Horatio

I am sorry to hear you are going through this. If you could learn the same thing I am telling Lee, love yourself. Love yourself first and everyone will want to love you as well. If you try to depend on someone else for your happiness, acceptance and love, the burden is too great. Please work to love yourself first and that does not mean you will only love yourself when you are thin. ive never loved myself i havnt the slightest idea how to. I can help you on this if you would like me to. It is not easy, but the end results are truly phenomenal!!! is it even possible? i mean like.. im stubborn and im not gonna wake up and tell myself im beautiful everyday ive tried to 'convince' myself to love me but in the end i know im talking out of my butt and love myself as much as i love cleaning cat pee off the floor. It most certainly is possible. I am not talking about getting up and telling yourself that you are beautiful, but start with one thing. There must be one thing you like about yourself. For me, it is my blonde fur. So, I try and take as good care of my fur as possible. More specifically, I am talking about treating yourself like you would want someone else to treat you. For example, and you will have to make the changes to what appeals to you, if you would want someone to buy you flowers, then get yourself some flowers from a place like the grocery store. You need to take time to appreciate the person you are. For example, your writing is phenomenal and I think you have lots of talent. If you agree with me, this is a place to start. Do not let others try to distract you from doing something you like to do. The goal is for you to be pleased with not everything in your life, but start with one or two things. Work from there. Financially, they always say, pay yourself first. The same thing goes for how you treat yourself. Treat yourself like you would want Rob or someone else to treat you. I am not expressing my thoughts very well today, but let me think on this and I will get back to you. well. i like my hair if its listening to me im planning on growing it longer and lindsey is gonna layer it. i might dye it again. and for the "The goal is for you to be pleased with not everything in your life, but start with one or two things" part ive got a few bigs goals for myself; my weight my skin my nails my room i just get frustrated easily and i hate waiting for stuff the only thing that seems completely reachable is loosing weight cuz i lost 21 pounds and it was awesome i kno that if i start working out alot again i can be my goal weight that will make me happy VERY happy *joins huggle with Topazia, making it a group hug* You almost have the point. You like your hair. That is a start. What else do you like about yourself, exactly as you are, not with any changes? um. umm.. im seriously looking at myself and uh.. i honestly dont like anything. Keep looking. *waits* uh.. lets see.. i kinda like my wrists. but not in a healthy way.. so.. yea. Let's go for a healthy way. *waits very patiently* honestly, nothing else. How about your writing talent? *continues to wait with Topazia*

i dont care if he leave for good he was lucky to have me i wasnt the best girlfriend but i was pretty good party is good for me im a kid, its wut im supposed to do its not wrong or anything and im gonna have fun im already having a good day cuz of it. If you do not care if he leaves you for good, then why did you miss him and want him to come back? As for partying, some partying is good, but when you are hurting yourself and getting out of control by abusing substances, this is not really good. eh, wutever. i need a boyfriend that knows how to have a good time. i really thought i loved him but wutever. he wants to change me and im not down with that. Having a boyfriend who cares about you and having a guy who wants to have a good time two different ducks. The guy that cares about you will not want to see you doing things to yourself that are self-destructive. The guy that genuinely cares about you will accept you exactly who you are for what you are. Because someone does not want to see you partying and destroying yourself, does not mean he is trying to change you, he is just trying to care about you. A guy interested in changing you would say something like this... I like you, but you are too fat. We will go out when you are 20 pounds later. If you encounter a guy like this................. RUN!!!!!!!!!!!!! ha. id never be with a guy like that. anyway, i know hes just trying to care but ive always been deep dark and destructive AND thriving to have fun and know people and get out there and live i felt ALIVE last night i felt like living is worth it. i know your gonna say i should feel that way more but i really loved last night and rob just never got into drugs or drinking and partying and i started drinking at 10, and drugs and smoking at 14. thats almost 6 years ive been drinking ive always had my own little parties.. but parents were always there and we couldnt do anything this party was great im glad i went and hey dont bash me for liking a party im a teenager.. I'm not bashing you for being a teenager and enjoying a party. I am only concerned that the substance abuse will lead you down a road that you probably will regret later in life and Rob seemed to be a really great person and a shining star in your life. What makes me sad is that you chose substance abuse over a really nice person. I am not trying to be hard on you, just showing you my viewpoint of things. *raises hand politely* Um.. excuse me? I'm almost 18. I've never had a drink. Never had a smoke. Never tried any drugs. Never got into the wrong crowd. Never gave myself away to a jerk (though I did come close two weeks ago). Never WANTED TO (okay maybe the last one...) do any of this stuff. I've never been to a party, (partly bc I was never invited) and frankly, I don't want to go to a party. I've had a whopping 3(THREE) boyfriends, and all three were idiots. I'm not a prep, and I'm not in "the bad crowd" (though most of the friends I have left are). I don't listen to dirty music (ICP), but I ordered Twistid from FYE three weeks ago. I like arguing, and I wish I could speak up, get my voice out there. Lauren. If you want to be different, just quit doing everything you know full well is detrimental to your health... and your heart. I'm not talking religion here. When you deliberately go against someon, it feels good. But you feel bad about it, somewhere deep inside of you. After awhile it gets smaller, and less noticeable. I'd know. But it stays there. If you want to be accepted, you can one of two things: lower your standards and let jerks (not Rob, he seems good for you) play with your mind, or raise your standards both for yourself and others so you don't get involved with jerks. From what you write here, guys like Rob are good for you. He obviously cared(s) about you and wants the best for you. Whereas other guys, the ones who prey on the minds of girls who do drugs and party like a mother-lover WILL NOT respect you. Horatio and I care about you. I don't even know why I care about you, but I do. You're my friend. Albeit you live 3k miles away, but there you are. You can say stuff like you don't care, you don't listen, you don't give a **** about Christians, or you just wanna high again. But it won't make me like you any less. Nay, it does the opposite. When youy push someone like me away, it only makes my devoted friendship stronger. I've had too many jerks and jerkettes as friends not to be a strong friend. I don't want anyone experiencing the rejection I felt all through middle school. I am, of course, babbling by now, but I assure you, I mean every word. I care about you. I don't want you getting hurt. You might be ana, death-wishful, high, drunk, burnt, and scarred, but guess what? You're still my friend, and I'm still yours. You know all too well how I feel about it (I know I 've lectured you multiple times), but the actions of my friends don't turn me away. It's when they turn away from me without a word or do something directly to my family that I give up on them. And since you are the kind of girl who will keep a friend as long as they accept you, and you live so far away, I don't see either of those happening in the near future. (lol, it's a quip. half-joking, but it's witty. laugh about it. please?) Keep this in mind, Lauren. Horatio, I hope this input helps you with every friend you have. Much love and a thousand KUDOS for confidence to each of you, -4771- Wonderful words of advice. Thank you for posting Topazia.

Just tell me if what you wrote in the subject. I will go look and find it now. Thanks.

We're getting kicked off. See you all later this evening when I am listening to the awful music at Circuit City!!!

So thrilled to see you Poison Ivy. I do hope you return again soon and this was not a one time affair. well, now i've made it a two-time affair! Yay! Let's make it a many times affair. I absolutely agree!!! i'll do my best! Music to our ears!!! *starts singing* la la laaaaaa! LAAAAA! *accompanies Poison Ivy with my violin* *joins in with the clarinet* It's the HD band! *gets Mr. Moosey368, Mega Wolf and the rest with instruments* *gets self on synthesizer* bee boop bee deedeedoop, boo wappa wappa da dee! Now were cookin'!!! LOL I thought we were playing music, not cooking. We're cooking with jazz!!! LOO

You are probably right. It will only let us do just so many characters. *is sad* Good thing I am not an Admin person, I would have upped the quotes and upped the character limit.

Hurry up and wait. Waiting is really trying. Not to help with matters any, your mind races with all sorts of options as to why she has not responded. You could make yourself crazy by merely thinking. *gets all the different styles of straight-jackets ready... blue ones, multi-coloured ones, fuzzy pink ones with matching bunny slipper ones, tiger striped ones, even footy-pajama type ones* well, she hasn't been on since (or, at least, she hasn't read the message), but I am going through various outcomes pretty regularly. D= I hate the waiting part, and I am not the one waiting. another one of my friends seems to be as anxious as I am! I am most definitely as anxious as you are, so the group is growing!!! *is so happy hamsters don't go through this* well, they should, just to make it fair. Oh no! We just leave all that for the humans to deal with! pff. that ain't cool. *really needs something to take my mind away from this (for when I don't want to be thinking about it)* Well, I could send the local compy police up to your town. She would definitely entertain you and get your mind off this. At the moment, she has just slammed the cell phone shut of some man who was yakking at 10 on the Richter scale. YEAH!!!! At least she isn't kicking me off the computer. Of course, she has given everyone the ten minute warning. On Saturday's they want to walk out the door at exactly the minute the library closes, so they start kicking everyone off five minutes early.

So thrilled to see you Poison Ivy. I do hope you return again soon and this was not a one time affair. well, now i've made it a two-time affair! Yay! Let's make it a many times affair. I absolutely agree!!! i'll do my best! Music to our ears!!! *starts singing* la la laaaaaa! LAAAAA! *accompanies Poison Ivy with my violin* *joins in with the clarinet* It's the HD band! *gets Mr. Moosey368, Mega Wolf and the rest with instruments* *gets self on synthesizer* bee boop bee deedeedoop, boo wappa wappa da dee! Now were cookin'!!! LOL

Hurry up and wait. Waiting is really trying. Not to help with matters any, your mind races with all sorts of options as to why she has not responded. You could make yourself crazy by merely thinking. *gets all the different styles of straight-jackets ready... blue ones, multi-coloured ones, fuzzy pink ones with matching bunny slipper ones, tiger striped ones, even footy-pajama type ones* well, she hasn't been on since (or, at least, she hasn't read the message), but I am going through various outcomes pretty regularly. D= I hate the waiting part, and I am not the one waiting. another one of my friends seems to be as anxious as I am! I am most definitely as anxious as you are, so the group is growing!!! *is so happy hamsters don't go through this* well, they should, just to make it fair. Oh no! We just leave all that for the humans to deal with!

[Oh no you don't... no deleting chapter one!!!!!!!!!!!!!]

Hurry up and wait. Waiting is really trying. Not to help with matters any, your mind races with all sorts of options as to why she has not responded. You could make yourself crazy by merely thinking. *gets all the different styles of straight-jackets ready... blue ones, multi-coloured ones, fuzzy pink ones with matching bunny slipper ones, tiger striped ones, even footy-pajama type ones* well, she hasn't been on since (or, at least, she hasn't read the message), but I am going through various outcomes pretty regularly. D= I hate the waiting part, and I am not the one waiting. another one of my friends seems to be as anxious as I am! I am most definitely as anxious as you are, so the group is growing!!! *is so happy hamsters don't go through this*

Hurry up and wait. Waiting is really trying. Not to help with matters any, your mind races with all sorts of options as to why she has not responded. You could make yourself crazy by merely thinking. *gets all the different styles of straight-jackets ready... blue ones, multi-coloured ones, fuzzy pink ones with matching bunny slipper ones, tiger striped ones, even footy-pajama type ones* well, she hasn't been on since (or, at least, she hasn't read the message), but I am going through various outcomes pretty regularly. D= I hate the waiting part, and I am not the one waiting.

So thrilled to see you Poison Ivy. I do hope you return again soon and this was not a one time affair. well, now i've made it a two-time affair! Yay! Let's make it a many times affair. I absolutely agree!!! i'll do my best! Music to our ears!!! *starts singing* la la laaaaaa! LAAAAA! *accompanies Poison Ivy with my violin* *joins in with the clarinet* It's the HD band! *gets Mr. Moosey368, Mega Wolf and the rest with instruments*

Nobody knows why the pickle likes Emily the Strange. That is because She doesn't like to eat bugs. Anyway, the pickle murdered the cucumber. The cucumber's name was Harry Cubby McBubbbub. He decided to ride his unicyle to the Big Evil Supermart. He bought a money bag. However, the money was Moneylovers wife, And ate pie. But poisoned pie. So, Moneylover died, Then died again. After the continuous dying, he stopped eating the penguins. He disliked innards, Like a lot. But that's okay as he was addicted to the smell of the dancing leprechaun on excess cow poo. When he finished sniffing the poo, He drank Cherry-Coke, and then he died. They buried him in Cow poo.So everyone else slept in the cow poo again. So this ended When we all said bye to cow poo... again. Then TBFOF became the richest boy with two noses and five tongues. and he died. The bugs came, ate his arm, and regurgitated them. TBFOF then revived! Now he's puke. MW stepped in some cow poo. So she barfed. And TBFOF lived no more, ever.The poor kid needs a bath Or a shower. No, a coffin. Hygeine is good. That's why I'm taking a shower in some poo. So i smelled like moldy gorgonzola. More poo... yup. And then we ran to the Boobah home base! The crowds went "TAKE A SHOWER!" Then you went to a store with a bathroom and many watermelons. Mushroom_king spazzed out when she saw a vampire pickle that danced and sang like a very rabid squirrel named Skwerlhugger Will. The squirrel then danced like pickles in the rain wearing cowboy boots with a fedora. Then the beast started to dance on people's heads, then got keelingyoudead'ed. With a million the people said. So they ouched and fell down. Suddenly, a giant cheesemonster squished them with cow poo And a Hippo. That had much diamond bracelets with unwanted body hair. The hippo's name was Larry King. But it ate my computer's harddrive while doing a headstand on a Hoops' awesome head. Now she has feeling very, very cow poo-like. oopsie poopsie toes. And also very in cowboy boots and a hat that greatly resembled A big pineapple with fluffernutter ears and puppydog eyes and arachnid limbs. then it fell In Cow poo. Then it died. The fecomaniacal zombie had some pie. A cow pie. And then MW barked up the cherry micicle tree till cow poo fell on her ZEEKY BOOGY DOOG and the hydrogen bomb blew up. Raining giant cupcakes that resembled big orange slippery potatoes. Alas, they were slimy, smelly slugs and cow poo that just died. due to a lack of some orange flavored jello with double cheese and some pants in its face. then an explosion of pure Phazon which mutated into a marshmellow of sticky, yummy explosions Of much doom. which caused economic skyrockets in the purple pulsating sky of planet SR388. Which has thirty-one hunter-class Metroids and they stunk like moldy brie. But its okay Because Emily the elephant earred octopus isn't a Metroid. And it sucked Horatio's brain out. However, Meta-Ridley swoops like a rock Onto Kraid who decides to sing. Everyone went deaf and danced a silly little jig of fatal doom in a runaway ambulance that was on teh highway heading towards Luigi's half-way existing mansion and Mario's house, when all-of-a-sudden Bowser came and ate Mario's very favorite rabid rabbit pie and Cow poo. Causing the ambulance's red siren to make blatting noises while blood was turned into Soda that tasted like EXPLOSIONS OF DOOM. This caused economic backfire across the marshmellow jellied cherries and the moon made of cheese. Rotten, smelly cheese that has been in outer space for ten minutes. Then the monkey ate a bananana that was poisned. And then he started running in your general direction. So I headed away, over there into a tube, out of danger hidden underneath a steaming heap of roasted sunflower seeds that someone farted into outer space. by sunflower seeds, Then they exploded. The TARDIS landed that killed everyone. Then the aliens Of the family-Slitheen all died miserable slow, agonizing and very horrible deaths. So we vanquished an entire bowl of cow poo. I then materialised into our digestive systems. And he exploded. Beware the were-rabbit who just might be your next small chicken pie, with mashed potatoes and purple gravy. So do not consider eating the cinesra with toast and pickled marzipan. Rather eat pickled, pickled marzipan? Yum... Marzipan is delectable. Unlike Horatio's sunflower, which is very purple and chunky with edinayc flavoured, whipped cream covered strawberry flavored clams. In other news, someone tried them with Metroid Sprinkles. They were yummy. So they had a close encounter with some poo. Chocolate marshmallow poo covered with almonds, pecans, walnuts, peanuts, blueberrys, ants and explosive mushrooms of ancient Roman origin. We then put sonic, shadow, knuckles in small plastic bags covered in faux aligator skin. Then TBFOF sang Speed of Sound with a bottle filled with delicious yummy cheese wiz. When he finished designing birthday cakes he exploded over then he sold the excellent cakes to Israeli spies to explode them. The Israeli spies with extreme yumminess of great doom causing small hats in the shape of a sword which prods people to spontaneously combust, to lead a band in pressure points. After cleaning ELE's hairy underarms, she scratched her bum causing temproal destruction and itchless bum syndrome. Toilets flew into Horatio, injuring his only pickle. Pickle was buried in Hot Topic. Robot Bob Barker was then shot In Limetid too by Dr.Watson's hat. Emily the strange and Ruby Gloom sat inside a giant cow "pie" driving pea-shaped cars. The cow gravy was part of a very odorous, Horrid Meat Grinder. An exquisite corpse did a funky and revived itself using a Phoenix with music by anyone but Pink-Floyd and lemon-demon. Yogurt was very Stoopid after the crash made newspaper headlines, but nobody cared, because ZZ Top and the Yogurt were in the tabloids with False Accusations. Summarized, everything is Squeaky Guinea Pigs and RootBeer Floats. Flesh-eating bacteria took over, then aliens from Mars and Trent The Brunette disliked being insulted. Twenty thousand weasles saw Totoro's cat-bus arrive because he's crazy and wanted to eat club crackers, ride around town and drink rootbeer with Vera Lynn. Not to mention Bush was there wearing a makeshift lampshade made of Osama-Bin-Laden's hair and Cow poo. He was attacked and went back to the pickle and Spongbob Squarepants. Vanilla Star Hamster fails to appear in this story but writes her a screaming Howler stating that TGHL, the pesky Phoenix, was also Superman dressed in a flying carpet hat and a hairy giant toupee thingy. On his feet were marshmallow candles surrounded by magenta lightsaber weilding ninjas and invisable, massless objects. Made of balloons and filled with arsenic, TGHL's feet scratched a giant mountain made of puos pin tac and big rubber hamster swimming caps. The Mountain was named 'Mt. Whatthe after the question' and had two scraggley craggely peaks with purple cherries and Evil Teachers. Due to malfunctions roaming the landscape Arkcher The UNPIRATE, glad he wasn't a Smily, was a . Andy the Emo wrote a song about crying over life, the universe, and everything. Stupid and worthless Preppies decided murder was afoot. "OMG!!!!!!" They said. Then Jackalope Bob, suddenly felt very dead. The Preppies tried to murder MK's massive signature and smiley. Everyone hates the orange marching mosquitos that drink OJ and like to sing "Body Language" by Invision CodeRed which is not the best song or the smelliest. Some Squashed Flies destroyed the hat of assorted feces and chocolate goodness. Emily the Strange returned with Chickens fried in poo and covered with spam. Looking for a way to poo, they ate her. The beast and Dr. Hoogeywackawoowoo and her little dog too caused volcanic eruptions. Space and time were torn asunder by faceless Children with meat grinders, purple combat wombats and pogo sticks made of rotten, weezing Stick figures which smelled like Dior's Pure Poison. MK's massive signature which occupied three-hundred-eighty-two-million handicapped parking spaces, Gerald Scarfe Animations, MGM studios and Stephen King's imagination, and a monkey. The monkey died. We had monkey kill Stephen King who narrowly escaped by eating his own poisoned sunflower seed and Peter Griffin. MK's signature died and everyone rejoiced. Mk killed everyone except for Trent, TGHL and Horatio and us Hampsterdancers. Yeah, man. We decided to form The Mushroom Army. The boy with Immovable hair isnt very great. At all. So MK keelingyoudeaded Arkcher. Trent got Keelyoudead by Val hawyn who later ate Trent. MK cried because she had a broken meat-grinder. Val Hawyn vomited up Trent dramatically. He is puking a berger. Then Lynryd Skynryd performed an odd dance for Astronomy Domine and a hat. CHAPTER 2!!!! Anyways, the pickle Got Vodka'd badly by Emily, who Trentnapped Mk's crush. But we don't think about anything like Bergers, or hot Cream-of-Mushroom soup. We hope Mushroom_King likes rerererererererefried beans. Exponential AK-47s were stolen using the chaos theory by some cheese and the evil dumptruck warfare tactics. Incidentally, no-one's posting because Max is

It hurts me to see you in such pain. I wish I could help you. im okay now. he'll take me back if i let him untill then im free to party. which is amazingly sweet silver lining if you ask me. Perhaps you might think about the 'free to party' part. Perhaps this is part of the reason he left before. You need to understand the reason he left so that you do not repeat the behavior. If you continue, he will only leave again. The next time might possibly be for good. I might suggest stopping the destructive behavior. You do not need to be saved and he will get very, very tired of saving. So, love yourself first, and Rob will love you even more. Take care of yourself for yourself. Enough said. i dont care if he leave for good he was lucky to have me i wasnt the best girlfriend but i was pretty good party is good for me im a kid, its wut im supposed to do its not wrong or anything and im gonna have fun im already having a good day cuz of it. If you do not care if he leaves you for good, then why did you miss him and want him to come back? As for partying, some partying is good, but when you are hurting yourself and getting out of control by abusing substances, this is not really good. eh, wutever. i need a boyfriend that knows how to have a good time. i really thought i loved him but wutever. he wants to change me and im not down with that. Having a boyfriend who cares about you and having a guy who wants to have a good time two different ducks. The guy that cares about you will not want to see you doing things to yourself that are self-destructive. The guy that genuinely cares about you will accept you exactly who you are for what you are. Because someone does not want to see you partying and destroying yourself, does not mean he is trying to change you, he is just trying to care about you. A guy interested in changing you would say something like this... I like you, but you are too fat. We will go out when you are 20 pounds later. If you encounter a guy like this................. RUN!!!!!!!!!!!!! ha. id never be with a guy like that. anyway, i know hes just trying to care but ive always been deep dark and destructive AND thriving to have fun and know people and get out there and live i felt ALIVE last night i felt like living is worth it. i know your gonna say i should feel that way more but i really loved last night and rob just never got into drugs or drinking and partying and i started drinking at 10, and drugs and smoking at 14. thats almost 6 years ive been drinking ive always had my own little parties.. but parents were always there and we couldnt do anything this party was great im glad i went and hey dont bash me for liking a party im a teenager.. I'm not bashing you for being a teenager and enjoying a party. I am only concerned that the substance abuse will lead you down a road that you probably will regret later in life and Rob seemed to be a really great person and a shining star in your life. What makes me sad is that you chose substance abuse over a really nice person. I am not trying to be hard on you, just showing you my viewpoint of things.

I am sorry to hear you are going through this. If you could learn the same thing I am telling Lee, love yourself. Love yourself first and everyone will want to love you as well. If you try to depend on someone else for your happiness, acceptance and love, the burden is too great. Please work to love yourself first and that does not mean you will only love yourself when you are thin. ive never loved myself i havnt the slightest idea how to. I can help you on this if you would like me to. It is not easy, but the end results are truly phenomenal!!! is it even possible? i mean like.. im stubborn and im not gonna wake up and tell myself im beautiful everyday ive tried to 'convince' myself to love me but in the end i know im talking out of my butt and love myself as much as i love cleaning cat pee off the floor. It most certainly is possible. I am not talking about getting up and telling yourself that you are beautiful, but start with one thing. There must be one thing you like about yourself. For me, it is my blonde fur. So, I try and take as good care of my fur as possible. More specifically, I am talking about treating yourself like you would want someone else to treat you. For example, and you will have to make the changes to what appeals to you, if you would want someone to buy you flowers, then get yourself some flowers from a place like the grocery store. You need to take time to appreciate the person you are. For example, your writing is phenomenal and I think you have lots of talent. If you agree with me, this is a place to start. Do not let others try to distract you from doing something you like to do. The goal is for you to be pleased with not everything in your life, but start with one or two things. Work from there. Financially, they always say, pay yourself first. The same thing goes for how you treat yourself. Treat yourself like you would want Rob or someone else to treat you. I am not expressing my thoughts very well today, but let me think on this and I will get back to you. well. i like my hair if its listening to me im planning on growing it longer and lindsey is gonna layer it. i might dye it again. and for the "The goal is for you to be pleased with not everything in your life, but start with one or two things" part ive got a few bigs goals for myself; my weight my skin my nails my room i just get frustrated easily and i hate waiting for stuff the only thing that seems completely reachable is loosing weight cuz i lost 21 pounds and it was awesome i kno that if i start working out alot again i can be my goal weight that will make me happy VERY happy *joins huggle with Topazia, making it a group hug* You almost have the point. You like your hair. That is a start. What else do you like about yourself, exactly as you are, not with any changes? um. umm.. im seriously looking at myself and uh.. i honestly dont like anything. Keep looking. *waits* uh.. lets see.. i kinda like my wrists. but not in a healthy way.. so.. yea. Let's go for a healthy way. *waits very patiently*

Yeah!!! Phenomenal one!!! And in the traditional Florida colours!!! I hope you do not mind that I made the dots white. Is this okay??? perfectly fine. I meant to actually, but i kinda forgot it towards the end. Thanks for allowing me to do that! *is having a huge desire to have a dinner of birthday cake*

Hurry up and wait. Waiting is really trying. Not to help with matters any, your mind races with all sorts of options as to why she has not responded. You could make yourself crazy by merely thinking. *gets all the different styles of straight-jackets ready... blue ones, multi-coloured ones, fuzzy pink ones with matching bunny slipper ones, tiger striped ones, even footy-pajama type ones*

Okay... the compy police told me if I do not get off the computer right this minute, I will be banned. BYE!!! I will be back on in about three hours.

*~*The Grand Illusion*~*The Final Cut*~* Turn Off Emoticons *~*The Psychedelic Luau*~*The Astronomy Domine*~* *slaps forehead* Duh......... I should have thought of that. Thanks. *hands Mushroom_king some freshly baked muffins* Whoa, whoa, Horatio, stop quoting posts that aren't there. ...Yet. Grrrrrrrrrrrr..... LOL Stop being so fast to post! LOL It's a skill I accquired from my mother. ...Quick clicking. A quick clicking mother! Hmmm, does she glow as much as you do? LOL Nope. She started an IT company, though. So she'd have to be a fast clicker. WOW!!! How impressive! *gives Glowurm's mother The Magnificent Mother award for her accomplishments*

*~*The Grand Illusion*~*The Final Cut*~* Turn Off Emoticons *~*The Psychedelic Luau*~*The Astronomy Domine*~* *slaps forehead* Duh......... I should have thought of that. Thanks. *hands Mushroom_king some freshly baked muffins* Whoa, whoa, Horatio, stop quoting posts that aren't there. ...Yet. Grrrrrrrrrrrr..... LOL Stop being so fast to post! LOL It's a skill I accquired from my mother. ...Quick clicking. A quick clicking mother! Hmmm, does she glow as much as you do? LOL

Because not everyone is as smart as you! *looks for a time machine to send Arkcher on a little travel adventure* I can go on a post hunt to find all the posts where everyone ELSE is pointing out your anonymous-itude. Its not hard to see. XD -also looks for a time machine. You can take over the Sworld with those things, y'know...- I'll stick to my cage. I have enough problems cleaning my cage! *imagines taking over the Sworld*

Because not everyone is as smart as you! *looks for a time machine to send Arkcher on a little travel adventure, zaps backward 30,000 years*

Here comes the compy police. I have been on the library compy for over an hour and I am getting kicked off. She is kind enough to give me two more minutes. See you in a few hours.

I am sorry to hear you are going through this. If you could learn the same thing I am telling Lee, love yourself. Love yourself first and everyone will want to love you as well. If you try to depend on someone else for your happiness, acceptance and love, the burden is too great. Please work to love yourself first and that does not mean you will only love yourself when you are thin. ive never loved myself i havnt the slightest idea how to. I can help you on this if you would like me to. It is not easy, but the end results are truly phenomenal!!! is it even possible? i mean like.. im stubborn and im not gonna wake up and tell myself im beautiful everyday ive tried to 'convince' myself to love me but in the end i know im talking out of my butt and love myself as much as i love cleaning cat pee off the floor. It most certainly is possible. I am not talking about getting up and telling yourself that you are beautiful, but start with one thing. There must be one thing you like about yourself. For me, it is my blonde fur. So, I try and take as good care of my fur as possible. More specifically, I am talking about treating yourself like you would want someone else to treat you. For example, and you will have to make the changes to what appeals to you, if you would want someone to buy you flowers, then get yourself some flowers from a place like the grocery store. You need to take time to appreciate the person you are. For example, your writing is phenomenal and I think you have lots of talent. If you agree with me, this is a place to start. Do not let others try to distract you from doing something you like to do. The goal is for you to be pleased with not everything in your life, but start with one or two things. Work from there. Financially, they always say, pay yourself first. The same thing goes for how you treat yourself. Treat yourself like you would want Rob or someone else to treat you. I am not expressing my thoughts very well today, but let me think on this and I will get back to you. well. i like my hair if its listening to me im planning on growing it longer and lindsey is gonna layer it. i might dye it again. and for the "The goal is for you to be pleased with not everything in your life, but start with one or two things" part ive got a few bigs goals for myself; my weight my skin my nails my room i just get frustrated easily and i hate waiting for stuff the only thing that seems completely reachable is loosing weight cuz i lost 21 pounds and it was awesome i kno that if i start working out alot again i can be my goal weight that will make me happy VERY happy *joins huggle with Topazia, making it a group hug* You almost have the point. You like your hair. That is a start. What else do you like about yourself, exactly as you are, not with any changes? um. umm.. im seriously looking at myself and uh.. i honestly dont like anything. Keep looking. *waits*