xMyOwnMindx Posted September 25, 2006 Report Share Posted September 25, 2006 the kids run around black eyes from makeup boys and girls alike screaming from their hearts fakes. looking for people to comment their myspace pictures looking for friends to sit around with to look cool they never knew the real pain on the outside i sit average boring, plain but inside i feel it all you ask the questions i answer them all holding all this information and the heart broken from looks like a fragile soul and i turn to those kids and i laugh sometimes they want to be somthing they put all their money into it and all im trying to do is get through the day i try to look nice put myself together in the end its jeans and a hoodie cuz im hurting so deep that i dont have the energy to push myself to perfect outside im all bruised up i cant figure out where i got all these scars and cuts and burns the outside, so torn up, like i match in some chilche song i cant stop listening to and the words so melodic written by a fake one of those girls that didnt look this way 2 years ago you transformed and it wasnt just growing up for the real kids, the pain kids, the ones hoping to die for years now pushing on, pulling all the emotion out of the happy memories masking the other times with words and drugs and control ive become everything i hate and yet here i sit a poet, a female, a teenager the toxic word im the toxic girl but on the outside i sit alone frown to match my brian cells sniffing them all away i dont want to sit and plan my future i dont want to get good grades and smile at my A's i dont care about these things i wanna go out and feel real i wanna feel alive i live for the times i bleed i strave i burn my flesh the shows the nights the drugs im running, im smiling i dont know who i am i mask it better then you can its like i have 2, maybe 3, brains and im gonna fly im pushing myself i am the future im not some chilche im sick and tired of everything i see i wanna change this i want to live i feel this pain everyday life hurts i feel the pain from my head, my heart i cant stop it those pills do not work i wont be held down i am power. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted September 26, 2006 Report Share Posted September 26, 2006 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Glowurm Posted September 26, 2006 Report Share Posted September 26, 2006 YES!!! I agree. Beautiful. Another Poetic Pirate award for you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted September 26, 2006 Author Report Share Posted September 26, 2006 thanks, i think. i like this one. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted September 26, 2006 Report Share Posted September 26, 2006 thanks, i think. i like this one. Absolutely! It's great!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted September 26, 2006 Author Report Share Posted September 26, 2006 thanks. life is pretty awesome at the moment. idk why i think so. ive got homework, a splitting headache and ive been bingeing for 4 days straight but something underneath all the "poo" is smiling a bit. i MUST get on the treadmill however today its been like.. a month. :closedeyes: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted September 28, 2006 Report Share Posted September 28, 2006 its so powerful... so you. thats a good thing. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted September 28, 2006 Author Report Share Posted September 28, 2006 its so powerful... so you. thats a good thing. thanks. .. i wish life was.. more. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted September 28, 2006 Report Share Posted September 28, 2006 its so powerful... so you. thats a good thing. thanks. .. i wish life was.. more. Life does become more. Unfortunately, it just takes a few more years. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted September 29, 2006 Author Report Share Posted September 29, 2006 its so powerful... so you. thats a good thing. thanks. .. i wish life was.. more. Life does become more. Unfortunately, it just takes a few more years. i dont mean like.. getting older. i mean like RIGHT more i wish life was more i had a talk with megan sometimes i dont know which one of us is deeper or which one is further along mind-wise im so so sick of everything and i think its cuz i dont sugarcoat anything for myself.. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted September 29, 2006 Report Share Posted September 29, 2006 its so powerful... so you. thats a good thing. thanks. .. i wish life was.. more. Life does become more. Unfortunately, it just takes a few more years. i dont mean like.. getting older. i mean like RIGHT more i wish life was more i had a talk with megan sometimes i dont know which one of us is deeper or which one is further along mind-wise im so so sick of everything and i think its cuz i dont sugarcoat anything for myself.. No, I think it is because you are at an age where you learn what is REALLY happening in the world. It then takes some time to figure out how to deal with it. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted September 29, 2006 Report Share Posted September 29, 2006 its so powerful... so you. thats a good thing. thanks. .. i wish life was.. more. Life does become more. Unfortunately, it just takes a few more years. i dont mean like.. getting older. i mean like RIGHT more i wish life was more i had a talk with megan sometimes i dont know which one of us is deeper or which one is further along mind-wise im so so sick of everything and i think its cuz i dont sugarcoat anything for myself.. No, I think it is because you are at an age where you learn what is REALLY happening in the world. It then takes some time to figure out how to deal with it. life will get better you just have to have patience and i of all know this better than probably EVERYONE on here, with th eexception of horatio's human, becasue she's like, 3 spmething i swear hehe Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted September 29, 2006 Author Report Share Posted September 29, 2006 its so powerful... so you. thats a good thing. thanks. .. i wish life was.. more. Life does become more. Unfortunately, it just takes a few more years. i dont mean like.. getting older. i mean like RIGHT more i wish life was more i had a talk with megan sometimes i dont know which one of us is deeper or which one is further along mind-wise im so so sick of everything and i think its cuz i dont sugarcoat anything for myself.. No, I think it is because you are at an age where you learn what is REALLY happening in the world. It then takes some time to figure out how to deal with it. maybe. life stinks. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted September 30, 2006 Report Share Posted September 30, 2006 its so powerful... so you. thats a good thing. thanks. .. i wish life was.. more. Life does become more. Unfortunately, it just takes a few more years. i dont mean like.. getting older. i mean like RIGHT more i wish life was more i had a talk with megan sometimes i dont know which one of us is deeper or which one is further along mind-wise im so so sick of everything and i think its cuz i dont sugarcoat anything for myself.. No, I think it is because you are at an age where you learn what is REALLY happening in the world. It then takes some time to figure out how to deal with it. life will get better you just have to have patience and i of all know this better than probably EVERYONE on here, with th eexception of horatio's human, becasue he's like, 3 spmething i swear hehe 3 1/2 to be exact. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Glowurm Posted September 30, 2006 Report Share Posted September 30, 2006 its so powerful... so you. thats a good thing. thanks. .. i wish life was.. more. Life does become more. Unfortunately, it just takes a few more years. i dont mean like.. getting older. i mean like RIGHT more i wish life was more i had a talk with megan sometimes i dont know which one of us is deeper or which one is further along mind-wise im so so sick of everything and i think its cuz i dont sugarcoat anything for myself.. No, I think it is because you are at an age where you learn what is REALLY happening in the world. It then takes some time to figure out how to deal with it. life will get better you just have to have patience and i of all know this better than probably EVERYONE on here, with th eexception of horatio's human, becasue he's like, 3 spmething i swear hehe 3 1/2 to be exact. Your human is 3 1/2 years old? I knew you were... But MAN! How can she take care of you? (I had to) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted September 30, 2006 Author Report Share Posted September 30, 2006 life will get betteryou just have to have patience ill keep pretending i believe thats true.. *sigh* Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted September 30, 2006 Report Share Posted September 30, 2006 its so powerful... so you. thats a good thing. thanks. .. i wish life was.. more. Life does become more. Unfortunately, it just takes a few more years. i dont mean like.. getting older. i mean like RIGHT more i wish life was more i had a talk with megan sometimes i dont know which one of us is deeper or which one is further along mind-wise im so so sick of everything and i think its cuz i dont sugarcoat anything for myself.. No, I think it is because you are at an age where you learn what is REALLY happening in the world. It then takes some time to figure out how to deal with it. life will get better you just have to have patience and i of all know this better than probably EVERYONE on here, with th eexception of horatio's human, becasue he's like, 3 spmething i swear hehe 3 1/2 to be exact. Your human is 3 1/2 years old? I knew you were... But MAN! How can she take care of you? (I had to) We take care of ourselves. No humans involved. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Patchwork Posted September 30, 2006 Report Share Posted September 30, 2006 life will get better you just have to have patience ill keep pretending i believe thats true.. *sigh* ditto that for me, sister! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted September 30, 2006 Author Report Share Posted September 30, 2006 life will get better you just have to have patience ill keep pretending i believe thats true.. *sigh* ditto that for me, sister! hehe :] Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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