xMyOwnMindx Posted March 7, 2006 Report Share Posted March 7, 2006 Its me. and hmm always changing, always changing... i was reading my old posts. wow. i dont feel older or smarter but obviously i am. haha so um. im not doing too good in school. ive stopped doing my homework ive stopped eating as much too. ive been hurting myself more and my depression has gotten worse its not all that bad tho. it just kinda sounds that way. haha ive only got a few hours of comunity service left :] i got a digital camera. ive got the best friends i could ever ask for. i cant decide if im happy or not. most times not but when i am im completly am. hi to everyone that missed me. Horatio, im sorry i dont email u anymore. i think i lost ur email adress.. -Lauren (PuppyDog) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted March 7, 2006 Report Share Posted March 7, 2006 Its me. and hmm always changing, always changing... i was reading my old posts. wow. i dont feel older or smarter but obviously i am. haha so um. im not doing too good in school. ive stopped doing my homework ive stopped eating as much too. ive been hurting myself more and my depression has gotten worse its not all that bad tho. it just kinda sounds that way. haha ive only got a few hours of comunity service left :] i got a digital camera. ive got the best friends i could ever ask for. i cant decide if im happy or not. most times not but when i am im completly am. hi to everyone that missed me. Horatio, im sorry i dont email u anymore. i think i lost ur email adress.. -Lauren (PuppyDog) Here is my email address: pmajr@earthlink.net Now you do not have any excuse... write! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted March 7, 2006 Author Report Share Posted March 7, 2006 Its me. and hmm always changing, always changing... i was reading my old posts. wow. i dont feel older or smarter but obviously i am. haha so um. im not doing too good in school. ive stopped doing my homework ive stopped eating as much too. ive been hurting myself more and my depression has gotten worse its not all that bad tho. it just kinda sounds that way. haha ive only got a few hours of comunity service left :] i got a digital camera. ive got the best friends i could ever ask for. i cant decide if im happy or not. most times not but when i am im completly am. hi to everyone that missed me. Horatio, im sorry i dont email u anymore. i think i lost ur email adress.. -Lauren (PuppyDog) Here is my email address: pmajr@earthlink.net Now you do not have any excuse... write! haha k. i check my email like... once a decade but i guess ill start using it more now Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted March 7, 2006 Report Share Posted March 7, 2006 Its me. and hmm always changing, always changing... i was reading my old posts. wow. i dont feel older or smarter but obviously i am. haha so um. im not doing too good in school. ive stopped doing my homework ive stopped eating as much too. ive been hurting myself more and my depression has gotten worse its not all that bad tho. it just kinda sounds that way. haha ive only got a few hours of comunity service left :] i got a digital camera. ive got the best friends i could ever ask for. i cant decide if im happy or not. most times not but when i am im completly am. hi to everyone that missed me. Horatio, im sorry i dont email u anymore. i think i lost ur email adress.. -Lauren (PuppyDog) Here is my email address: pmajr@earthlink.net Now you do not have any excuse... write! haha k. i check my email like... once a decade but i guess ill start using it more now You could always stop in here more often. How's Cow? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted March 7, 2006 Author Report Share Posted March 7, 2006 Its me. and hmm always changing, always changing... i was reading my old posts. wow. i dont feel older or smarter but obviously i am. haha so um. im not doing too good in school. ive stopped doing my homework ive stopped eating as much too. ive been hurting myself more and my depression has gotten worse its not all that bad tho. it just kinda sounds that way. haha ive only got a few hours of comunity service left :] i got a digital camera. ive got the best friends i could ever ask for. i cant decide if im happy or not. most times not but when i am im completly am. hi to everyone that missed me. Horatio, im sorry i dont email u anymore. i think i lost ur email adress.. -Lauren (PuppyDog) Here is my email address: pmajr@earthlink.net Now you do not have any excuse... write! haha k. i check my email like... once a decade but i guess ill start using it more now You could always stop in here more often. How's Cow? thats tru. ive been so depressed lately that i forgot about HD. Katie(cow) is good. we(me & my parents) went to her house somtime in mid-january. we havnt been to a show together in months. it kinda stinks. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted March 7, 2006 Report Share Posted March 7, 2006 Its me. and hmm always changing, always changing... i was reading my old posts. wow. i dont feel older or smarter but obviously i am. haha so um. im not doing too good in school. ive stopped doing my homework ive stopped eating as much too. ive been hurting myself more and my depression has gotten worse its not all that bad tho. it just kinda sounds that way. haha ive only got a few hours of comunity service left :] i got a digital camera. ive got the best friends i could ever ask for. i cant decide if im happy or not. most times not but when i am im completly am. hi to everyone that missed me. Horatio, im sorry i dont email u anymore. i think i lost ur email adress.. -Lauren (PuppyDog) Here is my email address: pmajr@earthlink.net Now you do not have any excuse... write! haha k. i check my email like... once a decade but i guess ill start using it more now You could always stop in here more often. How's Cow? thats tru. ive been so depressed lately that i forgot about HD. Katie(cow) is good. we(me & my parents) went to her house somtime in mid-january. we havnt been to a show together in months. it kinda stinks. Sorry to hear that you have not seen many shows lately. Perhaps in the summer. I was wondering... are you more depressed in the fall and winter? Does your depression sort of go away in the spring and summer? Think about this before you answer. I am asking this question very seriously. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
The Biggest Fan Of Fuzzy Posted March 8, 2006 Report Share Posted March 8, 2006 Lauren. My most favorite person in the whole wide world. =) Actually. I'd like to forget about a rough past. Start over. I've changed. And you don't seem that bad anymore. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jesse Posted March 8, 2006 Report Share Posted March 8, 2006 I was wondering... are you more depressed in the fall and winter? Does your depression sort of go away in the spring and summer? Think about this before you answer. I am asking this question very seriously. Aah, what's that called? Seasonal depression disorder? I might have that myself. I'm not sure if I'm actually depressed...but I do feel lifeless a lot of times during the winter months. =/ When I smell spring, it makes me feel thrilled. Either way I can completely relate to Lauren when she said "I can't decide if I'm happy or not." Anyway, welcome back Lauren. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted March 8, 2006 Author Report Share Posted March 8, 2006 Its me. and hmm always changing, always changing... i was reading my old posts. wow. i dont feel older or smarter but obviously i am. haha so um. im not doing too good in school. ive stopped doing my homework ive stopped eating as much too. ive been hurting myself more and my depression has gotten worse its not all that bad tho. it just kinda sounds that way. haha ive only got a few hours of comunity service left :] i got a digital camera. ive got the best friends i could ever ask for. i cant decide if im happy or not. most times not but when i am im completly am. hi to everyone that missed me. Horatio, im sorry i dont email u anymore. i think i lost ur email adress.. -Lauren (PuppyDog) Here is my email address: pmajr@earthlink.net Now you do not have any excuse... write! haha k. i check my email like... once a decade but i guess ill start using it more now You could always stop in here more often. How's Cow? thats tru. ive been so depressed lately that i forgot about HD. Katie(cow) is good. we(me & my parents) went to her house somtime in mid-january. we havnt been to a show together in months. it kinda stinks. Sorry to hear that you have not seen many shows lately. Perhaps in the summer. I was wondering... are you more depressed in the fall and winter? Does your depression sort of go away in the spring and summer? Think about this before you answer. I am asking this question very seriously. mmm i mostly only go to warped tour in the summer. i think im more depressed in the fall and winter, not because i have s.a.d., but because i cant get out as easily. mostly last year is when i got used to find my own way for things. i started walking everywhere. even if it took me hours. and i would just leave the house for hours and be outside and do stuff. alone or with other people it dosnt matter. but in the winter u have to be inside. less freedom. and i cant walk anywhere. it stinks. its restricting and i hate that. alot. those are the only reasons why i would be more depressed in the winter. that and the fact that summer i have no school. i hate school more than anything. its dreadful. but besides for that im depressed mostly all the time. i overthink. i hate equal hate for myself. dont care about stuff just the same and hurt myself just the same. my friend megan gets really depressed in the winter time. i dont understand her. but theres alot i dont get about her... it was the way shes raised. ANYWAY, my mom is trying to invent new ways of "curing" my depression since ive been showing it more lastley since i dont really care. i was upset today and talking about my ipod and she was like "if i replaced yours would that get you out of this?" shes so stupid. but i guess shes only trying to help, although ill never tell her that. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted March 8, 2006 Report Share Posted March 8, 2006 Its me. and hmm always changing, always changing... i was reading my old posts. wow. i dont feel older or smarter but obviously i am. haha so um. im not doing too good in school. ive stopped doing my homework ive stopped eating as much too. ive been hurting myself more and my depression has gotten worse its not all that bad tho. it just kinda sounds that way. haha ive only got a few hours of comunity service left :] i got a digital camera. ive got the best friends i could ever ask for. i cant decide if im happy or not. most times not but when i am im completly am. hi to everyone that missed me. Horatio, im sorry i dont email u anymore. i think i lost ur email adress.. -Lauren (PuppyDog) Here is my email address: pmajr@earthlink.net Now you do not have any excuse... write! haha k. i check my email like... once a decade but i guess ill start using it more now You could always stop in here more often. How's Cow? thats tru. ive been so depressed lately that i forgot about HD. Katie(cow) is good. we(me & my parents) went to her house somtime in mid-january. we havnt been to a show together in months. it kinda stinks. Sorry to hear that you have not seen many shows lately. Perhaps in the summer. I was wondering... are you more depressed in the fall and winter? Does your depression sort of go away in the spring and summer? Think about this before you answer. I am asking this question very seriously. mmm i mostly only go to warped tour in the summer. i think im more depressed in the fall and winter, not because i have s.a.d., but because i cant get out as easily. mostly last year is when i got used to find my own way for things. i started walking everywhere. even if it took me hours. and i would just leave the house for hours and be outside and do stuff. alone or with other people it dosnt matter. but in the winter u have to be inside. less freedom. and i cant walk anywhere. it stinks. its restricting and i hate that. alot. those are the only reasons why i would be more depressed in the winter. that and the fact that summer i have no school. i hate school more than anything. its dreadful. but besides for that im depressed mostly all the time. i overthink. i hate equal hate for myself. dont care about stuff just the same and hurt myself just the same. my friend megan gets really depressed in the winter time. i dont understand her. but theres alot i dont get about her... it was the way shes raised. ANYWAY, my mom is trying to invent new ways of "curing" my depression since ive been showing it more lastley since i dont really care. i was upset today and talking about my ipod and she was like "if i replaced yours would that get you out of this?" shes so stupid. but i guess shes only trying to help, although ill never tell her that. The seasonal depression has quite a bit to do with light. Would you consider working out every day? See if there is a YMCA nearby, you could go there everyday and get in the pool or something like that. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lexxscrapham Posted March 8, 2006 Report Share Posted March 8, 2006 I don't hear much about S.a.d. here, at least among natives, newcomers to the area, maybe. but then, it could be they find ways to deal with it, or not, (Kurt C. comes to mind.) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted March 8, 2006 Author Report Share Posted March 8, 2006 Its me. and hmm always changing, always changing... i was reading my old posts. wow. i dont feel older or smarter but obviously i am. haha so um. im not doing too good in school. ive stopped doing my homework ive stopped eating as much too. ive been hurting myself more and my depression has gotten worse its not all that bad tho. it just kinda sounds that way. haha ive only got a few hours of comunity service left :] i got a digital camera. ive got the best friends i could ever ask for. i cant decide if im happy or not. most times not but when i am im completly am. hi to everyone that missed me. Horatio, im sorry i dont email u anymore. i think i lost ur email adress.. -Lauren (PuppyDog) Here is my email address: pmajr@earthlink.net Now you do not have any excuse... write! haha k. i check my email like... once a decade but i guess ill start using it more now You could always stop in here more often. How's Cow? thats tru. ive been so depressed lately that i forgot about HD. Katie(cow) is good. we(me & my parents) went to her house somtime in mid-january. we havnt been to a show together in months. it kinda stinks. Sorry to hear that you have not seen many shows lately. Perhaps in the summer. I was wondering... are you more depressed in the fall and winter? Does your depression sort of go away in the spring and summer? Think about this before you answer. I am asking this question very seriously. mmm i mostly only go to warped tour in the summer. i think im more depressed in the fall and winter, not because i have s.a.d., but because i cant get out as easily. mostly last year is when i got used to find my own way for things. i started walking everywhere. even if it took me hours. and i would just leave the house for hours and be outside and do stuff. alone or with other people it dosnt matter. but in the winter u have to be inside. less freedom. and i cant walk anywhere. it stinks. its restricting and i hate that. alot. those are the only reasons why i would be more depressed in the winter. that and the fact that summer i have no school. i hate school more than anything. its dreadful. but besides for that im depressed mostly all the time. i overthink. i hate equal hate for myself. dont care about stuff just the same and hurt myself just the same. my friend megan gets really depressed in the winter time. i dont understand her. but theres alot i dont get about her... it was the way shes raised. ANYWAY, my mom is trying to invent new ways of "curing" my depression since ive been showing it more lastley since i dont really care. i was upset today and talking about my ipod and she was like "if i replaced yours would that get you out of this?" shes so stupid. but i guess shes only trying to help, although ill never tell her that. The seasonal depression has quite a bit to do with light. Would you consider working out every day? See if there is a YMCA nearby, you could go there everyday and get in the pool or something like that. work out EVERYDAY? id rather drop dead. the y is like 2.5 mintues away haha pool water=bad for your hair. plus idk. swimming is kool sometimes with people in the summer but ew bathing suit and changing and stuff. not fun. not worth it. when i wanna workout i play DDR for hours. and i dont want to that often. i dont see a point im not gonan lose weight and i kno even if i do im not gonan be happy, ill just wanna lose more.. anyway, i hate physical activity. i hate everything :] we did 4 laps today in gym. me and my friend vicky didnt come in last, we were very proud of ourselves --------------- HI JESSE & The Biggest Fan Of Fuzzy- we did fight didnt me? i cant really remember but lets not get into WHY. haha jk mmm bad. idk if i am. idk wut i am about anything anymore. i let other people decide those things for me. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted March 15, 2006 Author Report Share Posted March 15, 2006 sorry i said "NO" like 8504985 ways to that but seriously, thinking about working out everyday makes me want to sleep more :] im in weight room, thats more than enough for me Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted March 15, 2006 Report Share Posted March 15, 2006 sorry i said "NO" like 8504985 ways to that but seriously, thinking about working out everyday makes me want to sleep more :] im in weight room, thats more than enough for me Hamsters love to run, so it was just a thought. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted March 19, 2006 Author Report Share Posted March 19, 2006 sorry i said "NO" like 8504985 ways to that but seriously, thinking about working out everyday makes me want to sleep more :] im in weight room, thats more than enough for me Hamsters love to run, so it was just a thought. are you calling me a hampster? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted March 19, 2006 Report Share Posted March 19, 2006 sorry i said "NO" like 8504985 ways to that but seriously, thinking about working out everyday makes me want to sleep more :] im in weight room, thats more than enough for me Hamsters love to run, so it was just a thought. are you calling me a hampster? Not at all. I am a hamster and I love to run, so I was thinking you might like this as well. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted March 19, 2006 Author Report Share Posted March 19, 2006 sorry i said "NO" like 8504985 ways to that but seriously, thinking about working out everyday makes me want to sleep more :] im in weight room, thats more than enough for me Hamsters love to run, so it was just a thought. are you calling me a hampster? Not at all. I am a hamster and I love to run, so I was thinking you might like this as well. ick. no way. i hate running. i only run on running days in gym. (we have to do a mile and a 1/2... were timed but ive never made time) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted March 20, 2006 Report Share Posted March 20, 2006 sorry i said "NO" like 8504985 ways to that but seriously, thinking about working out everyday makes me want to sleep more :] im in weight room, thats more than enough for me Hamsters love to run, so it was just a thought. are you calling me a hampster? Not at all. I am a hamster and I love to run, so I was thinking you might like this as well. ick. no way. i hate running. i only run on running days in gym. (we have to do a mile and a 1/2... were timed but ive never made time) You could start running slowly, not timed and plan on running with me in the Marine Corps Marathon. You can start now. The marathon is on my birthday in October. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
The Biggest Fan Of Fuzzy Posted March 20, 2006 Report Share Posted March 20, 2006 sorry i said "NO" like 8504985 ways to that but seriously, thinking about working out everyday makes me want to sleep more :] im in weight room, thats more than enough for me Hamsters love to run, so it was just a thought. are you calling me a hampster? Not at all. I am a hamster and I love to run, so I was thinking you might like this as well. ick. no way. i hate running. i only run on running days in gym. (we have to do a mile and a 1/2... were timed but ive never made time) ruhnng iz supa hawtnezz!^&^33242 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted March 20, 2006 Report Share Posted March 20, 2006 sorry i said "NO" like 8504985 ways to that but seriously, thinking about working out everyday makes me want to sleep more :] im in weight room, thats more than enough for me Hamsters love to run, so it was just a thought. are you calling me a hampster? Not at all. I am a hamster and I love to run, so I was thinking you might like this as well. ick. no way. i hate running. i only run on running days in gym. (we have to do a mile and a 1/2... were timed but ive never made time) ruhnng iz supa hawtnezz!^&^33242 And you are our superstar runner!!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted March 21, 2006 Author Report Share Posted March 21, 2006 sorry i said "NO" like 8504985 ways to that but seriously, thinking about working out everyday makes me want to sleep more :] im in weight room, thats more than enough for me Hamsters love to run, so it was just a thought. are you calling me a hampster? Not at all. I am a hamster and I love to run, so I was thinking you might like this as well. ick. no way. i hate running. i only run on running days in gym. (we have to do a mile and a 1/2... were timed but ive never made time) You could start running slowly, not timed and plan on running with me in the Marine Corps Marathon. You can start now. The marathon is on my birthday in October. ew. marines. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted March 21, 2006 Report Share Posted March 21, 2006 sorry i said "NO" like 8504985 ways to that but seriously, thinking about working out everyday makes me want to sleep more :] im in weight room, thats more than enough for me Hamsters love to run, so it was just a thought. are you calling me a hampster? Not at all. I am a hamster and I love to run, so I was thinking you might like this as well. ick. no way. i hate running. i only run on running days in gym. (we have to do a mile and a 1/2... were timed but ive never made time) You could start running slowly, not timed and plan on running with me in the Marine Corps Marathon. You can start now. The marathon is on my birthday in October. ew. marines. <_> The Marine Corps Marathon is known as the most fun, most enthusiastic, greatest marathon where you will have the best time and most support. My only worry is that they will not see a little hamster running. I have decided to start at the very back of the pack... last. At least this way, I will not get run over! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted March 22, 2006 Author Report Share Posted March 22, 2006 sorry i said "NO" like 8504985 ways to that but seriously, thinking about working out everyday makes me want to sleep more :] im in weight room, thats more than enough for me Hamsters love to run, so it was just a thought. are you calling me a hampster? Not at all. I am a hamster and I love to run, so I was thinking you might like this as well. ick. no way. i hate running. i only run on running days in gym. (we have to do a mile and a 1/2... were timed but ive never made time) You could start running slowly, not timed and plan on running with me in the Marine Corps Marathon. You can start now. The marathon is on my birthday in October. ew. marines. The Marine Corps Marathon is known as the most fun, most enthusiastic, greatest marathon where you will have the best time and most support. My only worry is that they will not see a little hamster running. I have decided to start at the very back of the pack... last. At least this way, I will not get run over! yea, theyd squash you and then be like WHAT?!?!?! and keep running. that smiley kinda bugs me... hha. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted April 6, 2006 Author Report Share Posted April 6, 2006 so wen does my snazzy home-made av. get to be put up? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted April 6, 2006 Report Share Posted April 6, 2006 so wen does my snazzy home-made av. get to be put up? HampsterKing is an old guy, things take time. He is finishing a few things and then will get to the avatars. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted April 7, 2006 Author Report Share Posted April 7, 2006 wanna hear a poem in the mean time? course u do! written: april 6th 2006 inspiration: an ex-friend and a walk thru the school may be: a little evil named: self-enslavement a thousand tears have vanished and the smiles are directed at your frowns your sad, sorrow, wanna-be-me frowns the ones that follow behind my friends and carry into your dreams as you live a happy lie our worlds are in two now and im perfectly secure this isnt anger this isnt pity anymore this is me being happy and away from you haunting face. this is wut lies on lies to do you sadden you destroy you set me free open me. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted April 18, 2006 Author Report Share Posted April 18, 2006 too evil? nah this girl put me thru ####. and her dad was... lets say "inappropriate" i spelled that wrong. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mega Wolf Posted April 23, 2006 Report Share Posted April 23, 2006 too evil?nah this girl put me thru ####. and her dad was... lets say "inappropriate" i spelled that wrong. You spelled everything right. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted April 26, 2006 Author Report Share Posted April 26, 2006 too evil? nah this girl put me thru ####. and her dad was... lets say "inappropriate" i spelled that wrong. You spelled everything right. thats how u spell that? lol awesome. :] i love how i spelled "####" rite too! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted April 26, 2006 Report Share Posted April 26, 2006 too evil? nah this girl put me thru ####. and her dad was... lets say "inappropriate" i spelled that wrong. You spelled everything right. thats how u spell that? lol awesome. :] i love how i spelled "####" rite too! LOL You don't miss a thing! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted May 6, 2006 Author Report Share Posted May 6, 2006 too evil? nah this girl put me thru ####. and her dad was... lets say "inappropriate" i spelled that wrong. You spelled everything right. thats how u spell that? lol awesome. :] i love how i spelled "####" rite too! LOL You don't miss a thing! well when i tpyed it was a word when i read it was was a bunch of number signs... how do you miss that?! haha anyway, no one told me how much they hated the poemmm... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted May 6, 2006 Author Report Share Posted May 6, 2006 Its me. and hmm always changing, always changing... i was reading my old posts. wow. i dont feel older or smarter but obviously i am. haha so um. im not doing too good in school. ive stopped doing my homework ive stopped eating as much too. ive been hurting myself more and my depression has gotten worse its not all that bad tho. it just kinda sounds that way. haha ive only got a few hours of comunity service left :] i got a digital camera. ive got the best friends i could ever ask for. i cant decide if im happy or not. most times not but when i am im completly am. hi to everyone that missed me. Horatio, im sorry i dont email u anymore. i think i lost ur email adress.. -Lauren (PuppyDog) Here is my email address: pmajr@earthlink.net Now you do not have any excuse... write! haha k. i check my email like... once a decade but i guess ill start using it more now You could always stop in here more often. How's Cow? thats tru. ive been so depressed lately that i forgot about HD. Katie(cow) is good. we(me & my parents) went to her house somtime in mid-january. we havnt been to a show together in months. it kinda stinks. Sorry to hear that you have not seen many shows lately. Perhaps in the summer. I was wondering... are you more depressed in the fall and winter? Does your depression sort of go away in the spring and summer? Think about this before you answer. I am asking this question very seriously. mmm i mostly only go to warped tour in the summer. i think im more depressed in the fall and winter, not because i have s.a.d., but because i cant get out as easily. mostly last year is when i got used to find my own way for things. i started walking everywhere. even if it took me hours. and i would just leave the house for hours and be outside and do stuff. alone or with other people it dosnt matter. but in the winter u have to be inside. less freedom. and i cant walk anywhere. it stinks. its restricting and i hate that. alot. those are the only reasons why i would be more depressed in the winter. that and the fact that summer i have no school. i hate school more than anything. its dreadful. but besides for that im depressed mostly all the time. i overthink. i hate equal hate for myself. dont care about stuff just the same and hurt myself just the same. my friend megan gets really depressed in the winter time. i dont understand her. but theres alot i dont get about her... it was the way shes raised. ANYWAY, my mom is trying to invent new ways of "curing" my depression since ive been showing it more lastley since i dont really care. i was upset today and talking about my ipod and she was like "if i replaced yours would that get you out of this?" shes so stupid. but i guess shes only trying to help, although ill never tell her that. The seasonal depression has quite a bit to do with light. Would you consider working out every day? See if there is a YMCA nearby, you could go there everyday and get in the pool or something like that. i workout everyday now. in deperate efforts to lose weight im trying to eat the rite things but i either done eat eat wrong things or binge and purge... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted May 6, 2006 Report Share Posted May 6, 2006 too evil? nah this girl put me thru ####. and her dad was... lets say "inappropriate" i spelled that wrong. You spelled everything right. thats how u spell that? lol awesome. :] i love how i spelled "####" rite too! LOL You don't miss a thing! well when i tpyed it was a word when i read it was was a bunch of number signs... how do you miss that?! haha anyway, no one told me how much they hated the poemmm... That is because no one hates it. There is not much traffic in Fuzzy. I love all your written works!!!!!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted May 6, 2006 Report Share Posted May 6, 2006 i workout everyday now.in deperate efforts to lose weight im trying to eat the rite things but i either done eat eat wrong things or binge and purge... Yeah! I am thrilled to hear you are working out everyday! Fantastic!!! Remember this... if it is white, you do not want to eat it. So NO sugar, white bread, white pasta, etc. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted May 8, 2006 Author Report Share Posted May 8, 2006 i workout everyday now. in deperate efforts to lose weight im trying to eat the rite things but i either done eat eat wrong things or binge and purge... Yeah! I am thrilled to hear you are working out everyday! Fantastic!!! Remember this... if it is white, you do not want to eat it. So NO sugar, white bread, white pasta, etc. make that everyday cept for the days where i physically CANT. and friday. (i could physically... but mentally i couldnt) white bread is gross. sugar free? thats hard, i get sugar-free engery drinks... ive completely failed myself on so many levels in the past 3 days. tomorrow im gonan try to get back on track if i dont go INSANE before that. im so stressed i could die. :closedeyes: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted May 8, 2006 Report Share Posted May 8, 2006 i workout everyday now. in deperate efforts to lose weight im trying to eat the rite things but i either done eat eat wrong things or binge and purge... Yeah! I am thrilled to hear you are working out everyday! Fantastic!!! Remember this... if it is white, you do not want to eat it. So NO sugar, white bread, white pasta, etc. make that everyday cept for the days where i physically CANT. and friday. (i could physically... but mentally i couldnt) white bread is gross. sugar free? thats hard, i get sugar-free engery drinks... ive completely failed myself on so many levels in the past 3 days. tomorrow im gonan try to get back on track if i dont go INSANE before that. im so stressed i could die. :closedeyes: I fail quite often. But the next day, the sun rises and I try to start all over again. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted May 8, 2006 Author Report Share Posted May 8, 2006 i workout everyday now. in deperate efforts to lose weight im trying to eat the rite things but i either done eat eat wrong things or binge and purge... Yeah! I am thrilled to hear you are working out everyday! Fantastic!!! Remember this... if it is white, you do not want to eat it. So NO sugar, white bread, white pasta, etc. make that everyday cept for the days where i physically CANT. and friday. (i could physically... but mentally i couldnt) white bread is gross. sugar free? thats hard, i get sugar-free engery drinks... ive completely failed myself on so many levels in the past 3 days. tomorrow im gonan try to get back on track if i dont go INSANE before that. im so stressed i could die. :closedeyes: I fail quite often. But the next day, the sun rises and I try to start all over again. your too possitive. :[ i feel like dying... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted May 8, 2006 Report Share Posted May 8, 2006 i workout everyday now. in deperate efforts to lose weight im trying to eat the rite things but i either done eat eat wrong things or binge and purge... Yeah! I am thrilled to hear you are working out everyday! Fantastic!!! Remember this... if it is white, you do not want to eat it. So NO sugar, white bread, white pasta, etc. make that everyday cept for the days where i physically CANT. and friday. (i could physically... but mentally i couldnt) white bread is gross. sugar free? thats hard, i get sugar-free engery drinks... ive completely failed myself on so many levels in the past 3 days. tomorrow im gonan try to get back on track if i dont go INSANE before that. im so stressed i could die. :closedeyes: I fail quite often. But the next day, the sun rises and I try to start all over again. your too possitive. :[ i feel like dying... You are having a bad day today... force yourself to get out. Force yourself to do some kind of work out. Life will get better. I promise you this. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted May 8, 2006 Author Report Share Posted May 8, 2006 i workout everyday now. in deperate efforts to lose weight im trying to eat the rite things but i either done eat eat wrong things or binge and purge... Yeah! I am thrilled to hear you are working out everyday! Fantastic!!! Remember this... if it is white, you do not want to eat it. So NO sugar, white bread, white pasta, etc. make that everyday cept for the days where i physically CANT. and friday. (i could physically... but mentally i couldnt) white bread is gross. sugar free? thats hard, i get sugar-free engery drinks... ive completely failed myself on so many levels in the past 3 days. tomorrow im gonan try to get back on track if i dont go INSANE before that. im so stressed i could die. :closedeyes: I fail quite often. But the next day, the sun rises and I try to start all over again. your too possitive. :[ i feel like dying... You are having a bad day today... force yourself to get out. Force yourself to do some kind of work out. Life will get better. I promise you this. i cant force me to do anything. today was pretty good tho. my mom signed me out early and i got my braces off(FINALLY!) and then later i got tips. i gave me allowence to pay for 1/3 of it tho.. :[ tonite i dont plan on sleeping... i need to clean.. but im SO tired cuz ive bearly slept in 2 days. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted May 8, 2006 Report Share Posted May 8, 2006 i workout everyday now. in deperate efforts to lose weight im trying to eat the rite things but i either done eat eat wrong things or binge and purge... Yeah! I am thrilled to hear you are working out everyday! Fantastic!!! Remember this... if it is white, you do not want to eat it. So NO sugar, white bread, white pasta, etc. make that everyday cept for the days where i physically CANT. and friday. (i could physically... but mentally i couldnt) white bread is gross. sugar free? thats hard, i get sugar-free engery drinks... ive completely failed myself on so many levels in the past 3 days. tomorrow im gonan try to get back on track if i dont go INSANE before that. im so stressed i could die. :closedeyes: I fail quite often. But the next day, the sun rises and I try to start all over again. your too possitive. :[ i feel like dying... You are having a bad day today... force yourself to get out. Force yourself to do some kind of work out. Life will get better. I promise you this. i cant force me to do anything. today was pretty good tho. my mom signed me out early and i got my braces off(FINALLY!) and then later i got tips. i gave me allowence to pay for 1/3 of it tho.. :[ tonite i dont plan on sleeping... i need to clean.. but im SO tired cuz ive bearly slept in 2 days. Did your dentist give you a retainer? You really need to wear this for as long as your dentist tells you or else your teeth will shift and the braces were a waste of money!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No sleep? Hamsters need to sleep or else we cannot function. How do the tips look? Great I imagine. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted May 9, 2006 Author Report Share Posted May 9, 2006 i workout everyday now. in deperate efforts to lose weight im trying to eat the rite things but i either done eat eat wrong things or binge and purge... Yeah! I am thrilled to hear you are working out everyday! Fantastic!!! Remember this... if it is white, you do not want to eat it. So NO sugar, white bread, white pasta, etc. make that everyday cept for the days where i physically CANT. and friday. (i could physically... but mentally i couldnt) white bread is gross. sugar free? thats hard, i get sugar-free engery drinks... ive completely failed myself on so many levels in the past 3 days. tomorrow im gonan try to get back on track if i dont go INSANE before that. im so stressed i could die. :closedeyes: I fail quite often. But the next day, the sun rises and I try to start all over again. your too possitive. :[ i feel like dying... You are having a bad day today... force yourself to get out. Force yourself to do some kind of work out. Life will get better. I promise you this. i cant force me to do anything. today was pretty good tho. my mom signed me out early and i got my braces off(FINALLY!) and then later i got tips. i gave me allowence to pay for 1/3 of it tho.. :[ tonite i dont plan on sleeping... i need to clean.. but im SO tired cuz ive bearly slept in 2 days. Did your dentist give you a retainer? You really need to wear this for as long as your dentist tells you or else your teeth will shift and the braces were a waste of money!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No sleep? Hamsters need to sleep or else we cannot function. How do the tips look? Great I imagine. yea, its the clear kind. they make me gums bleed and feel like im wearing detures i have to wear them 24/7 for a month. :[ hopefully i can get to sleep before 12 tonite. theyre dark purple and they have a cute design on the ring fingers' nails. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted May 9, 2006 Report Share Posted May 9, 2006 i workout everyday now. in deperate efforts to lose weight im trying to eat the rite things but i either done eat eat wrong things or binge and purge... Yeah! I am thrilled to hear you are working out everyday! Fantastic!!! Remember this... if it is white, you do not want to eat it. So NO sugar, white bread, white pasta, etc. make that everyday cept for the days where i physically CANT. and friday. (i could physically... but mentally i couldnt) white bread is gross. sugar free? thats hard, i get sugar-free engery drinks... ive completely failed myself on so many levels in the past 3 days. tomorrow im gonan try to get back on track if i dont go INSANE before that. im so stressed i could die. :closedeyes: I fail quite often. But the next day, the sun rises and I try to start all over again. your too possitive. :[ i feel like dying... You are having a bad day today... force yourself to get out. Force yourself to do some kind of work out. Life will get better. I promise you this. i cant force me to do anything. today was pretty good tho. my mom signed me out early and i got my braces off(FINALLY!) and then later i got tips. i gave me allowence to pay for 1/3 of it tho.. :[ tonite i dont plan on sleeping... i need to clean.. but im SO tired cuz ive bearly slept in 2 days. Did your dentist give you a retainer? You really need to wear this for as long as your dentist tells you or else your teeth will shift and the braces were a waste of money!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No sleep? Hamsters need to sleep or else we cannot function. How do the tips look? Great I imagine. yea, its the clear kind. they make me gums bleed and feel like im wearing detures i have to wear them 24/7 for a month. :[ hopefully i can get to sleep before 12 tonite. theyre dark purple and they have a cute design on the ring fingers' nails. Good luck with sleep... hope it comes fast! If I had any kind of nails, they would be gone once I started digging in the garden or playing with my chain saw. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted May 11, 2006 Author Report Share Posted May 11, 2006 i workout everyday now. in deperate efforts to lose weight im trying to eat the rite things but i either done eat eat wrong things or binge and purge... Yeah! I am thrilled to hear you are working out everyday! Fantastic!!! Remember this... if it is white, you do not want to eat it. So NO sugar, white bread, white pasta, etc. make that everyday cept for the days where i physically CANT. and friday. (i could physically... but mentally i couldnt) white bread is gross. sugar free? thats hard, i get sugar-free engery drinks... ive completely failed myself on so many levels in the past 3 days. tomorrow im gonan try to get back on track if i dont go INSANE before that. im so stressed i could die. :closedeyes: I fail quite often. But the next day, the sun rises and I try to start all over again. your too possitive. :[ i feel like dying... You are having a bad day today... force yourself to get out. Force yourself to do some kind of work out. Life will get better. I promise you this. i cant force me to do anything. today was pretty good tho. my mom signed me out early and i got my braces off(FINALLY!) and then later i got tips. i gave me allowence to pay for 1/3 of it tho.. :[ tonite i dont plan on sleeping... i need to clean.. but im SO tired cuz ive bearly slept in 2 days. Did your dentist give you a retainer? You really need to wear this for as long as your dentist tells you or else your teeth will shift and the braces were a waste of money!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No sleep? Hamsters need to sleep or else we cannot function. How do the tips look? Great I imagine. yea, its the clear kind. they make me gums bleed and feel like im wearing detures i have to wear them 24/7 for a month. :[ hopefully i can get to sleep before 12 tonite. theyre dark purple and they have a cute design on the ring fingers' nails. Good luck with sleep... hope it comes fast! If I had any kind of nails, they would be gone once I started digging in the garden or playing with my chain saw. i doubt im getting any sleep tonite. im waiting till everyones asleep so i can do my thing then tomorrow i running to guidence first thing so i can confess my scars before my parents can find them. i know its kind of a stupid plan... you wouldnt understand. today was absolutely horrible... and i cant stop crying. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted May 12, 2006 Report Share Posted May 12, 2006 i workout everyday now. in deperate efforts to lose weight im trying to eat the rite things but i either done eat eat wrong things or binge and purge... Yeah! I am thrilled to hear you are working out everyday! Fantastic!!! Remember this... if it is white, you do not want to eat it. So NO sugar, white bread, white pasta, etc. make that everyday cept for the days where i physically CANT. and friday. (i could physically... but mentally i couldnt) white bread is gross. sugar free? thats hard, i get sugar-free engery drinks... ive completely failed myself on so many levels in the past 3 days. tomorrow im gonan try to get back on track if i dont go INSANE before that. im so stressed i could die. :closedeyes: I fail quite often. But the next day, the sun rises and I try to start all over again. your too possitive. :[ i feel like dying... You are having a bad day today... force yourself to get out. Force yourself to do some kind of work out. Life will get better. I promise you this. i cant force me to do anything. today was pretty good tho. my mom signed me out early and i got my braces off(FINALLY!) and then later i got tips. i gave me allowence to pay for 1/3 of it tho.. :[ tonite i dont plan on sleeping... i need to clean.. but im SO tired cuz ive bearly slept in 2 days. Did your dentist give you a retainer? You really need to wear this for as long as your dentist tells you or else your teeth will shift and the braces were a waste of money!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No sleep? Hamsters need to sleep or else we cannot function. How do the tips look? Great I imagine. yea, its the clear kind. they make me gums bleed and feel like im wearing detures i have to wear them 24/7 for a month. :[ hopefully i can get to sleep before 12 tonite. theyre dark purple and they have a cute design on the ring fingers' nails. Good luck with sleep... hope it comes fast! If I had any kind of nails, they would be gone once I started digging in the garden or playing with my chain saw. i doubt im getting any sleep tonite. im waiting till everyones asleep so i can do my thing then tomorrow i running to guidence first thing so i can confess my scars before my parents can find them. i know its kind of a stupid plan... you wouldnt understand. today was absolutely horrible... and i cant stop crying. This will help in many ways. When you are able to talk to someone else, they are now in a position to assist you out of depression and aid you in stopping behavior that hurts. You will have to be honest with this person. Their ultimate goal is to help you. And I do understand. You would be surprised just how much I am aware of and do understand. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted May 13, 2006 Author Report Share Posted May 13, 2006 i workout everyday now. in deperate efforts to lose weight im trying to eat the rite things but i either done eat eat wrong things or binge and purge... Yeah! I am thrilled to hear you are working out everyday! Fantastic!!! Remember this... if it is white, you do not want to eat it. So NO sugar, white bread, white pasta, etc. make that everyday cept for the days where i physically CANT. and friday. (i could physically... but mentally i couldnt) white bread is gross. sugar free? thats hard, i get sugar-free engery drinks... ive completely failed myself on so many levels in the past 3 days. tomorrow im gonan try to get back on track if i dont go INSANE before that. im so stressed i could die. :closedeyes: I fail quite often. But the next day, the sun rises and I try to start all over again. your too possitive. :[ i feel like dying... You are having a bad day today... force yourself to get out. Force yourself to do some kind of work out. Life will get better. I promise you this. i cant force me to do anything. today was pretty good tho. my mom signed me out early and i got my braces off(FINALLY!) and then later i got tips. i gave me allowence to pay for 1/3 of it tho.. :[ tonite i dont plan on sleeping... i need to clean.. but im SO tired cuz ive bearly slept in 2 days. Did your dentist give you a retainer? You really need to wear this for as long as your dentist tells you or else your teeth will shift and the braces were a waste of money!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No sleep? Hamsters need to sleep or else we cannot function. How do the tips look? Great I imagine. yea, its the clear kind. they make me gums bleed and feel like im wearing detures i have to wear them 24/7 for a month. :[ hopefully i can get to sleep before 12 tonite. theyre dark purple and they have a cute design on the ring fingers' nails. Good luck with sleep... hope it comes fast! If I had any kind of nails, they would be gone once I started digging in the garden or playing with my chain saw. i doubt im getting any sleep tonite. im waiting till everyones asleep so i can do my thing then tomorrow i running to guidence first thing so i can confess my scars before my parents can find them. i know its kind of a stupid plan... you wouldnt understand. today was absolutely horrible... and i cant stop crying. This will help in many ways. When you are able to talk to someone else, they are now in a position to assist you out of depression and aid you in stopping behavior that hurts. You will have to be honest with this person. Their ultimate goal is to help you. And I do understand. You would be surprised just how much I am aware of and do understand. well together was better. but, like everything, its fake and temperary. i still feel much better. im glad i lost my "box" god knows wheretf i'd be rite now... therpy is dumb. expensive, stupid and annyoing. i could never be HONEST with a shrink! they legally would have to send me somewhere. that isnt my goal.. and least not todays. :] Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted May 13, 2006 Report Share Posted May 13, 2006 i workout everyday now. in deperate efforts to lose weight im trying to eat the rite things but i either done eat eat wrong things or binge and purge... Yeah! I am thrilled to hear you are working out everyday! Fantastic!!! Remember this... if it is white, you do not want to eat it. So NO sugar, white bread, white pasta, etc. make that everyday cept for the days where i physically CANT. and friday. (i could physically... but mentally i couldnt) white bread is gross. sugar free? thats hard, i get sugar-free engery drinks... ive completely failed myself on so many levels in the past 3 days. tomorrow im gonan try to get back on track if i dont go INSANE before that. im so stressed i could die. :closedeyes: I fail quite often. But the next day, the sun rises and I try to start all over again. your too possitive. :[ i feel like dying... You are having a bad day today... force yourself to get out. Force yourself to do some kind of work out. Life will get better. I promise you this. i cant force me to do anything. today was pretty good tho. my mom signed me out early and i got my braces off(FINALLY!) and then later i got tips. i gave me allowence to pay for 1/3 of it tho.. :[ tonite i dont plan on sleeping... i need to clean.. but im SO tired cuz ive bearly slept in 2 days. Did your dentist give you a retainer? You really need to wear this for as long as your dentist tells you or else your teeth will shift and the braces were a waste of money!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No sleep? Hamsters need to sleep or else we cannot function. How do the tips look? Great I imagine. yea, its the clear kind. they make me gums bleed and feel like im wearing detures i have to wear them 24/7 for a month. :[ hopefully i can get to sleep before 12 tonite. theyre dark purple and they have a cute design on the ring fingers' nails. Good luck with sleep... hope it comes fast! If I had any kind of nails, they would be gone once I started digging in the garden or playing with my chain saw. i doubt im getting any sleep tonite. im waiting till everyones asleep so i can do my thing then tomorrow i running to guidence first thing so i can confess my scars before my parents can find them. i know its kind of a stupid plan... you wouldnt understand. today was absolutely horrible... and i cant stop crying. This will help in many ways. When you are able to talk to someone else, they are now in a position to assist you out of depression and aid you in stopping behavior that hurts. You will have to be honest with this person. Their ultimate goal is to help you. And I do understand. You would be surprised just how much I am aware of and do understand. well together was better. but, like everything, its fake and temperary. i still feel much better. im glad i lost my "box" god knows wheretf i'd be rite now... therpy is dumb. expensive, stupid and annyoing. i could never be HONEST with a shrink! they legally would have to send me somewhere. that isnt my goal.. and least not todays. :] There are things you can tell this person that are confidential and you do not go anywhere. Ask them where the line is and then you can talk about everything up to the line. The goal is to understand and get rid of the causes for your depression. i workout everyday now. in deperate efforts to lose weight im trying to eat the rite things but i either done eat eat wrong things or binge and purge... Yeah! I am thrilled to hear you are working out everyday! Fantastic!!! Remember this... if it is white, you do not want to eat it. So NO sugar, white bread, white pasta, etc. make that everyday cept for the days where i physically CANT. and friday. (i could physically... but mentally i couldnt) white bread is gross. sugar free? thats hard, i get sugar-free engery drinks... ive completely failed myself on so many levels in the past 3 days. tomorrow im gonan try to get back on track if i dont go INSANE before that. im so stressed i could die. :closedeyes: I fail quite often. But the next day, the sun rises and I try to start all over again. your too possitive. :[ i feel like dying... You are having a bad day today... force yourself to get out. Force yourself to do some kind of work out. Life will get better. I promise you this. i cant force me to do anything. today was pretty good tho. my mom signed me out early and i got my braces off(FINALLY!) and then later i got tips. i gave me allowence to pay for 1/3 of it tho.. :[ tonite i dont plan on sleeping... i need to clean.. but im SO tired cuz ive bearly slept in 2 days. Did your dentist give you a retainer? You really need to wear this for as long as your dentist tells you or else your teeth will shift and the braces were a waste of money!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No sleep? Hamsters need to sleep or else we cannot function. How do the tips look? Great I imagine. yea, its the clear kind. they make me gums bleed and feel like im wearing detures i have to wear them 24/7 for a month. :[ hopefully i can get to sleep before 12 tonite. theyre dark purple and they have a cute design on the ring fingers' nails. Good luck with sleep... hope it comes fast! If I had any kind of nails, they would be gone once I started digging in the garden or playing with my chain saw. i doubt im getting any sleep tonite. im waiting till everyones asleep so i can do my thing then tomorrow i running to guidence first thing so i can confess my scars before my parents can find them. i know its kind of a stupid plan... you wouldnt understand. today was absolutely horrible... and i cant stop crying. This will help in many ways. When you are able to talk to someone else, they are now in a position to assist you out of depression and aid you in stopping behavior that hurts. You will have to be honest with this person. Their ultimate goal is to help you. And I do understand. You would be surprised just how much I am aware of and do understand. well together was better. but, like everything, its fake and temperary. i still feel much better. im glad i lost my "box" god knows wheretf i'd be rite now... therpy is dumb. expensive, stupid and annyoing. i could never be HONEST with a shrink! they legally would have to send me somewhere. that isnt my goal.. and least not todays. :] There are things you can tell this person that are confidential and you do not go anywhere. Ask them where the line is and then you can talk about everything up to the line. The goal is to understand and get rid of the causes for your depression. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted May 15, 2006 Author Report Share Posted May 15, 2006 i workout everyday now. in deperate efforts to lose weight im trying to eat the rite things but i either done eat eat wrong things or binge and purge... Yeah! I am thrilled to hear you are working out everyday! Fantastic!!! Remember this... if it is white, you do not want to eat it. So NO sugar, white bread, white pasta, etc. make that everyday cept for the days where i physically CANT. and friday. (i could physically... but mentally i couldnt) white bread is gross. sugar free? thats hard, i get sugar-free engery drinks... ive completely failed myself on so many levels in the past 3 days. tomorrow im gonan try to get back on track if i dont go INSANE before that. im so stressed i could die. :closedeyes: I fail quite often. But the next day, the sun rises and I try to start all over again. your too possitive. :[ i feel like dying... You are having a bad day today... force yourself to get out. Force yourself to do some kind of work out. Life will get better. I promise you this. i cant force me to do anything. today was pretty good tho. my mom signed me out early and i got my braces off(FINALLY!) and then later i got tips. i gave me allowence to pay for 1/3 of it tho.. :[ tonite i dont plan on sleeping... i need to clean.. but im SO tired cuz ive bearly slept in 2 days. Did your dentist give you a retainer? You really need to wear this for as long as your dentist tells you or else your teeth will shift and the braces were a waste of money!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No sleep? Hamsters need to sleep or else we cannot function. How do the tips look? Great I imagine. yea, its the clear kind. they make me gums bleed and feel like im wearing detures i have to wear them 24/7 for a month. :[ hopefully i can get to sleep before 12 tonite. theyre dark purple and they have a cute design on the ring fingers' nails. Good luck with sleep... hope it comes fast! If I had any kind of nails, they would be gone once I started digging in the garden or playing with my chain saw. i doubt im getting any sleep tonite. im waiting till everyones asleep so i can do my thing then tomorrow i running to guidence first thing so i can confess my scars before my parents can find them. i know its kind of a stupid plan... you wouldnt understand. today was absolutely horrible... and i cant stop crying. This will help in many ways. When you are able to talk to someone else, they are now in a position to assist you out of depression and aid you in stopping behavior that hurts. You will have to be honest with this person. Their ultimate goal is to help you. And I do understand. You would be surprised just how much I am aware of and do understand. well together was better. but, like everything, its fake and temperary. i still feel much better. im glad i lost my "box" god knows wheretf i'd be rite now... therpy is dumb. expensive, stupid and annyoing. i could never be HONEST with a shrink! they legally would have to send me somewhere. that isnt my goal.. and least not todays. :] There are things you can tell this person that are confidential and you do not go anywhere. Ask them where the line is and then you can talk about everything up to the line. The goal is to understand and get rid of the causes for your depression. i workout everyday now. in deperate efforts to lose weight im trying to eat the rite things but i either done eat eat wrong things or binge and purge... Yeah! I am thrilled to hear you are working out everyday! Fantastic!!! Remember this... if it is white, you do not want to eat it. So NO sugar, white bread, white pasta, etc. make that everyday cept for the days where i physically CANT. and friday. (i could physically... but mentally i couldnt) white bread is gross. sugar free? thats hard, i get sugar-free engery drinks... ive completely failed myself on so many levels in the past 3 days. tomorrow im gonan try to get back on track if i dont go INSANE before that. im so stressed i could die. :closedeyes: I fail quite often. But the next day, the sun rises and I try to start all over again. your too possitive. :[ i feel like dying... You are having a bad day today... force yourself to get out. Force yourself to do some kind of work out. Life will get better. I promise you this. i cant force me to do anything. today was pretty good tho. my mom signed me out early and i got my braces off(FINALLY!) and then later i got tips. i gave me allowence to pay for 1/3 of it tho.. :[ tonite i dont plan on sleeping... i need to clean.. but im SO tired cuz ive bearly slept in 2 days. Did your dentist give you a retainer? You really need to wear this for as long as your dentist tells you or else your teeth will shift and the braces were a waste of money!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No sleep? Hamsters need to sleep or else we cannot function. How do the tips look? Great I imagine. yea, its the clear kind. they make me gums bleed and feel like im wearing detures i have to wear them 24/7 for a month. :[ hopefully i can get to sleep before 12 tonite. theyre dark purple and they have a cute design on the ring fingers' nails. Good luck with sleep... hope it comes fast! If I had any kind of nails, they would be gone once I started digging in the garden or playing with my chain saw. i doubt im getting any sleep tonite. im waiting till everyones asleep so i can do my thing then tomorrow i running to guidence first thing so i can confess my scars before my parents can find them. i know its kind of a stupid plan... you wouldnt understand. today was absolutely horrible... and i cant stop crying. This will help in many ways. When you are able to talk to someone else, they are now in a position to assist you out of depression and aid you in stopping behavior that hurts. You will have to be honest with this person. Their ultimate goal is to help you. And I do understand. You would be surprised just how much I am aware of and do understand. well together was better. but, like everything, its fake and temperary. i still feel much better. im glad i lost my "box" god knows wheretf i'd be rite now... therpy is dumb. expensive, stupid and annyoing. i could never be HONEST with a shrink! they legally would have to send me somewhere. that isnt my goal.. and least not todays. :] There are things you can tell this person that are confidential and you do not go anywhere. Ask them where the line is and then you can talk about everything up to the line. The goal is to understand and get rid of the causes for your depression. legally, i know where the "line" is. and passing the line w/o asking for any of that stuff has made me stressed beyond belief. im not sure i want to be not depressed.. call me stupid but it truely is enlightedment. plus id hate to be as happy as some of the people around me they living in a bubble and they make me sick.... 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xMyOwnMindx Posted May 17, 2006 Author Report Share Posted May 17, 2006 i know how messed up that sounds. im not a screw up! im not... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted May 22, 2006 Author Report Share Posted May 22, 2006 i know how messed up that sounds. im not a screw up! im not... i'm not.i know a hundred kids who feel like i do. and i beg to think im not the worst. oh, why me again? this topic is bruied. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted May 22, 2006 Report Share Posted May 22, 2006 i know how messed up that sounds. im not a screw up! im not... i'm not.i know a hundred kids who feel like i do. and i beg to think im not the worst. oh, why me again? this topic is bruied. You are not a screw-up. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted May 23, 2006 Author Report Share Posted May 23, 2006 i know how messed up that sounds. im not a screw up! im not... i'm not.i know a hundred kids who feel like i do. and i beg to think im not the worst. oh, why me again? this topic is bruied. You are not a screw-up. gracias. anyway i'm in school. i hate school. and i hate big projects ew. haha its like 60% of our grade. XXXXXXXXXXXX Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted May 24, 2006 Report Share Posted May 24, 2006 screw up? I'm the screwed up chica, my friend. If I weren't against it, I'd bet money that you haven't gone through the stuff I have. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jesusfreak Posted May 24, 2006 Report Share Posted May 24, 2006 i know how messed up that sounds. im not a screw up! im not... i'm not.i know a hundred kids who feel like i do. and i beg to think im not the worst. oh, why me again? this topic is bruied. You are not a screw-up. gracias. anyway i'm in school. i hate school. and i hate big projects ew. haha its like 60% of our grade. XXXXXXXXXXXX Ugh join the club. Just wait till you're a senior. The work isn't that much different, but the motivation level drops. (better known as senioritis) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted May 24, 2006 Author Report Share Posted May 24, 2006 screw up? I'm the screwed up chica, my friend. If I weren't against it, I'd bet money that you haven't gone through the stuff I have. wut you've been through dosnt make you a screw up or not. it makes your (parents,friends, teachers, etc(who ever made you go thru it)) its how you deal with it. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted May 27, 2006 Author Report Share Posted May 27, 2006 screw up? I'm the screwed up chica, my friend. If I weren't against it, I'd bet money that you haven't gone through the stuff I have. wut you've been through dosnt make you a screw up or not. it makes your (parents,friends, teachers, etc(who ever made you go thru it)) its how you deal with it. unless of course it was your FAULT you went thru it. example: child abuse.. doesnt make the child a screw up... trying heroin willingly, becoming an addict makes you a screw up. (even though i heard heroin isnt as bad as everyone says.) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted May 27, 2006 Report Share Posted May 27, 2006 (even though i heard heroin isnt as bad as everyone says.) I know a man who was in the Vietnam War. He got hooked on heroin. It is MUCH, MUCH worse than everyone says. I am able to see what the long term effects of heroin are. What you need to consider are the ramifications of doing the drug. Consider what happens when you need to buy your drugs, have no money, decide to steal, get caught and are now sitting in jail for theft? If you think when you get out of jail, you can return to your old life, this is not going to happen. Trust me on this one... heroin is much worse than you hear. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted May 27, 2006 Author Report Share Posted May 27, 2006 (even though i heard heroin isnt as bad as everyone says.) I know a man who was in the Vietnam War. He got hooked on heroin. It is MUCH, MUCH worse than everyone says. I am able to see what the long term effects of heroin are. What you need to consider are the ramifications of doing the drug. Consider what happens when you need to buy your drugs, have no money, decide to steal, get caught and are now sitting in jail for theft? If you think when you get out of jail, you can return to your old life, this is not going to happen. Trust me on this one... heroin is much worse than you hear. no like, ive heard heroin is WORSE than that. but the girl i know that tried it did it once, plans on never doing it again, doesnt even think much of it. i guess she just doesnt have an addictice personality or wutever. idk. anyway, dont worry heroin is WAYYYYY too hxc for me. so dont even go there. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted May 27, 2006 Report Share Posted May 27, 2006 (even though i heard heroin isnt as bad as everyone says.) I know a man who was in the Vietnam War. He got hooked on heroin. It is MUCH, MUCH worse than everyone says. I am able to see what the long term effects of heroin are. What you need to consider are the ramifications of doing the drug. Consider what happens when you need to buy your drugs, have no money, decide to steal, get caught and are now sitting in jail for theft? If you think when you get out of jail, you can return to your old life, this is not going to happen. Trust me on this one... heroin is much worse than you hear. no like, ive heard heroin is WORSE than that. but the girl i know that tried it did it once, plans on never doing it again, doesnt even think much of it. i guess she just doesnt have an addictice personality or wutever. idk. anyway, dont worry heroin is WAYYYYY too hxc for me. so dont even go there. I just wish you wouldn't do any stuff. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted May 27, 2006 Author Report Share Posted May 27, 2006 (even though i heard heroin isnt as bad as everyone says.) I know a man who was in the Vietnam War. He got hooked on heroin. It is MUCH, MUCH worse than everyone says. I am able to see what the long term effects of heroin are. What you need to consider are the ramifications of doing the drug. Consider what happens when you need to buy your drugs, have no money, decide to steal, get caught and are now sitting in jail for theft? If you think when you get out of jail, you can return to your old life, this is not going to happen. Trust me on this one... heroin is much worse than you hear. no like, ive heard heroin is WORSE than that. but the girl i know that tried it did it once, plans on never doing it again, doesnt even think much of it. i guess she just doesnt have an addictice personality or wutever. idk. anyway, dont worry heroin is WAYYYYY too hxc for me. so dont even go there. I just wish you wouldn't do any stuff. oh relax. i dont do anything. i do wut "god" gave us. even the bible supports it. alot. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted May 27, 2006 Report Share Posted May 27, 2006 (even though i heard heroin isnt as bad as everyone says.) I know a man who was in the Vietnam War. He got hooked on heroin. It is MUCH, MUCH worse than everyone says. I am able to see what the long term effects of heroin are. What you need to consider are the ramifications of doing the drug. Consider what happens when you need to buy your drugs, have no money, decide to steal, get caught and are now sitting in jail for theft? If you think when you get out of jail, you can return to your old life, this is not going to happen. Trust me on this one... heroin is much worse than you hear. no like, ive heard heroin is WORSE than that. but the girl i know that tried it did it once, plans on never doing it again, doesnt even think much of it. i guess she just doesnt have an addictice personality or wutever. idk. anyway, dont worry heroin is WAYYYYY too hxc for me. so dont even go there. I just wish you wouldn't do any stuff. oh relax. i dont do anything. i do wut "god" gave us. even the bible supports it. alot. Actually I am quite relaxed. The bottom line is... it is still illegal. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted May 28, 2006 Author Report Share Posted May 28, 2006 (even though i heard heroin isnt as bad as everyone says.) I know a man who was in the Vietnam War. He got hooked on heroin. It is MUCH, MUCH worse than everyone says. I am able to see what the long term effects of heroin are. What you need to consider are the ramifications of doing the drug. Consider what happens when you need to buy your drugs, have no money, decide to steal, get caught and are now sitting in jail for theft? If you think when you get out of jail, you can return to your old life, this is not going to happen. Trust me on this one... heroin is much worse than you hear. no like, ive heard heroin is WORSE than that. but the girl i know that tried it did it once, plans on never doing it again, doesnt even think much of it. i guess she just doesnt have an addictice personality or wutever. idk. anyway, dont worry heroin is WAYYYYY too hxc for me. so dont even go there. I just wish you wouldn't do any stuff. oh relax. i dont do anything. i do wut "god" gave us. even the bible supports it. alot. Actually I am quite relaxed. The bottom line is... it is still illegal. hah i almost forgot about that. even before i did it i forgot. haha Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted May 28, 2006 Report Share Posted May 28, 2006 screw up? I'm the screwed up chica, my friend. If I weren't against it, I'd bet money that you haven't gone through the stuff I have. wut you've been through dosnt make you a screw up or not. it makes your (parents,friends, teachers, etc(who ever made you go thru it)) its how you deal with it.child abuse-->emotional problems later.[/i] unless of course it was your FAULT you went thru it. example: child abuse.. doesnt make the child a screw up... trying heroin willingly, becoming an addict makes you a screw up. (even though i heard heroin isnt as bad as everyone says.) child abuse most certainly does! Maybe not always, but let me tell you something, Lauren. I was hurt deep. I can barely trust my boyfriend as a result of what a very important male did to me as a toddler, okay? Just read my siggy, and find my old topic called tainted! As for being screwed up, I know I am! I was treated for depression in 7th, but never took the meds bc they didn't work! I didn't get my first kiss til november 13, and that was 32 days b4 my 17th bday! I'm afraid to be myself in front of anybody for fear of rejection or getting hurt. I am physically one of the beautiful people, (at least thats what EVERYONE says) and I thought for the longest time (until rob came into my life) that I was a worthless piece of trash that didn't deserve anything! It's all because of what he did to me, and I deal with it by ignoring it and trying to forgive him. Point being, I'm a head case, and it's not my fault! And I have friends who by your definition are screw ups, and they are. You're right there. By definition, my bf is a total screw up. I have friends that are screw ups because they were born nutty and regret nothing but it feels like everything. It's all in their head. oh relax. i dont do anything.i do wut "god" gave us. even the bible supports it. alot. Prove it. God does not support the reckless destruction of your own body and mind. It's that mindset tha's going to get you in more trouble than you could ever hope to handle. BTW, I'm not angry. My post might sound it, but I'm not. I get defensive about my past, and then I turn sullen for about an hour, or until I receive mental enjoyment, whichever comes first. Peace! ♥♥♥♥ ||| Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted May 29, 2006 Author Report Share Posted May 29, 2006 screw up? I'm the screwed up chica, my friend. If I weren't against it, I'd bet money that you haven't gone through the stuff I have. wut you've been through dosnt make you a screw up or not. it makes your (parents,friends, teachers, etc(who ever made you go thru it)) its how you deal with it.child abuse-->emotional problems later.[/i] unless of course it was your FAULT you went thru it. example: child abuse.. doesnt make the child a screw up... trying heroin willingly, becoming an addict makes you a screw up. (even though i heard heroin isnt as bad as everyone says.) child abuse most certainly does! Maybe not always, but let me tell you something, Lauren. I was hurt deep. I can barely trust my boyfriend as a result of what a very important male did to me as a toddler, okay? Just read my siggy, and find my old topic called tainted! As for being screwed up, I know I am! I was treated for depression in 7th, but never took the meds bc they didn't work! I didn't get my first kiss til november 13, and that was 32 days b4 my 17th bday! I'm afraid to be myself in front of anybody for fear of rejection or getting hurt. I am physically one of the beautiful people, (at least thats what EVERYONE says) and I thought for the longest time (until rob came into my life) that I was a worthless piece of trash that didn't deserve anything! It's all because of what he did to me, and I deal with it by ignoring it and trying to forgive him. Point being, I'm a head case, and it's not my fault! And I have friends who by your definition are screw ups, and they are. You're right there. By definition, my bf is a total screw up. I have friends that are screw ups because they were born nutty and regret nothing but it feels like everything. It's all in their head. oh relax. i dont do anything.i do wut "god" gave us. even the bible supports it. alot. Prove it. God does not support the reckless destruction of your own body and mind. It's that mindset tha's going to get you in more trouble than you could ever hope to handle. BTW, I'm not angry. My post might sound it, but I'm not. I get defensive about my past, and then I turn sullen for about an hour, or until I receive mental enjoyment, whichever comes first. Peace! ♥♥♥♥ ||| but its not your fault therefore you arnt a screwup. say wut u will i dont believe you. and anout the other part have you ever READ the bible? do that. get back to me. im not angry either but you really have no idea what your talking about. reckless, destruction to the body? um no. go look it up and stop believing wut they tell you at school. and dont listen to your friends either... people lie. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted May 29, 2006 Report Share Posted May 29, 2006 but its not your fault therefore you arnt a screwup.say wut u will i dont believe you. and anout the other part have you ever READ the bible? do that. get back to me. im not angry either but you really have no idea what your talking about. reckless, destruction to the body? um no. go look it up and stop believing wut they tell you at school. and dont listen to your friends either... people lie. I am. I hide it, but I am. Don't believe me. It's your prerogative. Yes, I have read the Bible, I'm in church half the week with youth group and other activities, and I try to read every night. Wanna bet i don't know? Try me. And I can tell lies from the truth. I know evolution is false, bc it makes no sense. I know that drugs of any kind ruin the body AND the mind, because I have seen enough of my friends make the stupid mistake, and now they're paying majorly for it. I don't care if it's "natural grown" or not, a drug is a drug, and drugs are Satanic. And I don't mean meds, I mean rec drugs! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mega Wolf Posted May 31, 2006 Report Share Posted May 31, 2006 but its not your fault therefore you arnt a screwup. say wut u will i dont believe you. and anout the other part have you ever READ the bible? do that. get back to me. im not angry either but you really have no idea what your talking about. reckless, destruction to the body? um no. go look it up and stop believing wut they tell you at school. and dont listen to your friends either... people lie. I am. I hide it, but I am. Don't believe me. It's your prerogative. Yes, I have read the Bible, I'm in church half the week with youth group and other activities, and I try to read every night. Wanna bet i don't know? Try me. And I can tell lies from the truth. I know evolution is false, bc it makes no sense. I know that drugs of any kind ruin the body AND the mind, because I have seen enough of my friends make the stupid mistake, and now they're paying majorly for it. I don't care if it's "natural grown" or not, a drug is a drug, and drugs are Satanic. And I don't mean meds, I mean rec drugs! Okay umm... not trying to start a fight or anything, but evolution can make sense if you think it out. Plus I don't think drugs are satanic. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 1, 2006 Author Report Share Posted June 1, 2006 but its not your fault therefore you arnt a screwup. say wut u will i dont believe you. and anout the other part have you ever READ the bible? do that. get back to me. im not angry either but you really have no idea what your talking about. reckless, destruction to the body? um no. go look it up and stop believing wut they tell you at school. and dont listen to your friends either... people lie. I am. I hide it, but I am. Don't believe me. It's your prerogative. Yes, I have read the Bible, I'm in church half the week with youth group and other activities, and I try to read every night. Wanna bet i don't know? Try me. And I can tell lies from the truth. I know evolution is false, bc it makes no sense. I know that drugs of any kind ruin the body AND the mind, because I have seen enough of my friends make the stupid mistake, and now they're paying majorly for it. I don't care if it's "natural grown" or not, a drug is a drug, and drugs are Satanic. And I don't mean meds, I mean rec drugs! thats like saying holly bushes are satanic? thats just stupid. i cant TELL you and expect you to understand. i really dont expect it unless you are my body and are my mind you'd never understand it. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 6, 2006 Author Report Share Posted June 6, 2006 i should have titled this "guess who doesnt care if you sink or swim in an ocean of my blood?!" :] Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted June 6, 2006 Report Share Posted June 6, 2006 i should have titled this "guess who doesnt care if you sink or swim in an ocean of my blood?!" :] That would have been an attention getting title. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 7, 2006 Author Report Share Posted June 7, 2006 i should have titled this "guess who doesnt care if you sink or swim in an ocean of my blood?!" :] That would have been an attention getting title. rite. bad idea. didnt even mean to be mean just passing along a thought. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted June 7, 2006 Report Share Posted June 7, 2006 i should have titled this "guess who doesnt care if you sink or swim in an ocean of my blood?!" :] That would have been an attention getting title. rite. bad idea. didnt even mean to be mean just passing along a thought. Not mean, just words to make someone look. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 7, 2006 Author Report Share Posted June 7, 2006 i should have titled this "guess who doesnt care if you sink or swim in an ocean of my blood?!" :] That would have been an attention getting title. rite. bad idea. didnt even mean to be mean just passing along a thought. Not mean, just words to make someone look. oh, i know wut you meant. i could just see people taking it meanly. you know... im just thinking outload... rather... thinking thru typing somthing like that. OMG i dont want tomorrow to happen. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted June 7, 2006 Report Share Posted June 7, 2006 i should have titled this "guess who doesnt care if you sink or swim in an ocean of my blood?!" :] That would have been an attention getting title. rite. bad idea. didnt even mean to be mean just passing along a thought. Not mean, just words to make someone look. oh, i know wut you meant. i could just see people taking it meanly. you know... im just thinking outload... rather... thinking thru typing somthing like that. OMG i dont want tomorrow to happen. Thinking out loud is good. I am afraid to ask what is going to happen. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 7, 2006 Author Report Share Posted June 7, 2006 i should have titled this "guess who doesnt care if you sink or swim in an ocean of my blood?!" :] That would have been an attention getting title. rite. bad idea. didnt even mean to be mean just passing along a thought. Not mean, just words to make someone look. oh, i know wut you meant. i could just see people taking it meanly. you know... im just thinking outload... rather... thinking thru typing somthing like that. OMG i dont want tomorrow to happen. Thinking out loud is good. I am afraid to ask what is going to happen. mm nothing ever happens that really makes a difference in the end. im just sick of waking up. and doing my hair, and stressing and school and drama. and i feel like my emotions are taking on a whole new level (as if i needed that) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted June 8, 2006 Report Share Posted June 8, 2006 i should have titled this "guess who doesnt care if you sink or swim in an ocean of my blood?!" :] That would have been an attention getting title. rite. bad idea. didnt even mean to be mean just passing along a thought. Not mean, just words to make someone look. oh, i know wut you meant. i could just see people taking it meanly. you know... im just thinking outload... rather... thinking thru typing somthing like that. OMG i dont want tomorrow to happen. Thinking out loud is good. I am afraid to ask what is going to happen. mm nothing ever happens that really makes a difference in the end. im just sick of waking up. and doing my hair, and stressing and school and drama. and i feel like my emotions are taking on a whole new level (as if i needed that) If I could get you to believe that things get much better once you get out of high school, maybe this would help you get through this period of time. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 8, 2006 Author Report Share Posted June 8, 2006 i should have titled this "guess who doesnt care if you sink or swim in an ocean of my blood?!" :] That would have been an attention getting title. rite. bad idea. didnt even mean to be mean just passing along a thought. Not mean, just words to make someone look. oh, i know wut you meant. i could just see people taking it meanly. you know... im just thinking outload... rather... thinking thru typing somthing like that. OMG i dont want tomorrow to happen. Thinking out loud is good. I am afraid to ask what is going to happen. mm nothing ever happens that really makes a difference in the end. im just sick of waking up. and doing my hair, and stressing and school and drama. and i feel like my emotions are taking on a whole new level (as if i needed that) If I could get you to believe that things get much better once you get out of high school, maybe this would help you get through this period of time. in the REAL world? better?!? are you kidding me. i'm gonna be so poor and probably starve. dont even talk about 'after high school' ill cry. im terrified. i wanna belive i can come home from the bus and sleep in my own bed forever. more work... real jobs... id rather die.. literally. i hate this world (not even in a malicious way just in a way where i dont like the way people think or the laws instated or how every working person is a tool. i hate the way it works, and all the things it stands for. even at 15, where i dont have to deal with most of that serious stuff yet i still hate it. its so difficult for me and everyone i know. my friend is going to court and summer school and she has major guilt and stress and ocd. shes been cutting SOO much lately and im really worried for her. we cant even get gripes on our lives NOW, what are we gonna do then? we've been talking about dropping out and getting jobs. i kinow that wouldnt work but where deperate to get out of school, to do anything... anything but sit and think and feel alone. its like an animal eating away at our souls. we've had 5 hour conversation about how messed up the world is and how if we didnt hurt anyone in the process we'd get out. we'd do anything to get out of here. its so horrible. i cant even explain to you how much i hate living. its like a disease. i know i sound like a depressed cynical complaining little teenager but i cant explain to you. i've thought about it everyday since i was 12. i figure if i can hold on 3 years i can do somemore. but i have no idea how much. and the real world is a huge jump... that mite set me off SO bad. its gonna be pretty bad. and i know it. cuz im already thinking it and i cant help it. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted June 8, 2006 Report Share Posted June 8, 2006 i should have titled this "guess who doesnt care if you sink or swim in an ocean of my blood?!" :] That would have been an attention getting title. rite. bad idea. didnt even mean to be mean just passing along a thought. Not mean, just words to make someone look. oh, i know wut you meant. i could just see people taking it meanly. you know... im just thinking outload... rather... thinking thru typing somthing like that. OMG i dont want tomorrow to happen. Thinking out loud is good. I am afraid to ask what is going to happen. mm nothing ever happens that really makes a difference in the end. im just sick of waking up. and doing my hair, and stressing and school and drama. and i feel like my emotions are taking on a whole new level (as if i needed that) If I could get you to believe that things get much better once you get out of high school, maybe this would help you get through this period of time. in the REAL world? better?!? are you kidding me. i'm gonna be so poor and probably starve. dont even talk about 'after high school' ill cry. im terrified. i wanna belive i can come home from the bus and sleep in my own bed forever. more work... real jobs... id rather die.. literally. i hate this world (not even in a malicious way just in a way where i dont like the way people think or the laws instated or how every working person is a tool. i hate the way it works, and all the things it stands for. even at 15, where i dont have to deal with most of that serious stuff yet i still hate it. its so difficult for me and everyone i know. my friend is going to court and summer school and she has major guilt and stress and ocd. shes been cutting SOO much lately and im really worried for her. we cant even get gripes on our lives NOW, what are we gonna do then? we've been talking about dropping out and getting jobs. i kinow that wouldnt work but where deperate to get out of school, to do anything... anything but sit and think and feel alone. its like an animal eating away at our souls. we've had 5 hour conversation about how messed up the world is and how if we didnt hurt anyone in the process we'd get out. we'd do anything to get out of here. its so horrible. i cant even explain to you how much i hate living. its like a disease. i know i sound like a depressed cynical complaining little teenager but i cant explain to you. i've thought about it everyday since i was 12. i figure if i can hold on 3 years i can do somemore. but i have no idea how much. and the real world is a huge jump... that mite set me off SO bad. its gonna be pretty bad. and i know it. cuz im already thinking it and i cant help it. To begin, you need your HS diploma or you will starve. You can get a GED but you need some piece of paper in your hand. There is a different world out there and not just the one you are looking at. There are jobs that you can get that are not just a 9 to 5, where you are making a difference. I would strongly suggest trying to go to college. It is not like High School. If you wanted to try something different, what about the Peace Corps? To feel terrified about the future and what happens after you leave school is okay. There is a test, the Strong Vocational Interest Blank or other tests like this, that help you determine areas of interest for a career and those areas you definitely need to avoid. If you could take this test, I would urge you to do so. It is not something you study for, just a way to see what you like and don't like, and where you might want to look. You can hold on for three years and then you will find you can continue some more. Once you get through and graduate, you will find other opportunities. Working straight away from High School will never get you a great financial future so I do recommend college or university. Ask Lexxscrapham about his experience at college. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 8, 2006 Author Report Share Posted June 8, 2006 i should have titled this "guess who doesnt care if you sink or swim in an ocean of my blood?!" :] That would have been an attention getting title. rite. bad idea. didnt even mean to be mean just passing along a thought. Not mean, just words to make someone look. oh, i know wut you meant. i could just see people taking it meanly. you know... im just thinking outload... rather... thinking thru typing somthing like that. OMG i dont want tomorrow to happen. Thinking out loud is good. I am afraid to ask what is going to happen. mm nothing ever happens that really makes a difference in the end. im just sick of waking up. and doing my hair, and stressing and school and drama. and i feel like my emotions are taking on a whole new level (as if i needed that) If I could get you to believe that things get much better once you get out of high school, maybe this would help you get through this period of time. in the REAL world? better?!? are you kidding me. i'm gonna be so poor and probably starve. dont even talk about 'after high school' ill cry. im terrified. i wanna belive i can come home from the bus and sleep in my own bed forever. more work... real jobs... id rather die.. literally. i hate this world (not even in a malicious way just in a way where i dont like the way people think or the laws instated or how every working person is a tool. i hate the way it works, and all the things it stands for. even at 15, where i dont have to deal with most of that serious stuff yet i still hate it. its so difficult for me and everyone i know. my friend is going to court and summer school and she has major guilt and stress and ocd. shes been cutting SOO much lately and im really worried for her. we cant even get gripes on our lives NOW, what are we gonna do then? we've been talking about dropping out and getting jobs. i kinow that wouldnt work but where deperate to get out of school, to do anything... anything but sit and think and feel alone. its like an animal eating away at our souls. we've had 5 hour conversation about how messed up the world is and how if we didnt hurt anyone in the process we'd get out. we'd do anything to get out of here. its so horrible. i cant even explain to you how much i hate living. its like a disease. i know i sound like a depressed cynical complaining little teenager but i cant explain to you. i've thought about it everyday since i was 12. i figure if i can hold on 3 years i can do somemore. but i have no idea how much. and the real world is a huge jump... that mite set me off SO bad. its gonna be pretty bad. and i know it. cuz im already thinking it and i cant help it. To begin, you need your HS diploma or you will starve. You can get a GED but you need some piece of paper in your hand. There is a different world out there and not just the one you are looking at. There are jobs that you can get that are not just a 9 to 5, where you are making a difference. I would strongly suggest trying to go to college. It is not like High School. If you wanted to try something different, what about the Peace Corps? To feel terrified about the future and what happens after you leave school is okay. There is a test, the Strong Vocational Interest Blank or other tests like this, that help you determine areas of interest for a career and those areas you definitely need to avoid. If you could take this test, I would urge you to do so. It is not something you study for, just a way to see what you like and don't like, and where you might want to look. You can hold on for three years and then you will find you can continue some more. Once you get through and graduate, you will find other opportunities. Working straight away from High School will never get you a great financial future so I do recommend college or university. Ask Lexxscrapham about his experience at college. oh i KNOW im going to college. parties! plus that's an expierience i need to have. i think we get that test like in our JR year. no one takes it seriously. rite now i have to worry about finals and doing my homework. i havnt done homework in months. im passing math tho. which is good. i really though i was gonna triple up next year. but i think im gonna double up i guess. (geometery and algebra 2.) im definatly getting a tutor. :/ but at least im not going to summer school. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted June 8, 2006 Report Share Posted June 8, 2006 i should have titled this "guess who doesnt care if you sink or swim in an ocean of my blood?!" :] That would have been an attention getting title. rite. bad idea. didnt even mean to be mean just passing along a thought. Not mean, just words to make someone look. oh, i know wut you meant. i could just see people taking it meanly. you know... im just thinking outload... rather... thinking thru typing somthing like that. OMG i dont want tomorrow to happen. Thinking out loud is good. I am afraid to ask what is going to happen. mm nothing ever happens that really makes a difference in the end. im just sick of waking up. and doing my hair, and stressing and school and drama. and i feel like my emotions are taking on a whole new level (as if i needed that) If I could get you to believe that things get much better once you get out of high school, maybe this would help you get through this period of time. in the REAL world? better?!? are you kidding me. i'm gonna be so poor and probably starve. dont even talk about 'after high school' ill cry. im terrified. i wanna belive i can come home from the bus and sleep in my own bed forever. more work... real jobs... id rather die.. literally. i hate this world (not even in a malicious way just in a way where i dont like the way people think or the laws instated or how every working person is a tool. i hate the way it works, and all the things it stands for. even at 15, where i dont have to deal with most of that serious stuff yet i still hate it. its so difficult for me and everyone i know. my friend is going to court and summer school and she has major guilt and stress and ocd. shes been cutting SOO much lately and im really worried for her. we cant even get gripes on our lives NOW, what are we gonna do then? we've been talking about dropping out and getting jobs. i kinow that wouldnt work but where deperate to get out of school, to do anything... anything but sit and think and feel alone. its like an animal eating away at our souls. we've had 5 hour conversation about how messed up the world is and how if we didnt hurt anyone in the process we'd get out. we'd do anything to get out of here. its so horrible. i cant even explain to you how much i hate living. its like a disease. i know i sound like a depressed cynical complaining little teenager but i cant explain to you. i've thought about it everyday since i was 12. i figure if i can hold on 3 years i can do somemore. but i have no idea how much. and the real world is a huge jump... that mite set me off SO bad. its gonna be pretty bad. and i know it. cuz im already thinking it and i cant help it. To begin, you need your HS diploma or you will starve. You can get a GED but you need some piece of paper in your hand. There is a different world out there and not just the one you are looking at. There are jobs that you can get that are not just a 9 to 5, where you are making a difference. I would strongly suggest trying to go to college. It is not like High School. If you wanted to try something different, what about the Peace Corps? To feel terrified about the future and what happens after you leave school is okay. There is a test, the Strong Vocational Interest Blank or other tests like this, that help you determine areas of interest for a career and those areas you definitely need to avoid. If you could take this test, I would urge you to do so. It is not something you study for, just a way to see what you like and don't like, and where you might want to look. You can hold on for three years and then you will find you can continue some more. Once you get through and graduate, you will find other opportunities. Working straight away from High School will never get you a great financial future so I do recommend college or university. Ask Lexxscrapham about his experience at college. oh i KNOW im going to college. parties! plus that's an expierience i need to have. i think we get that test like in our JR year. no one takes it seriously. rite now i have to worry about finals and doing my homework. i havnt done homework in months. im passing math tho. which is good. i really though i was gonna triple up next year. but i think im gonna double up i guess. (geometery and algebra 2.) im definatly getting a tutor. :/ but at least im not going to summer school. I'm glad to hear this! Great news... no summer school. Doubling up would be great and will possibly get you into college earlier. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 9, 2006 Author Report Share Posted June 9, 2006 i should have titled this "guess who doesnt care if you sink or swim in an ocean of my blood?!" :] That would have been an attention getting title. rite. bad idea. didnt even mean to be mean just passing along a thought. Not mean, just words to make someone look. oh, i know wut you meant. i could just see people taking it meanly. you know... im just thinking outload... rather... thinking thru typing somthing like that. OMG i dont want tomorrow to happen. Thinking out loud is good. I am afraid to ask what is going to happen. mm nothing ever happens that really makes a difference in the end. im just sick of waking up. and doing my hair, and stressing and school and drama. and i feel like my emotions are taking on a whole new level (as if i needed that) If I could get you to believe that things get much better once you get out of high school, maybe this would help you get through this period of time. in the REAL world? better?!? are you kidding me. i'm gonna be so poor and probably starve. dont even talk about 'after high school' ill cry. im terrified. i wanna belive i can come home from the bus and sleep in my own bed forever. more work... real jobs... id rather die.. literally. i hate this world (not even in a malicious way just in a way where i dont like the way people think or the laws instated or how every working person is a tool. i hate the way it works, and all the things it stands for. even at 15, where i dont have to deal with most of that serious stuff yet i still hate it. its so difficult for me and everyone i know. my friend is going to court and summer school and she has major guilt and stress and ocd. shes been cutting SOO much lately and im really worried for her. we cant even get gripes on our lives NOW, what are we gonna do then? we've been talking about dropping out and getting jobs. i kinow that wouldnt work but where deperate to get out of school, to do anything... anything but sit and think and feel alone. its like an animal eating away at our souls. we've had 5 hour conversation about how messed up the world is and how if we didnt hurt anyone in the process we'd get out. we'd do anything to get out of here. its so horrible. i cant even explain to you how much i hate living. its like a disease. i know i sound like a depressed cynical complaining little teenager but i cant explain to you. i've thought about it everyday since i was 12. i figure if i can hold on 3 years i can do somemore. but i have no idea how much. and the real world is a huge jump... that mite set me off SO bad. its gonna be pretty bad. and i know it. cuz im already thinking it and i cant help it. To begin, you need your HS diploma or you will starve. You can get a GED but you need some piece of paper in your hand. There is a different world out there and not just the one you are looking at. There are jobs that you can get that are not just a 9 to 5, where you are making a difference. I would strongly suggest trying to go to college. It is not like High School. If you wanted to try something different, what about the Peace Corps? To feel terrified about the future and what happens after you leave school is okay. There is a test, the Strong Vocational Interest Blank or other tests like this, that help you determine areas of interest for a career and those areas you definitely need to avoid. If you could take this test, I would urge you to do so. It is not something you study for, just a way to see what you like and don't like, and where you might want to look. You can hold on for three years and then you will find you can continue some more. Once you get through and graduate, you will find other opportunities. Working straight away from High School will never get you a great financial future so I do recommend college or university. Ask Lexxscrapham about his experience at college. oh i KNOW im going to college. parties! plus that's an expierience i need to have. i think we get that test like in our JR year. no one takes it seriously. rite now i have to worry about finals and doing my homework. i havnt done homework in months. im passing math tho. which is good. i really though i was gonna triple up next year. but i think im gonna double up i guess. (geometery and algebra 2.) im definatly getting a tutor. :/ but at least im not going to summer school. I'm glad to hear this! Great news... no summer school. Doubling up would be great and will possibly get you into college earlier. haha no... it would put me on the level i SHOULD be. i failed math last year. i spent almost the whole year failing everything and just talking to megan. some deep stuff was talked about in math. we'd get so confused and frustrated alot of the time we'd hurt ourselves in our desks. that was definatly a life changing class. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted June 9, 2006 Report Share Posted June 9, 2006 I have to say this... I work at a waterpark for 6.75/hr. I might work seven days out of two weeks, and I get like, 150 for a paycheck. I'm a lifeguard. I watch water. I watch people smile. Great job. The real world isn't all it's cracked up to be. Everyone's always saying how hard it is and how crazy it can be if you aren't prepared. That's false. It can be. But I'm enjoying myself. Before I got the job, I was terrified of entering the workforce. I'm not a bagboy type person. I'm an outdoors, active, fun, interesting type person. I love my job. There is something for everyone. I say to you, Lauren, sophomore year, you can get a job. Find something you enjoy, and ask. Having a paycheck can really help your roller coaster emotions. Just think, with your own hard-earned money, you can do whatever you want! Your parents can help you set up a bank account so you can have a debit card, and savings for when you grow up. I highly suggest Bank of America. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted June 10, 2006 Report Share Posted June 10, 2006 I have to say this... I work at a waterpark for 6.75/hr. I might work seven days out of two weeks, and I get like, 150 for a paycheck. I'm a lifeguard. I watch water. I watch people smile. Great job. The real world isn't all it's cracked up to be. Everyone's always saying how hard it is and how crazy it can be if you aren't prepared. That's false. It can be. But I'm enjoying myself. Before I got the job, I was terrified of entering the workforce. I'm not a bagboy type person. I'm an outdoors, active, fun, interesting type person. I love my job. There is something for everyone. I say to you, Lauren, sophomore year, you can get a job. Find something you enjoy, and ask. Having a paycheck can really help your roller coaster emotions. Just think, with your own hard-earned money, you can do whatever you want! Your parents can help you set up a bank account so you can have a debit card, and savings for when you grow up. I highly suggest Bank of America. Congratulations on passing the Red Cross Lifesaving test. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted June 11, 2006 Report Share Posted June 11, 2006 I have to say this... I work at a waterpark for 6.75/hr. I might work seven days out of two weeks, and I get like, 150 for a paycheck. I'm a lifeguard. I watch water. I watch people smile. Great job. The real world isn't all it's cracked up to be. Everyone's always saying how hard it is and how crazy it can be if you aren't prepared. That's false. It can be. But I'm enjoying myself. Before I got the job, I was terrified of entering the workforce. I'm not a bagboy type person. I'm an outdoors, active, fun, interesting type person. I love my job. There is something for everyone. I say to you, Lauren, sophomore year, you can get a job. Find something you enjoy, and ask. Having a paycheck can really help your roller coaster emotions. Just think, with your own hard-earned money, you can do whatever you want! Your parents can help you set up a bank account so you can have a debit card, and savings for when you grow up. I highly suggest Bank of America. Congratulations on passing the Red Cross Lifesaving test. I went through E/A, not Red Cross. Ellis and Associates has the most requirements out of all the courses. But thank you. I'm so happy! I spent twelve hours at the park yesterday, and the second half, I had someone with me for FREE! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 12, 2006 Author Report Share Posted June 12, 2006 I have to say this... I work at a waterpark for 6.75/hr. I might work seven days out of two weeks, and I get like, 150 for a paycheck. I'm a lifeguard. I watch water. I watch people smile. Great job. The real world isn't all it's cracked up to be. Everyone's always saying how hard it is and how crazy it can be if you aren't prepared. That's false. It can be. But I'm enjoying myself. Before I got the job, I was terrified of entering the workforce. I'm not a bagboy type person. I'm an outdoors, active, fun, interesting type person. I love my job. There is something for everyone. I say to you, Lauren, sophomore year, you can get a job. Find something you enjoy, and ask. Having a paycheck can really help your roller coaster emotions. Just think, with your own hard-earned money, you can do whatever you want! Your parents can help you set up a bank account so you can have a debit card, and savings for when you grow up. I highly suggest Bank of America. i know where my money would go to... and i dont want to spend all my money that way. plus im too drained to work. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted June 12, 2006 Report Share Posted June 12, 2006 I have to say this... I work at a waterpark for 6.75/hr. I might work seven days out of two weeks, and I get like, 150 for a paycheck. I'm a lifeguard. I watch water. I watch people smile. Great job. The real world isn't all it's cracked up to be. Everyone's always saying how hard it is and how crazy it can be if you aren't prepared. That's false. It can be. But I'm enjoying myself. Before I got the job, I was terrified of entering the workforce. I'm not a bagboy type person. I'm an outdoors, active, fun, interesting type person. I love my job. There is something for everyone. I say to you, Lauren, sophomore year, you can get a job. Find something you enjoy, and ask. Having a paycheck can really help your roller coaster emotions. Just think, with your own hard-earned money, you can do whatever you want! Your parents can help you set up a bank account so you can have a debit card, and savings for when you grow up. I highly suggest Bank of America. i know where my money would go to... and i dont want to spend all my money that way. plus im too drained to work. yeah... try saving for college. That's a worthy fund to fulfill. Drained? Try accounting. Or assisting at a vet's or candy striping at the hospital. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 15, 2006 Author Report Share Posted June 15, 2006 I have to say this... I work at a waterpark for 6.75/hr. I might work seven days out of two weeks, and I get like, 150 for a paycheck. I'm a lifeguard. I watch water. I watch people smile. Great job. The real world isn't all it's cracked up to be. Everyone's always saying how hard it is and how crazy it can be if you aren't prepared. That's false. It can be. But I'm enjoying myself. Before I got the job, I was terrified of entering the workforce. I'm not a bagboy type person. I'm an outdoors, active, fun, interesting type person. I love my job. There is something for everyone. I say to you, Lauren, sophomore year, you can get a job. Find something you enjoy, and ask. Having a paycheck can really help your roller coaster emotions. Just think, with your own hard-earned money, you can do whatever you want! Your parents can help you set up a bank account so you can have a debit card, and savings for when you grow up. I highly suggest Bank of America. i know where my money would go to... and i dont want to spend all my money that way. plus im too drained to work. yeah... try saving for college. That's a worthy fund to fulfill. Drained? Try accounting. Or assisting at a vet's or candy striping at the hospital. mm right now all i want to do is crawl back in bed... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted June 15, 2006 Report Share Posted June 15, 2006 I have to say this... I work at a waterpark for 6.75/hr. I might work seven days out of two weeks, and I get like, 150 for a paycheck. I'm a lifeguard. I watch water. I watch people smile. Great job. The real world isn't all it's cracked up to be. Everyone's always saying how hard it is and how crazy it can be if you aren't prepared. That's false. It can be. But I'm enjoying myself. Before I got the job, I was terrified of entering the workforce. I'm not a bagboy type person. I'm an outdoors, active, fun, interesting type person. I love my job. There is something for everyone. I say to you, Lauren, sophomore year, you can get a job. Find something you enjoy, and ask. Having a paycheck can really help your roller coaster emotions. Just think, with your own hard-earned money, you can do whatever you want! Your parents can help you set up a bank account so you can have a debit card, and savings for when you grow up. I highly suggest Bank of America. i know where my money would go to... and i dont want to spend all my money that way. plus im too drained to work. yeah... try saving for college. That's a worthy fund to fulfill. Drained? Try accounting. Or assisting at a vet's or candy striping at the hospital. mm right now all i want to do is crawl back in bed... (can't say I blame you) but for me, it's 8am and it feels more like 3am. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 15, 2006 Author Report Share Posted June 15, 2006 I have to say this... I work at a waterpark for 6.75/hr. I might work seven days out of two weeks, and I get like, 150 for a paycheck. I'm a lifeguard. I watch water. I watch people smile. Great job. The real world isn't all it's cracked up to be. Everyone's always saying how hard it is and how crazy it can be if you aren't prepared. That's false. It can be. But I'm enjoying myself. Before I got the job, I was terrified of entering the workforce. I'm not a bagboy type person. I'm an outdoors, active, fun, interesting type person. I love my job. There is something for everyone. I say to you, Lauren, sophomore year, you can get a job. Find something you enjoy, and ask. Having a paycheck can really help your roller coaster emotions. Just think, with your own hard-earned money, you can do whatever you want! Your parents can help you set up a bank account so you can have a debit card, and savings for when you grow up. I highly suggest Bank of America. i know where my money would go to... and i dont want to spend all my money that way. plus im too drained to work. yeah... try saving for college. That's a worthy fund to fulfill. Drained? Try accounting. Or assisting at a vet's or candy striping at the hospital. mm right now all i want to do is crawl back in bed... (can't say I blame you) but for me, it's 8am and it feels more like 3am. mm almost all times of the day feel the same to me now. im always tired my mom thinks im anemic... i dont think so. just lazy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted June 16, 2006 Report Share Posted June 16, 2006 I have to say this... I work at a waterpark for 6.75/hr. I might work seven days out of two weeks, and I get like, 150 for a paycheck. I'm a lifeguard. I watch water. I watch people smile. Great job. The real world isn't all it's cracked up to be. Everyone's always saying how hard it is and how crazy it can be if you aren't prepared. That's false. It can be. But I'm enjoying myself. Before I got the job, I was terrified of entering the workforce. I'm not a bagboy type person. I'm an outdoors, active, fun, interesting type person. I love my job. There is something for everyone. I say to you, Lauren, sophomore year, you can get a job. Find something you enjoy, and ask. Having a paycheck can really help your roller coaster emotions. Just think, with your own hard-earned money, you can do whatever you want! Your parents can help you set up a bank account so you can have a debit card, and savings for when you grow up. I highly suggest Bank of America. i know where my money would go to... and i dont want to spend all my money that way. plus im too drained to work. yeah... try saving for college. That's a worthy fund to fulfill. Drained? Try accounting. Or assisting at a vet's or candy striping at the hospital. mm right now all i want to do is crawl back in bed... (can't say I blame you) but for me, it's 8am and it feels more like 3am. mm almost all times of the day feel the same to me now. im always tired my mom thinks im anemic... i dont think so. just lazy I like being lazy! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted June 16, 2006 Report Share Posted June 16, 2006 I have to say this... I work at a waterpark for 6.75/hr. I might work seven days out of two weeks, and I get like, 150 for a paycheck. I'm a lifeguard. I watch water. I watch people smile. Great job. The real world isn't all it's cracked up to be. Everyone's always saying how hard it is and how crazy it can be if you aren't prepared. That's false. It can be. But I'm enjoying myself. Before I got the job, I was terrified of entering the workforce. I'm not a bagboy type person. I'm an outdoors, active, fun, interesting type person. I love my job. There is something for everyone. I say to you, Lauren, sophomore year, you can get a job. Find something you enjoy, and ask. Having a paycheck can really help your roller coaster emotions. Just think, with your own hard-earned money, you can do whatever you want! Your parents can help you set up a bank account so you can have a debit card, and savings for when you grow up. I highly suggest Bank of America. i know where my money would go to... and i dont want to spend all my money that way. plus im too drained to work. yeah... try saving for college. That's a worthy fund to fulfill. Drained? Try accounting. Or assisting at a vet's or candy striping at the hospital. mm right now all i want to do is crawl back in bed... (can't say I blame you) but for me, it's 8am and it feels more like 3am. mm almost all times of the day feel the same to me now. im always tired my mom thinks im anemic... i dont think so. just lazy I like being lazy! there's nothing wrong with being lazy. Lazy is what I use to write my book! (pg 563 and counting) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 17, 2006 Author Report Share Posted June 17, 2006 I have to say this... I work at a waterpark for 6.75/hr. I might work seven days out of two weeks, and I get like, 150 for a paycheck. I'm a lifeguard. I watch water. I watch people smile. Great job. The real world isn't all it's cracked up to be. Everyone's always saying how hard it is and how crazy it can be if you aren't prepared. That's false. It can be. But I'm enjoying myself. Before I got the job, I was terrified of entering the workforce. I'm not a bagboy type person. I'm an outdoors, active, fun, interesting type person. I love my job. There is something for everyone. I say to you, Lauren, sophomore year, you can get a job. Find something you enjoy, and ask. Having a paycheck can really help your roller coaster emotions. Just think, with your own hard-earned money, you can do whatever you want! Your parents can help you set up a bank account so you can have a debit card, and savings for when you grow up. I highly suggest Bank of America. i know where my money would go to... and i dont want to spend all my money that way. plus im too drained to work. yeah... try saving for college. That's a worthy fund to fulfill. Drained? Try accounting. Or assisting at a vet's or candy striping at the hospital. mm right now all i want to do is crawl back in bed... (can't say I blame you) but for me, it's 8am and it feels more like 3am. mm almost all times of the day feel the same to me now. im always tired my mom thinks im anemic... i dont think so. just lazy I like being lazy! there's nothing wrong with being lazy. Lazy is what I use to write my book! (pg 563 and counting) i wish i was less lazy. lol Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted June 17, 2006 Report Share Posted June 17, 2006 I have to say this... I work at a waterpark for 6.75/hr. I might work seven days out of two weeks, and I get like, 150 for a paycheck. I'm a lifeguard. I watch water. I watch people smile. Great job. The real world isn't all it's cracked up to be. Everyone's always saying how hard it is and how crazy it can be if you aren't prepared. That's false. It can be. But I'm enjoying myself. Before I got the job, I was terrified of entering the workforce. I'm not a bagboy type person. I'm an outdoors, active, fun, interesting type person. I love my job. There is something for everyone. I say to you, Lauren, sophomore year, you can get a job. Find something you enjoy, and ask. Having a paycheck can really help your roller coaster emotions. Just think, with your own hard-earned money, you can do whatever you want! Your parents can help you set up a bank account so you can have a debit card, and savings for when you grow up. I highly suggest Bank of America. i know where my money would go to... and i dont want to spend all my money that way. plus im too drained to work. yeah... try saving for college. That's a worthy fund to fulfill. Drained? Try accounting. Or assisting at a vet's or candy striping at the hospital. mm right now all i want to do is crawl back in bed... (can't say I blame you) but for me, it's 8am and it feels more like 3am. mm almost all times of the day feel the same to me now. im always tired my mom thinks im anemic... i dont think so. just lazy I like being lazy! there's nothing wrong with being lazy. Lazy is what I use to write my book! (pg 563 and counting) i wish i was less lazy. lol Enjoy lazy now! You will have more time to be responsible later! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted June 17, 2006 Report Share Posted June 17, 2006 i wish i was less lazy. lol Enjoy lazy now! You will have more time to be responsible later! as always, Horatio is correct. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted June 17, 2006 Report Share Posted June 17, 2006 i wish i was less lazy. lol Enjoy lazy now! You will have more time to be responsible later! as always, Horatio is correct. Unfortunately adults are expecting so much out of young people these days and not allowing them to enjoy their youth. Being lazy is good when you are young. Have some fun and be lazy while you can! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted June 19, 2006 Report Share Posted June 19, 2006 i wish i was less lazy. lol Enjoy lazy now! You will have more time to be responsible later! as always, Horatio is correct. Unfortunately adults are expecting so much out of young people these days and not allowing them to enjoy their youth. Being lazy is good when you are young. Have some fun and be lazy while you can! I'm only lazy if I'm under pressure. I'm always doing something. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 20, 2006 Author Report Share Posted June 20, 2006 i wish i was less lazy. lol Enjoy lazy now! You will have more time to be responsible later! as always, Horatio is correct. if im lazy now, i'll get so fat when my metabolism slows down Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted June 21, 2006 Report Share Posted June 21, 2006 i wish i was less lazy. lol Enjoy lazy now! You will have more time to be responsible later! as always, Horatio is correct. if im lazy now, i'll get so fat when my metabolism slows down You have a few years to go before you have to worry about your metabolism slowing down. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted June 21, 2006 Report Share Posted June 21, 2006 i wish i was less lazy. lol Enjoy lazy now! You will have more time to be responsible later! as always, Horatio is correct. if im lazy now, i'll get so fat when my metabolism slows down You have a few years to go before you have to worry about your metabolism slowing down. *cough*20-30*cough* sorry, something is in my throat. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 26, 2006 Author Report Share Posted June 26, 2006 i wish i was less lazy. lol Enjoy lazy now! You will have more time to be responsible later! as always, Horatio is correct. if im lazy now, i'll get so fat when my metabolism slows down You have a few years to go before you have to worry about your metabolism slowing down. *cough*20-30*cough* sorry, something is in my throat. i'm aware. does that make it any better? no. i cant resist food. in fact, i think im gonna go heat up some le-zan-ya. ((i cant spell that :])) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted June 26, 2006 Report Share Posted June 26, 2006 i wish i was less lazy. lol Enjoy lazy now! You will have more time to be responsible later! as always, Horatio is correct. if im lazy now, i'll get so fat when my metabolism slows down You have a few years to go before you have to worry about your metabolism slowing down. *cough*20-30*cough* sorry, something is in my throat. i'm aware. does that make it any better? no. i cant resist food. in fact, i think im gonna go heat up some le-zan-ya. ((i cant spell that :])) Lasagna, although I like your spelling better. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted June 26, 2006 Report Share Posted June 26, 2006 i'm aware. does that make it any better? no. i cant resist food. in fact, i think im gonna go heat up some le-zan-ya. ((i cant spell that :])) Lasagna, although I like your spelling better. Actually, it's lasagne in its native tongue. But americanized, Horatio is exactly right! food is good for you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 26, 2006 Author Report Share Posted June 26, 2006 i'm aware. does that make it any better? no. i cant resist food. in fact, i think im gonna go heat up some le-zan-ya. ((i cant spell that :])) Lasagna, although I like your spelling better. Actually, it's lasagne in its native tongue. But americanized, Horatio is exactly right! food is good for you. haha. mm i couldnt find it last night and i was sooo mad. but i found it and had it for breakfast. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted June 27, 2006 Report Share Posted June 27, 2006 i'm aware. does that make it any better? no. i cant resist food. in fact, i think im gonna go heat up some le-zan-ya. ((i cant spell that :])) Lasagna, although I like your spelling better. Actually, it's lasagne in its native tongue. But americanized, Horatio is exactly right! food is good for you. haha. mm i couldnt find it last night and i was sooo mad. but i found it and had it for breakfast. I could eat lasagna for breakfast! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 27, 2006 Author Report Share Posted June 27, 2006 i'm aware. does that make it any better? no. i cant resist food. in fact, i think im gonna go heat up some le-zan-ya. ((i cant spell that :])) Lasagna, although I like your spelling better. Actually, it's lasagne in its native tongue. But americanized, Horatio is exactly right! food is good for you. haha. mm i couldnt find it last night and i was sooo mad. but i found it and had it for breakfast. I could eat lasagna for breakfast! yea it was good. i actually had it for dinner too. breakfast was at 2:30pm btw. haha Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted June 27, 2006 Report Share Posted June 27, 2006 i'm aware. does that make it any better? no. i cant resist food. in fact, i think im gonna go heat up some le-zan-ya. ((i cant spell that :])) Lasagna, although I like your spelling better. Actually, it's lasagne in its native tongue. But americanized, Horatio is exactly right! food is good for you. haha. mm i couldnt find it last night and i was sooo mad. but i found it and had it for breakfast. I could eat lasagna for breakfast! yea it was good. i actually had it for dinner too. breakfast was at 2:30pm btw. haha Breakfast in the afternoon... that would be more like dunch or linner. (Halfway between lunch and dinner.) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 28, 2006 Author Report Share Posted June 28, 2006 i'm aware. does that make it any better? no. i cant resist food. in fact, i think im gonna go heat up some le-zan-ya. ((i cant spell that :])) Lasagna, although I like your spelling better. Actually, it's lasagne in its native tongue. But americanized, Horatio is exactly right! food is good for you. haha. mm i couldnt find it last night and i was sooo mad. but i found it and had it for breakfast. I could eat lasagna for breakfast! yea it was good. i actually had it for dinner too. breakfast was at 2:30pm btw. haha Breakfast in the afternoon... that would be more like dunch or linner. (Halfway between lunch and dinner.) i dont eat meals. i just eat. wuts the point of meal names?? just to identify when you ate it? thats dumb. i dont live on everyone else's times anyway? i went to sleep at 5 this morning. on this wierd matress with this kid i just met. haha. that makes me should bad. yea, but then mad people woek us up at liek 11. it stunk. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted June 28, 2006 Report Share Posted June 28, 2006 i woke up this morning a 930 so hush about eleven Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 29, 2006 Author Report Share Posted June 29, 2006 i woke up this morning a 930 so hush about eleven i bet you didnt go to bed at 6. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
The Biggest Fan Of Fuzzy Posted June 29, 2006 Report Share Posted June 29, 2006 i workout everyday now. in deperate efforts to lose weight im trying to eat the rite things but i either done eat eat wrong things or binge and purge... Yeah! I am thrilled to hear you are working out everyday! Fantastic!!! Remember this... if it is white, you do not want to eat it. So NO sugar, white bread, white pasta, etc. make that everyday cept for the days where i physically CANT. and friday. (i could physically... but mentally i couldnt) white bread is gross. sugar free? thats hard, i get sugar-free engery drinks... ive completely failed myself on so many levels in the past 3 days. tomorrow im gonan try to get back on track if i dont go INSANE before that. im so stressed i could die. :closedeyes: I fail quite often. But the next day, the sun rises and I try to start all over again. your too possitive. :[ i feel like dying... You are having a bad day today... force yourself to get out. Force yourself to do some kind of work out. Life will get better. I promise you this. i cant force me to do anything. today was pretty good tho. my mom signed me out early and i got my braces off(FINALLY!) and then later i got tips. i gave me allowence to pay for 1/3 of it tho.. :[ tonite i dont plan on sleeping... i need to clean.. but im SO tired cuz ive bearly slept in 2 days. Lucky. I'm ready to torch my braces off. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Horatio Posted June 29, 2006 Report Share Posted June 29, 2006 i workout everyday now. in deperate efforts to lose weight im trying to eat the rite things but i either done eat eat wrong things or binge and purge... Yeah! I am thrilled to hear you are working out everyday! Fantastic!!! Remember this... if it is white, you do not want to eat it. So NO sugar, white bread, white pasta, etc. make that everyday cept for the days where i physically CANT. and friday. (i could physically... but mentally i couldnt) white bread is gross. sugar free? thats hard, i get sugar-free engery drinks... ive completely failed myself on so many levels in the past 3 days. tomorrow im gonan try to get back on track if i dont go INSANE before that. im so stressed i could die. :closedeyes: I fail quite often. But the next day, the sun rises and I try to start all over again. your too possitive. :[ i feel like dying... You are having a bad day today... force yourself to get out. Force yourself to do some kind of work out. Life will get better. I promise you this. i cant force me to do anything. today was pretty good tho. my mom signed me out early and i got my braces off(FINALLY!) and then later i got tips. i gave me allowence to pay for 1/3 of it tho.. :[ tonite i dont plan on sleeping... i need to clean.. but im SO tired cuz ive bearly slept in 2 days. Lucky. I'm ready to torch my braces off. Torching your braces off might be a bit painful, don't you think? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted June 30, 2006 Author Report Share Posted June 30, 2006 i workout everyday now. in deperate efforts to lose weight im trying to eat the rite things but i either done eat eat wrong things or binge and purge... Yeah! I am thrilled to hear you are working out everyday! Fantastic!!! Remember this... if it is white, you do not want to eat it. So NO sugar, white bread, white pasta, etc. make that everyday cept for the days where i physically CANT. and friday. (i could physically... but mentally i couldnt) white bread is gross. sugar free? thats hard, i get sugar-free engery drinks... ive completely failed myself on so many levels in the past 3 days. tomorrow im gonan try to get back on track if i dont go INSANE before that. im so stressed i could die. :closedeyes: I fail quite often. But the next day, the sun rises and I try to start all over again. your too possitive. :[ i feel like dying... You are having a bad day today... force yourself to get out. Force yourself to do some kind of work out. Life will get better. I promise you this. i cant force me to do anything. today was pretty good tho. my mom signed me out early and i got my braces off(FINALLY!) and then later i got tips. i gave me allowence to pay for 1/3 of it tho.. :[ tonite i dont plan on sleeping... i need to clean.. but im SO tired cuz ive bearly slept in 2 days. Lucky. I'm ready to torch my braces off. when do you get them off? retainers are worse. cuz you have to remember to put them back in. and im always too up or i froget. i froget alot. after like 3 days they barely fit you anymore! at least with braces they just stay there. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jesse Posted June 30, 2006 Report Share Posted June 30, 2006 when do you get them off?retainers are worse. cuz you have to remember to put them back in. and im always too up or i froget. i froget alot. after like 3 days they barely fit you anymore! at least with braces they just stay there. Ugh, I agree. I hated retainers. And sometimes they made me feel like gagging, too. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted June 30, 2006 Report Share Posted June 30, 2006 i woke up this morning a 930 so hush about eleven i bet you didnt go to bed at 6. actually, yes. when do you get them off? retainers are worse. cuz you have to remember to put them back in. and im always too up or i froget. i froget alot. after like 3 days they barely fit you anymore! at least with braces they just stay there. Ugh, I agree. I hated retainers. And sometimes they made me feel like gagging, too. This is why I'm glad I have perfect teeth. But my brother has braces. They look kinda cool on him, though... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted July 5, 2006 Author Report Share Posted July 5, 2006 when do you get them off? retainers are worse. cuz you have to remember to put them back in. and im always too up or i froget. i froget alot. after like 3 days they barely fit you anymore! at least with braces they just stay there. Ugh, I agree. I hated retainers. And sometimes they made me feel like gagging, too. they never make me feel like gagging. i just forget them all the time. i wear them on average of like once every 4 days Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted July 16, 2006 Author Report Share Posted July 16, 2006 when do you get them off? retainers are worse. cuz you have to remember to put them back in. and im always too up or i froget. i froget alot. after like 3 days they barely fit you anymore! at least with braces they just stay there. Ugh, I agree. I hated retainers. And sometimes they made me feel like gagging, too. they never make me feel like gagging. i just forget them all the time. i wear them on average of like once every 4 days make that like an average of once a week. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted July 17, 2006 Author Report Share Posted July 17, 2006 when do you get them off? retainers are worse. cuz you have to remember to put them back in. and im always too up or i froget. i froget alot. after like 3 days they barely fit you anymore! at least with braces they just stay there. Ugh, I agree. I hated retainers. And sometimes they made me feel like gagging, too. they never make me feel like gagging. i just forget them all the time. i wear them on average of like once every 4 days make that like an average of once a week. dead topic lalalalalalalalalalallaalala MY dead topic. I'm sorry we do this ------------------------------------- Do you see what I see Why do we live like this Is it because it's true That ignorance is bliss Who are they And where are they And how do they Know all this And I'm sorry so sorry I'm sorry it's like this -------------------------------------- Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted July 30, 2006 Author Report Share Posted July 30, 2006 still entirely dead comment. thats fun. so i came to "visit" and got hooked. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted July 30, 2006 Report Share Posted July 30, 2006 still entirely dead comment.thats fun. so i came to "visit" and got hooked. *hugs for the sake of hugging* hi. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted July 31, 2006 Author Report Share Posted July 31, 2006 still entirely dead comment. thats fun. so i came to "visit" and got hooked. *hugs for the sake of hugging* hi. hi. my head hurts my mom said i look skinnier when i went to see if she was okay this morning. i was so happy. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted August 3, 2006 Report Share Posted August 3, 2006 still entirely dead comment. thats fun. so i came to "visit" and got hooked. *hugs for the sake of hugging* hi. hi. my head hurts my mom said i look skinnier when i went to see if she was okay this morning. i was so happy. don't let it get to your head. you'll get hurt if you do. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted August 3, 2006 Author Report Share Posted August 3, 2006 still entirely dead comment. thats fun. so i came to "visit" and got hooked. *hugs for the sake of hugging* hi. hi. my head hurts my mom said i look skinnier when i went to see if she was okay this morning. i was so happy. don't let it get to your head. you'll get hurt if you do. wut r u talking about? my once tight shirt was looser today i felt so much better when i was with rob im 1/2 becoming better just for him. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Topazia Posted August 4, 2006 Report Share Posted August 4, 2006 still entirely dead comment. thats fun. so i came to "visit" and got hooked. *hugs for the sake of hugging* hi. hi. my head hurts my mom said i look skinnier when i went to see if she was okay this morning. i was so happy. don't let it get to your head. you'll get hurt if you do. wut r u talking about? my once tight shirt was looser today i felt so much better when i was with rob im 1/2 becoming better just for him. that's great! I'm proud of you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
xMyOwnMindx Posted August 5, 2006 Author Report Share Posted August 5, 2006 still entirely dead comment. thats fun. so i came to "visit" and got hooked. *hugs for the sake of hugging* hi. hi. my head hurts my mom said i look skinnier when i went to see if she was okay this morning. i was so happy. don't let it get to your head. you'll get hurt if you do. wut r u talking about? my once tight shirt was looser today i felt so much better when i was with rob im 1/2 becoming better just for him. that's great! I'm proud of you. thanks! :] the only problem is im like "YAY I LOST TEN POUNDS!" and running around screaming it, etc etc but when i start loosing more im not gonna be able to do the same. i probably shouldnt have told people.. opps. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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