Topazia Posted September 23, 2006 Report Share Posted September 23, 2006 i'm falling in a hole where did the light go listening to emo music... and it's touching me more than my music but i'm not... am i finally dead inside? After seventeen years of fighting the lies of this world, fighting to appear normal with a past like mine, have I finally died in my soul? It feels like it. I miss hugs. I miss hearing three little words. I miss him. I'm going to cry. I hate crying... The centerline grows cold when all is lost And it feels as though all that matters is gone forever The promise of reconciliation hurts Because I don't want to wait I want you now I know your new girlfriend She's nice But she isn't me I don't want you kissing another girl! I don't want you making her believe she's the one and then leave her for me! I want you NOW! But I can't have you. Why am I even still wearing your ring? Oh, God, why do I feel like this?! I just want my life back! I hate change And you're f--------in' swamping my mind with the concept! Yeah, I'm screaming at the world! I'm so angry Hurt Weak Haven't slept for weeks Big meet in the morning, too I'm so tired Sleep still won't come easy It never did anyway I WANT TO SCREAM SO LOUD but i cant because i'm dying inside or have i already died is this the zombiecat talking or me becasue i'm losing my mind where's the answer? IM DESPERATE but for whut someone hold me before i die from the cold Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted September 23, 2006 Report Share Posted September 23, 2006 You and Lauren are touching emotional spots that many people will either experience now or later. Very intense areas of thought. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted September 23, 2006 Author Report Share Posted September 23, 2006 er... thanks? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted September 23, 2006 Report Share Posted September 23, 2006 er... thanks? Absolutely that was a compliment. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted September 23, 2006 Author Report Share Posted September 23, 2006 er... thanks? Absolutely that was a compliment. ok guess i just havnt quite come out of my coma yet... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mushroom_king Posted September 23, 2006 Report Share Posted September 23, 2006 *~*The Grand Illusion*~*The Final Cut*~* I'm sorry about what happened, Paz. Sometimes, when I'm depressed, I just grab the nearest lappy, run over to the Pitch Black Eclipse topic, and type my heart out in a song. I'm such a depressing Emo. *~*The Psychedelic Luau*~*The Astronomy Domine*~* Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted September 23, 2006 Report Share Posted September 23, 2006 er... thanks? Absolutely that was a compliment. ok guess i just havnt quite come out of my coma yet... No, I am just having a communication problem. My brain has the thoughts, but when I try to type them out, there is a gap. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted September 23, 2006 Author Report Share Posted September 23, 2006 k i feel like dying but i wont who knows? tophet might just be worse than this life. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted September 23, 2006 Report Share Posted September 23, 2006 k i feel like dying but i wont who knows? tophet might just be worse than this life. It is hard to believe, but it does get better. This is just a really, really difficult time in your life. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Glowurm Posted September 23, 2006 Report Share Posted September 23, 2006 I hope your mother honoured your request. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted September 23, 2006 Author Report Share Posted September 23, 2006 I hope your mother honoured your request. she did we already went over this, her and i. thank you horatio, glowurm, and Mk. I want a hug... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted September 23, 2006 Report Share Posted September 23, 2006 I hope your mother honoured your request. she did we already went over this, her and i. thank you horatio, glowurm, and Mk. I want a hug... Better than a hug, we can do a group hug! *gets everyone together for a giant hammie group bear huggle with Topazia in the center* *hopes Topazia is not claustrophobic * Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Glowurm Posted September 24, 2006 Report Share Posted September 24, 2006 I hope your mother honoured your request. she did we already went over this, her and i. thank you horatio, glowurm, and Mk. I want a hug... Aww, you're welcome! *joins in the hammy huggle* I'd assume you're not claustrophobic... Considering you have instigated a few hammie huggles in the past. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted September 25, 2006 Report Share Posted September 25, 2006 i'm falling in a holewhere did the light go listening to emo music... and it's touching me more than my music but i'm not... am i finally dead inside? After seventeen years of fighting the lies of this world, fighting to appear normal with a past like mine, have I finally died in my soul? It feels like it. I miss hugs. I miss hearing three little words. I miss him. I'm going to cry. I hate crying... The centerline grows cold when all is lost And it feels as though all that matters is gone forever The promise of reconciliation hurts Because I don't want to wait I want you now I know your new girlfriend She's nice But she isn't me I don't want you kissing another girl! I don't want you making her believe she's the one and then leave her for me! I want you NOW! But I can't have you. Why am I even still wearing your ring? Oh, God, why do I feel like this?! I just want my life back! I hate change And you're f--------in' swamping my mind with the concept! Yeah, I'm screaming at the world! I'm so angry Hurt Weak Haven't slept for weeks Big meet in the morning, too I'm so tired Sleep still won't come easy It never did anyway I WANT TO SCREAM SO LOUD but i cant because i'm dying inside or have i already died is this the zombiecat talking or me becasue i'm losing my mind where's the answer? IM DESPERATE but for whut someone hold me before i die from the cold im sorry. pain stinks. and i dont know wut to say. nothing is enough. <3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted September 28, 2006 Author Report Share Posted September 28, 2006 im sorry.pain stinks. and i dont know wut to say. nothing is enough. <3 why are u sorry? you didn't do anything to hurt me. The only thing to say is wow, and that doesn't say anything. so you're right. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted September 28, 2006 Report Share Posted September 28, 2006 im sorry. pain stinks. and i dont know wut to say. nothing is enough. <3 why are u sorry? you didn't do anything to hurt me. The only thing to say is wow, and that doesn't say anything. so you're right. im sorry i cant help im sorry your hurting im sorry that life is less then wut it should be i try to not feel anything but i tend to feel everything of everyones.. :[ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted September 29, 2006 Author Report Share Posted September 29, 2006 im sorry i cant helpim sorry your hurting im sorry that life is less then wut it should be i try to not feel anything but i tend to feel everything of everyones.. :[ stone sour is a good band. i appreciate your wish to help but dont want to don't want to help me, Lauren. It's not worth the pain and agony of watchign me fail again and again Knowing you couldn't change my path if you were God. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted September 30, 2006 Report Share Posted September 30, 2006 im sorry i cant help im sorry your hurting im sorry that life is less then wut it should be i try to not feel anything but i tend to feel everything of everyones.. :[ stone sour is a good band. i appreciate your wish to help but dont want to don't want to help me, Lauren. It's not worth the pain and agony of watchign me fail again and again Knowing you couldn't change my path if you were God. i am the same. people are liars they think they know but real people need to be there for each other. think about it. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Patchwork Posted September 30, 2006 Report Share Posted September 30, 2006 im sorry i cant help im sorry your hurting im sorry that life is less then wut it should be i try to not feel anything but i tend to feel everything of everyones.. :[ stone sour is a good band. i appreciate your wish to help but dont want to don't want to help me, Lauren. It's not worth the pain and agony of watchign me fail again and again Knowing you couldn't change my path if you were God. alas you are right i am the same. people are liars they think they know but real people need to be there for each other. think about it. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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