xMyOwnMindx Posted August 27, 2006 Report Share Posted August 27, 2006 What im doing, isnt funny the funny part is that im doing it right in front of you and your too blind to see when you tell me its bad i lie "i guess" so you dont understand and i strave on i see all the warning signs every caution and every "no" but i also see obsesity in that mirror, that only wants to show me i can be better and i will be sheading who i was fat, worthless and a nobody i will be the most envied i will buy the smallest clothes and sweetly say "no thank you" when they give me sweets i cant be protected anymore i dont want to be the biggest im so sick of this this life this body im stuck in i cant be prettier but the fact that i got this huge is MY fault and im taking full repsonsiblity to change it i want to be flawless floating through hunger and envy everyday im doing better and better and better untill i am perfect underweight tiny and hungry i will be so pretty and thinking about it excites me i am loosing i will be small i have everyone supporting me even the people that have no idea what exactly theyre doing like i used to be less this, less that, plain nothing i was clueless but i can use it as power now control wut i do control the way i look i will be little i will show everyone that ive been hiding in a fat suit my entire life. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Patchwork Posted August 28, 2006 Report Share Posted August 28, 2006 What im doing, isnt funnythe funny part is that im doing it right in front of you and your too blind to see when you tell me its bad i lie "i guess" so you dont understand and i strave on i see all the warning signs every caution and every "no" but i also see obsesity in that mirror, that only wants to show me i can be better and i will be sheading who i was fat, worthless and a nobody i will be the most envied i will buy the smallest clothes and sweetly say "no thank you" when they give me sweets i cant be protected anymore i dont want to be the biggest im so sick of this this life this body im stuck in i cant be prettier but the fact that i got this huge is MY fault and im taking full repsonsiblity to change it i want to be flawless floating through hunger and envy everyday im doing better and better and better untill i am perfect underweight tiny and hungry i will be so pretty and thinking about it excites me i am loosing i will be small i have everyone supporting me even the people that have no idea what exactly theyre doing like i used to be less this, less that, plain nothing i was clueless but i can use it as power now control wut i do control the way i look i will be little i will show everyone that ive been hiding in a fat suit my entire life. Topazia says to say she'd commend your writing, but the topic scares her a little. She's at school rite now, so she can't be on. But I'm here, and you know I'm a split off her personality. Well, anway, that's what she wanted me to say. She's worried about you without even knowing why. Actually, she does know why. She's afraid for you. Sarah, her ana friend, is also scared for you. Sarah's been there, and she says it's all about control and self-loathing. Sarah said to stop now, and stop telling yourself you're fat when you're not. Honestly, I agree with Topazia and Sarah. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted August 28, 2006 Author Report Share Posted August 28, 2006 What im doing, isnt funny the funny part is that im doing it right in front of you and your too blind to see when you tell me its bad i lie "i guess" so you dont understand and i strave on i see all the warning signs every caution and every "no" but i also see obsesity in that mirror, that only wants to show me i can be better and i will be sheading who i was fat, worthless and a nobody i will be the most envied i will buy the smallest clothes and sweetly say "no thank you" when they give me sweets i cant be protected anymore i dont want to be the biggest im so sick of this this life this body im stuck in i cant be prettier but the fact that i got this huge is MY fault and im taking full repsonsiblity to change it i want to be flawless floating through hunger and envy everyday im doing better and better and better untill i am perfect underweight tiny and hungry i will be so pretty and thinking about it excites me i am loosing i will be small i have everyone supporting me even the people that have no idea what exactly theyre doing like i used to be less this, less that, plain nothing i was clueless but i can use it as power now control wut i do control the way i look i will be little i will show everyone that ive been hiding in a fat suit my entire life. Topazia says to say she'd commend your writing, but the topic scares her a little. She's at school rite now, so she can't be on. But I'm here, and you know I'm a split off her personality. Well, anway, that's what she wanted me to say. She's worried about you without even knowing why. Actually, she does know why. She's afraid for you. Sarah, her ana friend, is also scared for you. Sarah's been there, and she says it's all about control and self-loathing. Sarah said to stop now, and stop telling yourself you're fat when you're not. Honestly, I agree with Topazia and Sarah. ha scared of what? im not even that messed up and im loosing weight everyone loves it im gonna be pretty im gonan make luc proud im gonna be smaller then my underweight boyfriend so he can pick me up and ill be "his beautiful girlfriend" not "that fat chick he kisses" im doing this for everyone myself, my friends,family, rob, everyone that has to SEE me its not so bad this poem was to rob by the way and some other people i guess im not even hungry yesterday i ate a TON dont worry about it im okay :] Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hamster Luver Posted August 28, 2006 Report Share Posted August 28, 2006 i like the poem but patchwork are u topazias real life friend? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted August 28, 2006 Report Share Posted August 28, 2006 i like the poem but patchwork are u topazias real life friend? no Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted August 29, 2006 Author Report Share Posted August 29, 2006 What im doing, isnt funny the funny part is that im doing it right in front of you and your too blind to see when you tell me its bad i lie "i guess" so you dont understand and i strave on i see all the warning signs every caution and every "no" but i also see obsesity in that mirror, that only wants to show me i can be better and i will be sheading who i was fat, worthless and a nobody i will be the most envied i will buy the smallest clothes and sweetly say "no thank you" when they give me sweets i cant be protected anymore i dont want to be the biggest im so sick of this this life this body im stuck in i cant be prettier but the fact that i got this huge is MY fault and im taking full repsonsiblity to change it i want to be flawless floating through hunger and envy everyday im doing better and better and better untill i am perfect underweight tiny and hungry i will be so pretty and thinking about it excites me i am loosing i will be small i have everyone supporting me even the people that have no idea what exactly theyre doing like i used to be less this, less that, plain nothing i was clueless but i can use it as power now control wut i do control the way i look i will be little i will show everyone that ive been hiding in a fat suit my entire life. Topazia says to say she'd commend your writing, but the topic scares her a little. She's at school rite now, so she can't be on. But I'm here, and you know I'm a split off her personality. Well, anway, that's what she wanted me to say. She's worried about you without even knowing why. Actually, she does know why. She's afraid for you. Sarah, her ana friend, is also scared for you. Sarah's been there, and she says it's all about control and self-loathing. Sarah said to stop now, and stop telling yourself you're fat when you're not. Honestly, I agree with Topazia and Sarah. ha scared of what? im not even that messed up and im loosing weight everyone loves it im gonna be pretty im gonan make luc proud im gonna be smaller then my underweight boyfriend so he can pick me up and ill be "his beautiful girlfriend" not "that fat chick he kisses" im doing this for everyone myself, my friends,family, rob, everyone that has to SEE me its not so bad this poem was to rob by the way and some other people i guess im not even hungry yesterday i ate a TON dont worry about it im okay :] paz^. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hamster Luver Posted August 29, 2006 Report Share Posted August 29, 2006 o, cuz i hate it when im with an online group of ppl and they are all real life friends and i am just friends with then from online, i feel so left out... haha Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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