facts, move on. Life ####. Yours #### because you won't let yourself see there's more to you than what you've made of yourself.

 

3. who said anything about acceptance?

why do you do drugs, Lauren? Why do you want a boyfriend? why do you party? IT's fun, yes, but why did you start? What motivates you the most deep down? Ten H$ says it's acceptance or one of her relatives.

4. im starting to think distance is my friend..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

wow this is all complicated.

im gonna try to take it apart.

k well i didnt do a good job.

lol.

 

1- i dont have the motivation to do anything else and i never said all teenagers do that. just the ones i hang out.

 

2- life is a pointless cycle of trying to figure it out. i wanna FEEL more then that. i dont have the heart to look for those things. i need to keep my head on.

 

3- i do drugs cuz theyre fun.i want a boyfriend cuz i need someone to love. ive only partied ONCE and i did it for fun and i had a great time and met alot of people and NO, not all of them were doing drugs.

um, your assumsions are wrong and i really dont care if you wanna believe some acceptance bull be my guest.

but the truth is that i wanted to do what I did for like the longest time and then i was offered it. and so now i do it as much as i want. i didnt do it to be accepted, i did it cuz i heard it was fun and it was.

i really dont need you and all your little personal beliefs to go and tell me that i do stuff to be accepted by people, im already accepted by the people i love anyway, so there.

[Topazia]

1. do you want a cookie?

everyone lives life diferently. you chose to skip some fun stuff.

doesnt make a difference to me.

just dont tell ME how to live.

I'm not telling anyone how to live. You're the one who steroetyped teenagers as druggie-partyloving-maniac people. You can't do that. Yeah, I might have skipped out on stuff that would be fun at the time, but in the long run, it's stupid, Lauren. You can't understand that because you're only focused on the here and now. Who knows? Maybe you were meant to be a nothing to nobody. But You'll never know if you were meant for more if you don't start looking for the future. Find a passion other than drugs or self-mutilation, kita. It'll save your life.

 

2. wut r u talking about doing stuff against people? not everyone is gonna accept my choices and thats fine.

Maybe so, but that doesn't change the fact that some People have to accept you. I can't say Their names, but They exist whether you like it or not. I know you don't, so you can deal with it, accept the facts, move on. Life ####. Yours #### because you won't let yourself see there's more to you than what you've made of yourself.

 

3. who said anything about acceptance?

why do you do drugs, Lauren? Why do you want a boyfriend? why do you party? IT's fun, yes, but why did you start? What motivates you the most deep down? Ten H$ says it's acceptance or one of her relatives.

4. im starting to think distance is my friend..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

wow this is all complicated.

im gonna try to take it apart.

k well i didnt do a good job.

lol.

 

1- i dont have the motivation to do anything else and i never said all teenagers do that. just the ones i hang out.

 

2- life is a pointless cycle of trying to figure it out. i wanna FEEL more then that. i dont have the heart to look for those things. i need to keep my head on.

 

3- i do drugs cuz theyre fun.i want a boyfriend cuz i need someone to love. ive only partied ONCE and i did it for fun and i had a great time and met alot of people and NO, not all of them were doing drugs.

um, your assumsions are wrong and i really dont care if you wanna believe some acceptance bull be my guest.

but the truth is that i wanted to do what I did for like the longest time and then i was offered it. and so now i do it as much as i want. i didnt do it to be accepted, i did it cuz i heard it was fun and it was.

i really dont need you and all your little personal beliefs to go and tell me that i do stuff to be accepted by people, im already accepted by the people i love anyway, so there.

1. And why don't you have the motivation again?

 

2. Life is far from pointless. You might see it that way, but you have a point to live. You just said, "I want a boyfriend cuz i need someone to love". That means you feel like you have something in this world. The fact is, you DON'T have anything in this world! Nothing but your parents and a "need" to love! If you want to love--nvm. My point is, Life is FAR from pointless. You want to feel more? You know me, Lauren.

 

3. Who said they were fun in the first place? Why did you want to believe that idiot (who was wrong because drugs are stupid and you know that from me and your health teacher... have you seen those pictures?)?

 

You know, if you don't need all my little personal beliefs, then why don't I just go away forever, Lauren? Would you like that, kita?

 

The people you love? You jsut said you want a boyfriend because you need someone to love. You already have someone to love, if you're using those words. Think b4 u speak.

 

Your reply aims to belittle and throw off. Nice try. Didn't work.

 

Luvya,

-4771-

[xMyOwnMindx]

1. do you want a cookie?

everyone lives life diferently. you chose to skip some fun stuff.

doesnt make a difference to me.

just dont tell ME how to live.

I'm not telling anyone how to live. You're the one who steroetyped teenagers as druggie-partyloving-maniac people. You can't do that. Yeah, I might have skipped out on stuff that would be fun at the time, but in the long run, it's stupid, Lauren. You can't understand that because you're only focused on the here and now. Who knows? Maybe you were meant to be a nothing to nobody. But You'll never know if you were meant for more if you don't start looking for the future. Find a passion other than drugs or self-mutilation, kita. It'll save your life.

 

2. wut r u talking about doing stuff against people? not everyone is gonna accept my choices and thats fine.

Maybe so, but that doesn't change the fact that some People have to accept you. I can't say Their names, but They exist whether you like it or not. I know you don't, so you can deal with it, accept the facts, move on. Life ####. Yours #### because you won't let yourself see there's more to you than what you've made of yourself.

 

3. who said anything about acceptance?

why do you do drugs, Lauren? Why do you want a boyfriend? why do you party? IT's fun, yes, but why did you start? What motivates you the most deep down? Ten H$ says it's acceptance or one of her relatives.

4. im starting to think distance is my friend..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

wow this is all complicated.

im gonna try to take it apart.

k well i didnt do a good job.

lol.

 

1- i dont have the motivation to do anything else and i never said all teenagers do that. just the ones i hang out.

 

2- life is a pointless cycle of trying to figure it out. i wanna FEEL more then that. i dont have the heart to look for those things. i need to keep my head on.

 

3- i do drugs cuz theyre fun.i want a boyfriend cuz i need someone to love. ive only partied ONCE and i did it for fun and i had a great time and met alot of people and NO, not all of them were doing drugs.

um, your assumsions are wrong and i really dont care if you wanna believe some acceptance bull be my guest.

but the truth is that i wanted to do what I did for like the longest time and then i was offered it. and so now i do it as much as i want. i didnt do it to be accepted, i did it cuz i heard it was fun and it was.

i really dont need you and all your little personal beliefs to go and tell me that i do stuff to be accepted by people, im already accepted by the people i love anyway, so there.

1. And why don't you have the motivation again?

 

2. Life is far from pointless. You might see it that way, but you have a point to live. You just said, "I want a boyfriend cuz i need someone to love". That means you feel like you have something in this world. The fact is, you DON'T have anything in this world! Nothing but your parents and a "need" to love! If you want to love--nvm. My point is, Life is FAR from pointless. You want to feel more? You know me, Lauren.

 

3. Who said they were fun in the first place? Why did you want to believe that idiot (who was wrong because drugs are stupid and you know that from me and your health teacher... have you seen those pictures?)?

 

You know, if you don't need all my little personal beliefs, then why don't I just go away forever, Lauren? Would you like that, kita?

 

The people you love? You jsut said you want a boyfriend because you need someone to love. You already have someone to love, if you're using those words. Think b4 u speak.

 

Your reply aims to belittle and throw off. Nice try. Didn't work.

 

Luvya,

-4771-

 

1cuz im so lazy

and selfish

but im happy

 

2life has become numbing life

and im ahead of myself on that

buts k cuz i know i can keep my head up

 

3i heard it from liek everyh persont ahtt chilled at my house

and my bro

everyone i knew

cuz most kids smoke weed

but before you start you think its not as many people as it is

even this straight A honor roll major brain girl tired it

its just somthing people do

 

your not seeing is the same as me

and thats ok, i can accpet your ways, if you take mine.

 

4 wow, your hostle girl!

1st, its like.. idk wut my little hd addiction is about but i have a feeling as long as theres somewhat free speac\h and bordum

ill prolly be around

its like idk anyone so i can spit my ideas and its perfect

i never gave it enough credit

likts its become so much more

but anyway, its the day i do leave

stop preaching my words, stop fighting for my thoughts

that i truely die.

 

yea, but i need a boyfriend who can deal with the whole thing, ya kno?

i think you understand me here.

 

i just dont need somthing to be like im right and your wrong

cuz it might be in the stars

thats bad news.

but im good now, idk about u/.

[Topazia]

1. do you want a cookie?

everyone lives life diferently. you chose to skip some fun stuff.

doesnt make a difference to me.

just dont tell ME how to live.

I'm not telling anyone how to live. You're the one who steroetyped teenagers as druggie-partyloving-maniac people. You can't do that. Yeah, I might have skipped out on stuff that would be fun at the time, but in the long run, it's stupid, Lauren. You can't understand that because you're only focused on the here and now. Who knows? Maybe you were meant to be a nothing to nobody. But You'll never know if you were meant for more if you don't start looking for the future. Find a passion other than drugs or self-mutilation, kita. It'll save your life.

 

2. wut r u talking about doing stuff against people? not everyone is gonna accept my choices and thats fine.

Maybe so, but that doesn't change the fact that some People have to accept you. I can't say Their names, but They exist whether you like it or not. I know you don't, so you can deal with it, accept the facts, move on. Life ####. Yours #### because you won't let yourself see there's more to you than what you've made of yourself.

 

3. who said anything about acceptance?

why do you do drugs, Lauren? Why do you want a boyfriend? why do you party? IT's fun, yes, but why did you start? What motivates you the most deep down? Ten H$ says it's acceptance or one of her relatives.

4. im starting to think distance is my friend..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

wow this is all complicated.

im gonna try to take it apart.

k well i didnt do a good job.

lol.

 

1- i dont have the motivation to do anything else and i never said all teenagers do that. just the ones i hang out.

 

2- life is a pointless cycle of trying to figure it out. i wanna FEEL more then that. i dont have the heart to look for those things. i need to keep my head on.

 

3- i do drugs cuz theyre fun.i want a boyfriend cuz i need someone to love. ive only partied ONCE and i did it for fun and i had a great time and met alot of people and NO, not all of them were doing drugs.

um, your assumsions are wrong and i really dont care if you wanna believe some acceptance bull be my guest.

but the truth is that i wanted to do what I did for like the longest time and then i was offered it. and so now i do it as much as i want. i didnt do it to be accepted, i did it cuz i heard it was fun and it was.

i really dont need you and all your little personal beliefs to go and tell me that i do stuff to be accepted by people, im already accepted by the people i love anyway, so there.

1. And why don't you have the motivation again?

 

2. Life is far from pointless. You might see it that way, but you have a point to live. You just said, "I want a boyfriend cuz i need someone to love". That means you feel like you have something in this world. The fact is, you DON'T have anything in this world! Nothing but your parents and a "need" to love! If you want to love--nvm. My point is, Life is FAR from pointless. You want to feel more? You know me, Lauren.

 

3. Who said they were fun in the first place? Why did you want to believe that idiot (who was wrong because drugs are stupid and you know that from me and your health teacher... have you seen those pictures?)?

 

You know, if you don't need all my little personal beliefs, then why don't I just go away forever, Lauren? Would you like that, kita?

 

The people you love? You jsut said you want a boyfriend because you need someone to love. You already have someone to love, if you're using those words. Think b4 u speak.

 

Your reply aims to belittle and throw off. Nice try. Didn't work.

 

Luvya,

-4771-

 

1cuz im so lazy

and selfish

but im happy

 

2life has become numbing life

and im ahead of myself on that

buts k cuz i know i can keep my head up

 

3i heard it from liek everyh persont ahtt chilled at my house

and my bro

everyone i knew

cuz most kids smoke weed

but before you start you think its not as many people as it is

even this straight A honor roll major brain girl tired it

its just somthing people do

 

your not seeing is the same as me

and thats ok, i can accpet your ways, if you take mine.

 

4 wow, your hostle girl!

1st, its like.. idk wut my little hd addiction is about but i have a feeling as long as theres somewhat free speac\h and bordum

ill prolly be around

its like idk anyone so i can spit my ideas and its perfect

i never gave it enough credit

likts its become so much more

but anyway, its the day i do leave

stop preaching my words, stop fighting for my thoughts

that i truely die.

 

yea, but i need a boyfriend who can deal with the whole thing, ya kno?

i think you understand me here.

 

i just dont need somthing to be like im right and your wrong

cuz it might be in the stars

thats bad news.

but im good now, idk about u/.

sry, wut? ya kinda lost me ther...

 

1 i'm lazy too. wuts ur point?

2 I didn't quite catch that, but I'm guessing you meant you're fine with the way things are even though life is numb. Well, I have news: I've been numb for years and hide it so well people try to convince me I'm not depressed when I admit I am.

3 Ur's right, Lauren. Many people partake. That doesn't make it right, or healthy.

 

Actually, I accept you for who you are probably mroe completely than you accept me. I've tread both sides of the fence. Our few differences are in the realm of drugs and the like... and age. hehe

 

4 I'm not hostile. It felt like you attacked me. I wasn't saying you should leave, Lauren. Nah, you shouldn't leave! You're a great frind to many of us here at HD. I was telling you to back off a little. But I shouldn't have. It's good practice. You're right. We die as human souls when we give up our right to free thought. Strange, it is, when they've gone and banished prayer in school... Denying children their right to free expression and speech... I'm rambling. Ignore that.

 

I do know what you mean about boyfriends. I can't handle life very well. I handle it better with someone there beside me that I can touch with my fingers. Yeah, God's nice, but physical presence is easier to feel. But only if-- nvm. it'll be bleeted...

 

Yeah, I'm fine. I'd had a bad day. I shouldn't have taken it out on you like that.

 

Luvs,

-4771-

[xMyOwnMindx]

1. do you want a cookie?

everyone lives life diferently. you chose to skip some fun stuff.

doesnt make a difference to me.

just dont tell ME how to live.

I'm not telling anyone how to live. You're the one who steroetyped teenagers as druggie-partyloving-maniac people. You can't do that. Yeah, I might have skipped out on stuff that would be fun at the time, but in the long run, it's stupid, Lauren. You can't understand that because you're only focused on the here and now. Who knows? Maybe you were meant to be a nothing to nobody. But You'll never know if you were meant for more if you don't start looking for the future. Find a passion other than drugs or self-mutilation, kita. It'll save your life.

 

2. wut r u talking about doing stuff against people? not everyone is gonna accept my choices and thats fine.

Maybe so, but that doesn't change the fact that some People have to accept you. I can't say Their names, but They exist whether you like it or not. I know you don't, so you can deal with it, accept the facts, move on. Life ####. Yours #### because you won't let yourself see there's more to you than what you've made of yourself.

 

3. who said anything about acceptance?

why do you do drugs, Lauren? Why do you want a boyfriend? why do you party? IT's fun, yes, but why did you start? What motivates you the most deep down? Ten H$ says it's acceptance or one of her relatives.

4. im starting to think distance is my friend..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

wow this is all complicated.

im gonna try to take it apart.

k well i didnt do a good job.

lol.

 

1- i dont have the motivation to do anything else and i never said all teenagers do that. just the ones i hang out.

 

2- life is a pointless cycle of trying to figure it out. i wanna FEEL more then that. i dont have the heart to look for those things. i need to keep my head on.

 

3- i do drugs cuz theyre fun.i want a boyfriend cuz i need someone to love. ive only partied ONCE and i did it for fun and i had a great time and met alot of people and NO, not all of them were doing drugs.

um, your assumsions are wrong and i really dont care if you wanna believe some acceptance bull be my guest.

but the truth is that i wanted to do what I did for like the longest time and then i was offered it. and so now i do it as much as i want. i didnt do it to be accepted, i did it cuz i heard it was fun and it was.

i really dont need you and all your little personal beliefs to go and tell me that i do stuff to be accepted by people, im already accepted by the people i love anyway, so there.

1. And why don't you have the motivation again?

 

2. Life is far from pointless. You might see it that way, but you have a point to live. You just said, "I want a boyfriend cuz i need someone to love". That means you feel like you have something in this world. The fact is, you DON'T have anything in this world! Nothing but your parents and a "need" to love! If you want to love--nvm. My point is, Life is FAR from pointless. You want to feel more? You know me, Lauren.

 

3. Who said they were fun in the first place? Why did you want to believe that idiot (who was wrong because drugs are stupid and you know that from me and your health teacher... have you seen those pictures?)?

 

You know, if you don't need all my little personal beliefs, then why don't I just go away forever, Lauren? Would you like that, kita?

 

The people you love? You jsut said you want a boyfriend because you need someone to love. You already have someone to love, if you're using those words. Think b4 u speak.

 

Your reply aims to belittle and throw off. Nice try. Didn't work.

 

Luvya,

-4771-

 

1cuz im so lazy

and selfish

but im happy

 

2life has become numbing life

and im ahead of myself on that

buts k cuz i know i can keep my head up

 

3i heard it from liek everyh persont ahtt chilled at my house

and my bro

everyone i knew

cuz most kids smoke weed

but before you start you think its not as many people as it is

even this straight A honor roll major brain girl tired it

its just somthing people do

 

your not seeing is the same as me

and thats ok, i can accpet your ways, if you take mine.

 

4 wow, your hostle girl!

1st, its like.. idk wut my little hd addiction is about but i have a feeling as long as theres somewhat free speac\h and bordum

ill prolly be around

its like idk anyone so i can spit my ideas and its perfect

i never gave it enough credit

likts its become so much more

but anyway, its the day i do leave

stop preaching my words, stop fighting for my thoughts

that i truely die.

 

yea, but i need a boyfriend who can deal with the whole thing, ya kno?

i think you understand me here.

 

i just dont need somthing to be like im right and your wrong

cuz it might be in the stars

thats bad news.

but im good now, idk about u/.

sry, wut? ya kinda lost me ther...

 

1 i'm lazy too. wuts ur point?

2 I didn't quite catch that, but I'm guessing you meant you're fine with the way things are even though life is numb. Well, I have news: I've been numb for years and hide it so well people try to convince me I'm not depressed when I admit I am.

3 Ur's right, Lauren. Many people partake. That doesn't make it right, or healthy.

 

Actually, I accept you for who you are probably mroe completely than you accept me. I've tread both sides of the fence. Our few differences are in the realm of drugs and the like... and age. hehe

 

4 I'm not hostile. It felt like you attacked me. I wasn't saying you should leave, Lauren. Nah, you shouldn't leave! You're a great frind to many of us here at HD. I was telling you to back off a little. But I shouldn't have. It's good practice. You're right. We die as human souls when we give up our right to free thought. Strange, it is, when they've gone and banished prayer in school... Denying children their right to free expression and speech... I'm rambling. Ignore that.

 

I do know what you mean about boyfriends. I can't handle life very well. I handle it better with someone there beside me that I can touch with my fingers. Yeah, God's nice, but physical presence is easier to feel. But only if-- nvm. it'll be bleeted...

 

Yeah, I'm fine. I'd had a bad day. I shouldn't have taken it out on you like that.

 

Luvs,

-4771-

 

1- so there for i have no motivation

i think motivation comes from when you really want something and then you just go for it

i dont really want anything enough...

 

2-k

 

3- right and wrong is an opinion. and i know you dont think so. but its true, no matter wut you say.

 

4- theres an icon that says "as long as theres test, there will be prayer in school"

ha! its true!

 

me and rob are working stuff off

but theres this kid in manville that likes me

and idk anymore.

boys stink :[

 

its all good :]

[Patchwork]

1. do you want a cookie?

everyone lives life diferently. you chose to skip some fun stuff.

doesnt make a difference to me.

just dont tell ME how to live.

I'm not telling anyone how to live. You're the one who steroetyped teenagers as druggie-partyloving-maniac people. You can't do that. Yeah, I might have skipped out on stuff that would be fun at the time, but in the long run, it's stupid, Lauren. You can't understand that because you're only focused on the here and now. Who knows? Maybe you were meant to be a nothing to nobody. But You'll never know if you were meant for more if you don't start looking for the future. Find a passion other than drugs or self-mutilation, kita. It'll save your life.

 

2. wut r u talking about doing stuff against people? not everyone is gonna accept my choices and thats fine.

Maybe so, but that doesn't change the fact that some People have to accept you. I can't say Their names, but They exist whether you like it or not. I know you don't, so you can deal with it, accept the facts, move on. Life ####. Yours #### because you won't let yourself see there's more to you than what you've made of yourself.

 

3. who said anything about acceptance?

why do you do drugs, Lauren? Why do you want a boyfriend? why do you party? IT's fun, yes, but why did you start? What motivates you the most deep down? Ten H$ says it's acceptance or one of her relatives.

4. im starting to think distance is my friend..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

wow this is all complicated.

im gonna try to take it apart.

k well i didnt do a good job.

lol.

 

1- i dont have the motivation to do anything else and i never said all teenagers do that. just the ones i hang out.

 

2- life is a pointless cycle of trying to figure it out. i wanna FEEL more then that. i dont have the heart to look for those things. i need to keep my head on.

 

3- i do drugs cuz theyre fun.i want a boyfriend cuz i need someone to love. ive only partied ONCE and i did it for fun and i had a great time and met alot of people and NO, not all of them were doing drugs.

um, your assumsions are wrong and i really dont care if you wanna believe some acceptance bull be my guest.

but the truth is that i wanted to do what I did for like the longest time and then i was offered it. and so now i do it as much as i want. i didnt do it to be accepted, i did it cuz i heard it was fun and it was.

i really dont need you and all your little personal beliefs to go and tell me that i do stuff to be accepted by people, im already accepted by the people i love anyway, so there.

1. And why don't you have the motivation again?

 

2. Life is far from pointless. You might see it that way, but you have a point to live. You just said, "I want a boyfriend cuz i need someone to love". That means you feel like you have something in this world. The fact is, you DON'T have anything in this world! Nothing but your parents and a "need" to love! If you want to love--nvm. My point is, Life is FAR from pointless. You want to feel more? You know me, Lauren.

 

3. Who said they were fun in the first place? Why did you want to believe that idiot (who was wrong because drugs are stupid and you know that from me and your health teacher... have you seen those pictures?)?

 

You know, if you don't need all my little personal beliefs, then why don't I just go away forever, Lauren? Would you like that, kita?

 

The people you love? You jsut said you want a boyfriend because you need someone to love. You already have someone to love, if you're using those words. Think b4 u speak.

 

Your reply aims to belittle and throw off. Nice try. Didn't work.

 

Luvya,

-4771-

 

1cuz im so lazy

and selfish

but im happy

 

2life has become numbing life

and im ahead of myself on that

buts k cuz i know i can keep my head up

 

3i heard it from liek everyh persont ahtt chilled at my house

and my bro

everyone i knew

cuz most kids smoke weed

but before you start you think its not as many people as it is

even this straight A honor roll major brain girl tired it

its just somthing people do

 

your not seeing is the same as me

and thats ok, i can accpet your ways, if you take mine.

 

4 wow, your hostle girl!

1st, its like.. idk wut my little hd addiction is about but i have a feeling as long as theres somewhat free speac\h and bordum

ill prolly be around

its like idk anyone so i can spit my ideas and its perfect

i never gave it enough credit

likts its become so much more

but anyway, its the day i do leave

stop preaching my words, stop fighting for my thoughts

that i truely die.

 

yea, but i need a boyfriend who can deal with the whole thing, ya kno?

i think you understand me here.

 

i just dont need somthing to be like im right and your wrong

cuz it might be in the stars

thats bad news.

but im good now, idk about u/.

sry, wut? ya kinda lost me ther...

 

1 i'm lazy too. wuts ur point?

2 I didn't quite catch that, but I'm guessing you meant you're fine with the way things are even though life is numb. Well, I have news: I've been numb for years and hide it so well people try to convince me I'm not depressed when I admit I am.

3 Ur's right, Lauren. Many people partake. That doesn't make it right, or healthy.

 

Actually, I accept you for who you are probably mroe completely than you accept me. I've tread both sides of the fence. Our few differences are in the realm of drugs and the like... and age. hehe

 

4 I'm not hostile. It felt like you attacked me. I wasn't saying you should leave, Lauren. Nah, you shouldn't leave! You're a great frind to many of us here at HD. I was telling you to back off a little. But I shouldn't have. It's good practice. You're right. We die as human souls when we give up our right to free thought. Strange, it is, when they've gone and banished prayer in school... Denying children their right to free expression and speech... I'm rambling. Ignore that.

 

I do know what you mean about boyfriends. I can't handle life very well. I handle it better with someone there beside me that I can touch with my fingers. Yeah, God's nice, but physical presence is easier to feel. But only if-- nvm. it'll be bleeted...

 

Yeah, I'm fine. I'd had a bad day. I shouldn't have taken it out on you like that.

 

Luvs,

-4771-

 

1- so there for i have no motivation

i think motivation comes from when you really want something and then you just go for it

i dont really want anything enough...

 

2-k

 

3- right and wrong is an opinion. and i know you dont think so. but its true, no matter wut you say.

 

4- theres an icon that says "as long as theres test, there will be prayer in school"

ha! its true!

 

me and rob are working stuff off

but theres this kid in manville that likes me

and idk anymore.

boys stink :[

 

its all good :]

was the holocaust wrong, Lauren?

Moral relativity means you can't say the ruthless, systematic murder of 9mil men women and children just because they were jews, twins, or non-arians was wrong. Tell me if it was right or wrong and be honest!

 

And don't bother with Rob, Lauren. You don't love him if you cheated on him. I've had enough experience to know that much.

 

motivation is relative. how's this for motivation: getup off your lazy bum or your next high will stink out the wazoo!

 

tests/prayer: I love tests. I will always love tests. Prayer for a test is good, but simple. They are talking about taking structure out of school and opening up a hole for evil to come in and ruin it for everyone!

 

Boys r ok

I'm a littel bitter, but honestly, I don't really think they're all bad. just 99.999999999999999999999999% of them.

[xMyOwnMindx]

1. do you want a cookie?

everyone lives life diferently. you chose to skip some fun stuff.

doesnt make a difference to me.

just dont tell ME how to live.

I'm not telling anyone how to live. You're the one who steroetyped teenagers as druggie-partyloving-maniac people. You can't do that. Yeah, I might have skipped out on stuff that would be fun at the time, but in the long run, it's stupid, Lauren. You can't understand that because you're only focused on the here and now. Who knows? Maybe you were meant to be a nothing to nobody. But You'll never know if you were meant for more if you don't start looking for the future. Find a passion other than drugs or self-mutilation, kita. It'll save your life.

 

2. wut r u talking about doing stuff against people? not everyone is gonna accept my choices and thats fine.

Maybe so, but that doesn't change the fact that some People have to accept you. I can't say Their names, but They exist whether you like it or not. I know you don't, so you can deal with it, accept the facts, move on. Life ####. Yours #### because you won't let yourself see there's more to you than what you've made of yourself.

 

3. who said anything about acceptance?

why do you do drugs, Lauren? Why do you want a boyfriend? why do you party? IT's fun, yes, but why did you start? What motivates you the most deep down? Ten H$ says it's acceptance or one of her relatives.

4. im starting to think distance is my friend..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

wow this is all complicated.

im gonna try to take it apart.

k well i didnt do a good job.

lol.

 

1- i dont have the motivation to do anything else and i never said all teenagers do that. just the ones i hang out.

 

2- life is a pointless cycle of trying to figure it out. i wanna FEEL more then that. i dont have the heart to look for those things. i need to keep my head on.

 

3- i do drugs cuz theyre fun.i want a boyfriend cuz i need someone to love. ive only partied ONCE and i did it for fun and i had a great time and met alot of people and NO, not all of them were doing drugs.

um, your assumsions are wrong and i really dont care if you wanna believe some acceptance bull be my guest.

but the truth is that i wanted to do what I did for like the longest time and then i was offered it. and so now i do it as much as i want. i didnt do it to be accepted, i did it cuz i heard it was fun and it was.

i really dont need you and all your little personal beliefs to go and tell me that i do stuff to be accepted by people, im already accepted by the people i love anyway, so there.

1. And why don't you have the motivation again?

 

2. Life is far from pointless. You might see it that way, but you have a point to live. You just said, "I want a boyfriend cuz i need someone to love". That means you feel like you have something in this world. The fact is, you DON'T have anything in this world! Nothing but your parents and a "need" to love! If you want to love--nvm. My point is, Life is FAR from pointless. You want to feel more? You know me, Lauren.

 

3. Who said they were fun in the first place? Why did you want to believe that idiot (who was wrong because drugs are stupid and you know that from me and your health teacher... have you seen those pictures?)?

 

You know, if you don't need all my little personal beliefs, then why don't I just go away forever, Lauren? Would you like that, kita?

 

The people you love? You jsut said you want a boyfriend because you need someone to love. You already have someone to love, if you're using those words. Think b4 u speak.

 

Your reply aims to belittle and throw off. Nice try. Didn't work.

 

Luvya,

-4771-

 

1cuz im so lazy

and selfish

but im happy

 

2life has become numbing life

and im ahead of myself on that

buts k cuz i know i can keep my head up

 

3i heard it from liek everyh persont ahtt chilled at my house

and my bro

everyone i knew

cuz most kids smoke weed

but before you start you think its not as many people as it is

even this straight A honor roll major brain girl tired it

its just somthing people do

 

your not seeing is the same as me

and thats ok, i can accpet your ways, if you take mine.

 

4 wow, your hostle girl!

1st, its like.. idk wut my little hd addiction is about but i have a feeling as long as theres somewhat free speac\h and bordum

ill prolly be around

its like idk anyone so i can spit my ideas and its perfect

i never gave it enough credit

likts its become so much more

but anyway, its the day i do leave

stop preaching my words, stop fighting for my thoughts

that i truely die.

 

yea, but i need a boyfriend who can deal with the whole thing, ya kno?

i think you understand me here.

 

i just dont need somthing to be like im right and your wrong

cuz it might be in the stars

thats bad news.

but im good now, idk about u/.

sry, wut? ya kinda lost me ther...

 

1 i'm lazy too. wuts ur point?

2 I didn't quite catch that, but I'm guessing you meant you're fine with the way things are even though life is numb. Well, I have news: I've been numb for years and hide it so well people try to convince me I'm not depressed when I admit I am.

3 Ur's right, Lauren. Many people partake. That doesn't make it right, or healthy.

 

Actually, I accept you for who you are probably mroe completely than you accept me. I've tread both sides of the fence. Our few differences are in the realm of drugs and the like... and age. hehe

 

4 I'm not hostile. It felt like you attacked me. I wasn't saying you should leave, Lauren. Nah, you shouldn't leave! You're a great frind to many of us here at HD. I was telling you to back off a little. But I shouldn't have. It's good practice. You're right. We die as human souls when we give up our right to free thought. Strange, it is, when they've gone and banished prayer in school... Denying children their right to free expression and speech... I'm rambling. Ignore that.

 

I do know what you mean about boyfriends. I can't handle life very well. I handle it better with someone there beside me that I can touch with my fingers. Yeah, God's nice, but physical presence is easier to feel. But only if-- nvm. it'll be bleeted...

 

Yeah, I'm fine. I'd had a bad day. I shouldn't have taken it out on you like that.

 

Luvs,

-4771-

 

1- so there for i have no motivation

i think motivation comes from when you really want something and then you just go for it

i dont really want anything enough...

 

2-k

 

3- right and wrong is an opinion. and i know you dont think so. but its true, no matter wut you say.

 

4- theres an icon that says "as long as theres test, there will be prayer in school"

ha! its true!

 

me and rob are working stuff off

but theres this kid in manville that likes me

and idk anymore.

boys stink :[

 

its all good :]

was the holocaust wrong, Lauren?

Moral relativity means you can't say the ruthless, systematic murder of 9mil men women and children just because they were jews, twins, or non-arians was wrong. Tell me if it was right or wrong and be honest!

 

And don't bother with Rob, Lauren. You don't love him if you cheated on him. I've had enough experience to know that much.

 

motivation is relative. how's this for motivation: getup off your lazy bum or your next high will stink out the wazoo!

 

tests/prayer: I love tests. I will always love tests. Prayer for a test is good, but simple. They are talking about taking structure out of school and opening up a hole for evil to come in and ruin it for everyone!

 

Boys r ok

I'm a littel bitter, but honestly, I don't really think they're all bad. just 99.999999999999999999999999% of them.

 

it was wrong. but im not higher then any other human around me, so im not gonna make them say its wrong just cuz i believe it..

 

i didnt realyl cheat on him

it just felt that way

 

wut, why would it stink?

 

ha, yea. personally, as long as i dont have to hear it people can pray as much as they want.. whos to say WHERE you can pray?

 

ha.

[Patchwork]

1. do you want a cookie?

everyone lives life diferently. you chose to skip some fun stuff.

doesnt make a difference to me.

just dont tell ME how to live.

I'm not telling anyone how to live. You're the one who steroetyped teenagers as druggie-partyloving-maniac people. You can't do that. Yeah, I might have skipped out on stuff that would be fun at the time, but in the long run, it's stupid, Lauren. You can't understand that because you're only focused on the here and now. Who knows? Maybe you were meant to be a nothing to nobody. But You'll never know if you were meant for more if you don't start looking for the future. Find a passion other than drugs or self-mutilation, kita. It'll save your life.

 

2. wut r u talking about doing stuff against people? not everyone is gonna accept my choices and thats fine.

Maybe so, but that doesn't change the fact that some People have to accept you. I can't say Their names, but They exist whether you like it or not. I know you don't, so you can deal with it, accept the facts, move on. Life ####. Yours #### because you won't let yourself see there's more to you than what you've made of yourself.

 

3. who said anything about acceptance?

why do you do drugs, Lauren? Why do you want a boyfriend? why do you party? IT's fun, yes, but why did you start? What motivates you the most deep down? Ten H$ says it's acceptance or one of her relatives.

4. im starting to think distance is my friend..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

wow this is all complicated.

im gonna try to take it apart.

k well i didnt do a good job.

lol.

 

1- i dont have the motivation to do anything else and i never said all teenagers do that. just the ones i hang out.

 

2- life is a pointless cycle of trying to figure it out. i wanna FEEL more then that. i dont have the heart to look for those things. i need to keep my head on.

 

3- i do drugs cuz theyre fun.i want a boyfriend cuz i need someone to love. ive only partied ONCE and i did it for fun and i had a great time and met alot of people and NO, not all of them were doing drugs.

um, your assumsions are wrong and i really dont care if you wanna believe some acceptance bull be my guest.

but the truth is that i wanted to do what I did for like the longest time and then i was offered it. and so now i do it as much as i want. i didnt do it to be accepted, i did it cuz i heard it was fun and it was.

i really dont need you and all your little personal beliefs to go and tell me that i do stuff to be accepted by people, im already accepted by the people i love anyway, so there.

1. And why don't you have the motivation again?

 

2. Life is far from pointless. You might see it that way, but you have a point to live. You just said, "I want a boyfriend cuz i need someone to love". That means you feel like you have something in this world. The fact is, you DON'T have anything in this world! Nothing but your parents and a "need" to love! If you want to love--nvm. My point is, Life is FAR from pointless. You want to feel more? You know me, Lauren.

 

3. Who said they were fun in the first place? Why did you want to believe that idiot (who was wrong because drugs are stupid and you know that from me and your health teacher... have you seen those pictures?)?

 

You know, if you don't need all my little personal beliefs, then why don't I just go away forever, Lauren? Would you like that, kita?

 

The people you love? You jsut said you want a boyfriend because you need someone to love. You already have someone to love, if you're using those words. Think b4 u speak.

 

Your reply aims to belittle and throw off. Nice try. Didn't work.

 

Luvya,

-4771-

 

1cuz im so lazy

and selfish

but im happy

 

2life has become numbing life

and im ahead of myself on that

buts k cuz i know i can keep my head up

 

3i heard it from liek everyh persont ahtt chilled at my house

and my bro

everyone i knew

cuz most kids smoke weed

but before you start you think its not as many people as it is

even this straight A honor roll major brain girl tired it

its just somthing people do

 

your not seeing is the same as me

and thats ok, i can accpet your ways, if you take mine.

 

4 wow, your hostle girl!

1st, its like.. idk wut my little hd addiction is about but i have a feeling as long as theres somewhat free speac\h and bordum

ill prolly be around

its like idk anyone so i can spit my ideas and its perfect

i never gave it enough credit

likts its become so much more

but anyway, its the day i do leave

stop preaching my words, stop fighting for my thoughts

that i truely die.

 

yea, but i need a boyfriend who can deal with the whole thing, ya kno?

i think you understand me here.

 

i just dont need somthing to be like im right and your wrong

cuz it might be in the stars

thats bad news.

but im good now, idk about u/.

sry, wut? ya kinda lost me ther...

 

1 i'm lazy too. wuts ur point?

2 I didn't quite catch that, but I'm guessing you meant you're fine with the way things are even though life is numb. Well, I have news: I've been numb for years and hide it so well people try to convince me I'm not depressed when I admit I am.

3 Ur's right, Lauren. Many people partake. That doesn't make it right, or healthy.

 

Actually, I accept you for who you are probably mroe completely than you accept me. I've tread both sides of the fence. Our few differences are in the realm of drugs and the like... and age. hehe

 

4 I'm not hostile. It felt like you attacked me. I wasn't saying you should leave, Lauren. Nah, you shouldn't leave! You're a great frind to many of us here at HD. I was telling you to back off a little. But I shouldn't have. It's good practice. You're right. We die as human souls when we give up our right to free thought. Strange, it is, when they've gone and banished prayer in school... Denying children their right to free expression and speech... I'm rambling. Ignore that.

 

I do know what you mean about boyfriends. I can't handle life very well. I handle it better with someone there beside me that I can touch with my fingers. Yeah, God's nice, but physical presence is easier to feel. But only if-- nvm. it'll be bleeted...

 

Yeah, I'm fine. I'd had a bad day. I shouldn't have taken it out on you like that.

 

Luvs,

-4771-

 

1- so there for i have no motivation

i think motivation comes from when you really want something and then you just go for it

i dont really want anything enough...

 

2-k

 

3- right and wrong is an opinion. and i know you dont think so. but its true, no matter wut you say.

 

4- theres an icon that says "as long as theres test, there will be prayer in school"

ha! its true!

 

me and rob are working stuff off

but theres this kid in manville that likes me

and idk anymore.

boys stink :[

 

its all good :]

was the holocaust wrong, Lauren?

Moral relativity means you can't say the ruthless, systematic murder of 9mil men women and children just because they were jews, twins, or non-arians was wrong. Tell me if it was right or wrong and be honest!

 

And don't bother with Rob, Lauren. You don't love him if you cheated on him. I've had enough experience to know that much.

 

motivation is relative. how's this for motivation: getup off your lazy bum or your next high will stink out the wazoo!

 

tests/prayer: I love tests. I will always love tests. Prayer for a test is good, but simple. They are talking about taking structure out of school and opening up a hole for evil to come in and ruin it for everyone!

 

Boys r ok

I'm a littel bitter, but honestly, I don't really think they're all bad. just 99.999999999999999999999999% of them.

 

it was wrong. but im not higher then any other human around me, so im not gonna make them say its wrong just cuz i believe it..

 

i didnt realyl cheat on him

it just felt that way

 

wut, why would it stink?

 

ha, yea. personally, as long as i dont have to hear it people can pray as much as they want.. whos to say WHERE you can pray?

 

ha.

Ok.

 

Ok.

 

I dunno, I was trying to get you motivated.

 

apparently the government

 

[xMyOwnMindx]

 

 

 

it was wrong. but im not higher then any other human around me, so im not gonna make them say its wrong just cuz i believe it..

 

i didnt realyl cheat on him

it just felt that way

 

wut, why would it stink?

 

ha, yea. personally, as long as i dont have to hear it people can pray as much as they want.. whos to say WHERE you can pray?

 

ha.

Ok.

 

Ok.

 

I dunno, I was trying to get you motivated.

 

apparently the government

 

 

nice try. but my next... uncountable number of highs were just as sweet as them all :]

 

the gov't can shove it.

[Topazia]

the gov't can shove it.

I LOVE YOU

 

lol thank you for that much needed laugh, Lauren!

[xMyOwnMindx]

the gov't can shove it.

I LOVE YOU

 

lol thank you for that much needed laugh, Lauren!

your welcome. thanks for answering one of these, i begining to think i was alone in the universeeeee.

 

so how was your turkey-day??

[Horatio]

the gov't can shove it.

I LOVE YOU

 

lol thank you for that much needed laugh, Lauren!

your welcome. thanks for answering one of these, i begining to think i was alone in the universeeeee.

 

so how was your turkey-day??

You are never alone.

How was your turkey day???

[xMyOwnMindx]

the gov't can shove it.

I LOVE YOU

 

lol thank you for that much needed laugh, Lauren!

your welcome. thanks for answering one of these, i begining to think i was alone in the universeeeee.

 

so how was your turkey-day??

You are never alone.

How was your turkey day???

lol suuuure im not.

 

it was full of food. duh. lol

it was good.

[Horatio]

the gov't can shove it.

I LOVE YOU

 

lol thank you for that much needed laugh, Lauren!

your welcome. thanks for answering one of these, i begining to think i was alone in the universeeeee.

 

so how was your turkey-day??

You are never alone.

How was your turkey day???

lol suuuure im not.

 

it was full of food. duh. lol

it was good.

Glad to hear it was good!!!

[xMyOwnMindx]

yhea. ha

i love how all these poems are like irelevant and stupid now XD

[Horatio]

yhea. ha

i love how all these poems are like irelevant and stupid now XD

Not at all stupid and definitely not irrelevant. Perhaps to you for the moment, but to someone else, they are very important.

[xMyOwnMindx]

yhea. ha

i love how all these poems are like irelevant and stupid now XD

Not at all stupid and definitely not irrelevant. Perhaps to you for the moment, but to someone else, they are very important.

maybe so maybe so.