xMyOwnMindx Posted July 23, 2006 Report Share Posted July 23, 2006 and i cant stop im addicted to the scale when the number goes down im smiling if its up im crying and i jsut keep thinking about who i am inside how the world is so messed up and i wanna make it better i wanna stop this war i am the future i wanna do everything dont wanna live here anymore get over my fears with him and take the final step but im so scared, and im not ready i wont do this, im not okay and i wish everything could be alright again costant yelling never stps in my head i cant stop crying wishing i was other people i wanna be pretty i wanna be alive i cant say and make you understand my heart cries out for so much more ive wasted it all i dont know who i am who i can trust and everything i say is lame and i hate it i hate me its so pointless i wanna be driven and get to my goal i wanna save this world from crumbling i wish i could inspire people just like they do but im weak and im worthless and everytime i had a sepk of hope everyone knocks it down again and i wanna take it and be stronger and move on and be happy happy but i find myself running from thoughts and people i dont want to feel i dont know how many things i want to do but they clash why do i clash? am i more then one mind? is the possbile? becuase it hurts and i dont want to hurt anymore and all my words are elementary cuz i dont learn and i hate school and i dont wanna live like this i dont wanna be pouring out my soul for the chance that someone thinks it's 'nice' im sick of living day to day without a purpose only to punish myself just so i can realize and cry everything is all messed up everwhere around the world its all hate and i feel every tear drop from every living being im so overcome with feeling theres just no right way to put that. there's gotta be somthing better then this.. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted July 23, 2006 Report Share Posted July 23, 2006 You have a wonderful way of expressing yourself. Although the topic is very emotional, you communicate your thoughts beautifully. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted July 23, 2006 Author Report Share Posted July 23, 2006 You have a wonderful way of expressing yourself. Although the topic is very emotional, you communicate your thoughts beautifully. thanks. :] i just find it so naggy-angsty idk. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted July 24, 2006 Report Share Posted July 24, 2006 You have a wonderful way of expressing yourself. Although the topic is very emotional, you communicate your thoughts beautifully. thanks. :] i just find it so naggy-angsty idk. I found it enlightening. You are a wonderful young lady, but you haven't realized it yet. Why do you think I like you? (Not like that, ew.) I guess if I think about it, a lot of my friends are cookie cutters of each other... But you're not. You are unique. I'm drawn to that for some reason. Maybe it's because I'm recognizing my younger self in your words... I dunno why I'm saying it, though... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted July 26, 2006 Author Report Share Posted July 26, 2006 You have a wonderful way of expressing yourself. Although the topic is very emotional, you communicate your thoughts beautifully. thanks. :] i just find it so naggy-angsty idk. I found it enlightening. You are a wonderful young lady, but you haven't realized it yet. Why do you think I like you? (Not like that, ew.) I guess if I think about it, a lot of my friends are cookie cutters of each other... But you're not. You are unique. I'm drawn to that for some reason. Maybe it's because I'm recognizing my younger self in your words... I dunno why I'm saying it, though... "(Not like that, ew.)" were not 4. haha. anyway, your so sweet. the only problem the closer i get with my boyfriend, the less sad i am, and the less i can seem to write. i cant draw inperation from anything like other people can.. it stinks. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted July 26, 2006 Report Share Posted July 26, 2006 You have a wonderful way of expressing yourself. Although the topic is very emotional, you communicate your thoughts beautifully. thanks. :] i just find it so naggy-angsty idk. I found it enlightening. You are a wonderful young lady, but you haven't realized it yet. Why do you think I like you? (Not like that, ew.) I guess if I think about it, a lot of my friends are cookie cutters of each other... But you're not. You are unique. I'm drawn to that for some reason. Maybe it's because I'm recognizing my younger self in your words... I dunno why I'm saying it, though... "(Not like that, ew.)" were not 4. haha. anyway, your so sweet. the only problem the closer i get with my boyfriend, the less sad i am, and the less i can seem to write. i cant draw inperation from anything like other people can.. it stinks. Hey, if he makes you feel better, then don't worry about writing. It's okay if you can't think. You can always just chat about nonsense. When you're down, writing is good. If writing is not as effective or longlasting as time with loved ones, then don't worry about it. I'm the same way. I only write dark stuff when I think of someone's past or when I"m away from him wishing he were here to hug away all my fears. Or when I feel like scaring him. It never works. oh well. lunch time! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted July 27, 2006 Author Report Share Posted July 27, 2006 You have a wonderful way of expressing yourself. Although the topic is very emotional, you communicate your thoughts beautifully. thanks. :] i just find it so naggy-angsty idk. I found it enlightening. You are a wonderful young lady, but you haven't realized it yet. Why do you think I like you? (Not like that, ew.) I guess if I think about it, a lot of my friends are cookie cutters of each other... But you're not. You are unique. I'm drawn to that for some reason. Maybe it's because I'm recognizing my younger self in your words... I dunno why I'm saying it, though... "(Not like that, ew.)" were not 4. haha. anyway, your so sweet. the only problem the closer i get with my boyfriend, the less sad i am, and the less i can seem to write. i cant draw inperation from anything like other people can.. it stinks. Hey, if he makes you feel better, then don't worry about writing. It's okay if you can't think. You can always just chat about nonsense. When you're down, writing is good. If writing is not as effective or longlasting as time with loved ones, then don't worry about it. I'm the same way. I only write dark stuff when I think of someone's past or when I"m away from him wishing he were here to hug away all my fears. Or when I feel like scaring him. It never works. oh well. lunch time! lol. i need a job. im always broke. i borrowed $5 today so i could buy rob a giant kiss in the hershey store today. were am i gonna get $5 from?! haha i hope i can always write. like i hope i dont get horrible at it or somthing. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted July 27, 2006 Report Share Posted July 27, 2006 You have a wonderful way of expressing yourself. Although the topic is very emotional, you communicate your thoughts beautifully. thanks. :] i just find it so naggy-angsty idk. I found it enlightening. You are a wonderful young lady, but you haven't realized it yet. Why do you think I like you? (Not like that, ew.) I guess if I think about it, a lot of my friends are cookie cutters of each other... But you're not. You are unique. I'm drawn to that for some reason. Maybe it's because I'm recognizing my younger self in your words... I dunno why I'm saying it, though... "(Not like that, ew.)" were not 4. haha. anyway, your so sweet. the only problem the closer i get with my boyfriend, the less sad i am, and the less i can seem to write. i cant draw inperation from anything like other people can.. it stinks. Hey, if he makes you feel better, then don't worry about writing. It's okay if you can't think. You can always just chat about nonsense. When you're down, writing is good. If writing is not as effective or longlasting as time with loved ones, then don't worry about it. I'm the same way. I only write dark stuff when I think of someone's past or when I"m away from him wishing he were here to hug away all my fears. Or when I feel like scaring him. It never works. oh well. lunch time! lol. i need a job. im always broke. i borrowed $5 today so i could buy rob a giant kiss in the hershey store today. were am i gonna get $5 from?! haha i hope i can always write. like i hope i dont get horrible at it or somthing. is that your bf's name? cool! I wouldn't worry too much about losing your talent. It will always be there, deep inside you. ...a giant kiss.. sounds like something I could afford and get on my own now that I have my license! Yippee! I've taken the stupid test three times! wohoo! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted July 27, 2006 Author Report Share Posted July 27, 2006 You have a wonderful way of expressing yourself. Although the topic is very emotional, you communicate your thoughts beautifully. thanks. :] i just find it so naggy-angsty idk. I found it enlightening. You are a wonderful young lady, but you haven't realized it yet. Why do you think I like you? (Not like that, ew.) I guess if I think about it, a lot of my friends are cookie cutters of each other... But you're not. You are unique. I'm drawn to that for some reason. Maybe it's because I'm recognizing my younger self in your words... I dunno why I'm saying it, though... "(Not like that, ew.)" were not 4. haha. anyway, your so sweet. the only problem the closer i get with my boyfriend, the less sad i am, and the less i can seem to write. i cant draw inperation from anything like other people can.. it stinks. Hey, if he makes you feel better, then don't worry about writing. It's okay if you can't think. You can always just chat about nonsense. When you're down, writing is good. If writing is not as effective or longlasting as time with loved ones, then don't worry about it. I'm the same way. I only write dark stuff when I think of someone's past or when I"m away from him wishing he were here to hug away all my fears. Or when I feel like scaring him. It never works. oh well. lunch time! lol. i need a job. im always broke. i borrowed $5 today so i could buy rob a giant kiss in the hershey store today. were am i gonna get $5 from?! haha i hope i can always write. like i hope i dont get horrible at it or somthing. is that your bf's name? cool! I wouldn't worry too much about losing your talent. It will always be there, deep inside you. ...a giant kiss.. sounds like something I could afford and get on my own now that I have my license! Yippee! I've taken the stupid test three times! wohoo! yupp :] i hope so. congrats on that. didnt you once tell me you like tests? ha. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted July 27, 2006 Report Share Posted July 27, 2006 You have a wonderful way of expressing yourself. Although the topic is very emotional, you communicate your thoughts beautifully. thanks. :] i just find it so naggy-angsty idk. I found it enlightening. You are a wonderful young lady, but you haven't realized it yet. Why do you think I like you? (Not like that, ew.) I guess if I think about it, a lot of my friends are cookie cutters of each other... But you're not. You are unique. I'm drawn to that for some reason. Maybe it's because I'm recognizing my younger self in your words... I dunno why I'm saying it, though... "(Not like that, ew.)" were not 4. haha. anyway, your so sweet. the only problem the closer i get with my boyfriend, the less sad i am, and the less i can seem to write. i cant draw inperation from anything like other people can.. it stinks. Hey, if he makes you feel better, then don't worry about writing. It's okay if you can't think. You can always just chat about nonsense. When you're down, writing is good. If writing is not as effective or longlasting as time with loved ones, then don't worry about it. I'm the same way. I only write dark stuff when I think of someone's past or when I"m away from him wishing he were here to hug away all my fears. Or when I feel like scaring him. It never works. oh well. lunch time! lol. i need a job. im always broke. i borrowed $5 today so i could buy rob a giant kiss in the hershey store today. were am i gonna get $5 from?! haha i hope i can always write. like i hope i dont get horrible at it or somthing. is that your bf's name? cool! I wouldn't worry too much about losing your talent. It will always be there, deep inside you. ...a giant kiss.. sounds like something I could afford and get on my own now that I have my license! Yippee! I've taken the stupid test three times! wohoo! yupp :] i hope so. congrats on that. didnt you once tell me you like tests? ha. i have trouble parking, is all. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted July 27, 2006 Author Report Share Posted July 27, 2006 You have a wonderful way of expressing yourself. Although the topic is very emotional, you communicate your thoughts beautifully. thanks. :] i just find it so naggy-angsty idk. I found it enlightening. You are a wonderful young lady, but you haven't realized it yet. Why do you think I like you? (Not like that, ew.) I guess if I think about it, a lot of my friends are cookie cutters of each other... But you're not. You are unique. I'm drawn to that for some reason. Maybe it's because I'm recognizing my younger self in your words... I dunno why I'm saying it, though... "(Not like that, ew.)" were not 4. haha. anyway, your so sweet. the only problem the closer i get with my boyfriend, the less sad i am, and the less i can seem to write. i cant draw inperation from anything like other people can.. it stinks. Hey, if he makes you feel better, then don't worry about writing. It's okay if you can't think. You can always just chat about nonsense. When you're down, writing is good. If writing is not as effective or longlasting as time with loved ones, then don't worry about it. I'm the same way. I only write dark stuff when I think of someone's past or when I"m away from him wishing he were here to hug away all my fears. Or when I feel like scaring him. It never works. oh well. lunch time! lol. i need a job. im always broke. i borrowed $5 today so i could buy rob a giant kiss in the hershey store today. were am i gonna get $5 from?! haha i hope i can always write. like i hope i dont get horrible at it or somthing. is that your bf's name? cool! I wouldn't worry too much about losing your talent. It will always be there, deep inside you. ...a giant kiss.. sounds like something I could afford and get on my own now that I have my license! Yippee! I've taken the stupid test three times! wohoo! yupp :] i hope so. congrats on that. didnt you once tell me you like tests? ha. i have trouble parking, is all. ooo. im terrified to drive. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mushroom_king Posted July 27, 2006 Report Share Posted July 27, 2006 and i cant stopim addicted to the scale when the number goes down im smiling if its up im crying and i jsut keep thinking about who i am inside how the world is so messed up and i wanna make it better i wanna stop this war i am the future i wanna do everything dont wanna live here anymore get over my fears with him and take the final step but im so scared, and im not ready i wont do this, im not okay and i wish everything could be alright again costant yelling never stps in my head i cant stop crying wishing i was other people i wanna be pretty i wanna be alive i cant say and make you understand my heart cries out for so much more ive wasted it all i dont know who i am who i can trust and everything i say is lame and i hate it i hate me its so pointless i wanna be driven and get to my goal i wanna save this world from crumbling i wish i could inspire people just like they do but im weak and im worthless and everytime i had a sepk of hope everyone knocks it down again and i wanna take it and be stronger and move on and be happy happy but i find myself running from thoughts and people i dont want to feel i dont know how many things i want to do but they clash why do i clash? am i more then one mind? is the possbile? becuase it hurts and i dont want to hurt anymore and all my words are elementary cuz i dont learn and i hate school and i dont wanna live like this i dont wanna be pouring out my soul for the chance that someone thinks it's 'nice' im sick of living day to day without a purpose only to punish myself just so i can realize and cry everything is all messed up everwhere around the world its all hate and i feel every tear drop from every living being im so overcome with feeling theres just no right way to put that. there's gotta be somthing better then this.. *~*The Grand Illusion*~* I really like your poems. They are always great, although I'm no good at poetry. Well, the songs I write are kinda like poetry. *~*The Psycedelic Luau*~* Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted July 28, 2006 Report Share Posted July 28, 2006 i have trouble parking, is all. ooo. im terrified to drive. it's not that bad. I was afriad to go out alone this afternoon, but mom made me go get chocolate from the convenience store down the road from us. It's fun! I like driving! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted July 28, 2006 Author Report Share Posted July 28, 2006 i have trouble parking, is all. ooo. im terrified to drive. it's not that bad. I was afriad to go out alone this afternoon, but mom made me go get chocolate from the convenience store down the road from us. It's fun! I like driving! gas prices are too high and im angry ill probably hit people. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted July 30, 2006 Report Share Posted July 30, 2006 i have trouble parking, is all. ooo. im terrified to drive. it's not that bad. I was afriad to go out alone this afternoon, but mom made me go get chocolate from the convenience store down the road from us. It's fun! I like driving! gas prices are too high and im angry ill probably hit people. haha, that's something ich would say... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted July 31, 2006 Author Report Share Posted July 31, 2006 i have trouble parking, is all. ooo. im terrified to drive. it's not that bad. I was afriad to go out alone this afternoon, but mom made me go get chocolate from the convenience store down the road from us. It's fun! I like driving! gas prices are too high and im angry ill probably hit people. haha, that's something ich would say... ha. seriously tho. its more about the gas $$$$$$. rob's always like "oh im just driving around" and im like THATS COSTING YOU $$4893724896!!! hah Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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