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hurrah for beeeaads!!!! horatio, you need to c'mon down (or up depending on what part of florida you live in) to louisiana and celebrate mardi gras! there will be gumbo beads doubloons beads crawfish parades seafood king cake and all kinds of awesome stuff to do! New Orleans gets a little crazy with drunk people though, so id watch out for that or you could go to somewhere like Crowley or Rayne for a Cajun Mardi gras which is completely different (and a lot of fun) then NOLA's mardi gras so yes EVERYONE should come to mardi gras! I would have to come up, over and then down. My cage is near Cape Canaveral or Cocoa Beach... east of Orlando. Seriously, I would really like to celebrate a Cajun Mardi Gras. Crowley or Rayne... now I will have to look those places up. they are a little scary at first people speaking french all over, and then a cajun band and then the traditional "what ever you catch goes into the gumbo" thing but now they dont actually slaughter the pigs and chickens you catch, you just let them go again on someones farm I wouldn't want to know that the animal I caught, just got slaughtered. Letting it go and continue life on someone's farm makes me much happier.

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that doesnt stop the fact that i cant trust myself and will do worse things. i dont do drugs or lie about where im going or who im with just to be a rebel... alot of people dont get that. they think we(as in kids) are just acting out but believe me i dont want to hurt my family or lie but i have to live the way i want cuz even though im dependent on them and im their kid, im my own person and i make my own decisions. im really really scared of being on my own.. i want to be.. i want to get away but i just cant trust my decisions.. That is why college is a great step for you. You are sort of living on your own, but then again you aren't. There is no doubt in my mind that you will do great on your own. You can always call your parents if you are in doubt, or have a problem. Just because you are living on your own, it doesn't mean that you can't ask for help or opinions. You always sound pretty sensible, so I do believe you would make good decisions for yourself. Remember, not all your decisions will be right, but if you understand that you will have to live with the consequences of that decision, then I think you will make a good choice. im glad you have faith in me. but im sorry.. youre just wrong. im not gonna call my parents.. i honeslty think we ll barely talk after i move out for good. ive had enough of them. they dont act like they love me so why should i act back? Well, you can always find me here is you need some help. TYPO! lol thanks lol all i want for my birthday tomorrow is a boy to tell me im beautiful and waste the whole day watching movies with me I hope this happens for you. But with school, I doubt you will have someone spend the WHOLE day watching movies with you... but hopefully maybe half the day. my only option has work till 9:30 :[ I hope your birthday is a really nice one today! Sorry I can't give you the day off from work with pay. lol today is kinda bleak Perhaps tomorrow will be better when you celebrate with your friend. it was supposed to be but we got ditched and then it was like 10pm already and we couldnt find other plans worst night like ever but wutever i guess Hopefully not many worse nights. At least your night was better than the guy who crashed into my cage fence, passed out with the car still running, windshield wipers going at full speed and the lights on. He had a really bad night and probably a few more of those to come. He is probably thinking his life is over, but he was really lucky. The car was okay, he missed a tree and the cage and he never hit anyone else. So, he did do better than he we will ever know. thanks weird that i should read that right after watching saw4 Never watched that movie. Usually I am not outside my cage that late. Had I not returned late and found him, who knows. What was so amazing was that when the police arrived and tried to wake him, his first reaction was to gun the engine and try and escape. There were four police and it was quite shocking that it took all four policemen to get him out of the car, down on the ground and hand-cuffed. He was quite out-of-control. Don't think these policemen were old, out-of-shape guys. They were young, extremely muscular and in suberb shape. The police, tow truck, etc. didn't depart until many, many hours later... in the wee hours of the morning. The tow truck operator who was also a policeman, made the comment "What a way to start life as an adult.". Later, I found out this guy just turned 18. It was an eye-opening experience for me as I had never encountered anything like this.

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Post it please. I think we can all handle gore. If it is too, too, TOO bad, of course I will let you know, but I don't think that will happen.

that doesnt stop the fact that i cant trust myself and will do worse things. i dont do drugs or lie about where im going or who im with just to be a rebel... alot of people dont get that. they think we(as in kids) are just acting out but believe me i dont want to hurt my family or lie but i have to live the way i want cuz even though im dependent on them and im their kid, im my own person and i make my own decisions. im really really scared of being on my own.. i want to be.. i want to get away but i just cant trust my decisions.. That is why college is a great step for you. You are sort of living on your own, but then again you aren't. There is no doubt in my mind that you will do great on your own. You can always call your parents if you are in doubt, or have a problem. Just because you are living on your own, it doesn't mean that you can't ask for help or opinions. You always sound pretty sensible, so I do believe you would make good decisions for yourself. Remember, not all your decisions will be right, but if you understand that you will have to live with the consequences of that decision, then I think you will make a good choice. im glad you have faith in me. but im sorry.. youre just wrong. im not gonna call my parents.. i honeslty think we ll barely talk after i move out for good. ive had enough of them. they dont act like they love me so why should i act back? Well, you can always find me here is you need some help. TYPO! lol thanks lol all i want for my birthday tomorrow is a boy to tell me im beautiful and waste the whole day watching movies with me I hope this happens for you. But with school, I doubt you will have someone spend the WHOLE day watching movies with you... but hopefully maybe half the day. my only option has work till 9:30 :[ I hope your birthday is a really nice one today! Sorry I can't give you the day off from work with pay. lol today is kinda bleak Perhaps tomorrow will be better when you celebrate with your friend. it was supposed to be but we got ditched and then it was like 10pm already and we couldnt find other plans worst night like ever but wutever i guess Hopefully not many worse nights. At least your night was better than the guy who crashed into my cage fence, passed out with the car still running, windshield wipers going at full speed and the lights on. He had a really bad night and probably a few more of those to come. He is probably thinking his life is over, but he was really lucky. The car was okay, he missed a tree and the cage and he never hit anyone else. So, he did do better than he we will ever know.

Wonderful news... your grandmother is out of a successful surgery! I know you are happy and relieved. It is totally amazing what results are occurring with cataract surgery. I know of about three or four people who have undergone cataract surgery and voila... no more glasses. How phenomenal medicine has become! I know! Someday I might get laser eye surgery too, but not for several years, at least. I'm afraid of what would happen if they messed it up. Plus I've had glasses since I was two. So it would be a strange transition. Oh! And I figured something out today. Dad emailed me the pdf of my car's owners manual. So I was looking at it today, and realized I felt nervous. There was nothing to be nervous about, nothing I was reading was frightening, and in my mind I wasn't nervous, but biologically, I felt nervous. And then it hit me: conditioning! My mind associated driving (stimulus, the thing that makes me nervous, which is a response) with the owner's manual (unconditioned stimulus), so the driving manual became a conditioned stimulus that elicits the conditioned response of being nervous. And then I linked it to Phil. I wasn't nervous the first two times I saw him (over the summer and at his college). But the next two times (over winter break), and then thinking about him after that brought on feelings of nervousness. The reason? I was driving with him or to him! So my brain associated Phil (unconditioned stimulus) with driving (stimulus), which makes me nervous (response) to make Phil a conditioned stimulus, with a conditioned response. You have really thought this through. I like your thought process. Phil... hmmmmm. I guess this makes it more than just driving. It just crossed my mind at random. Now I just need to make a concentrated effort to relax when I'm driving, as well as when I'm thinking about anything related to driving. As for my day today, it's been raining, which means our campus is once again flooded (whoever decided it was a good idea to build a college campus on a cranberry bog needs to have his head examined....). And I was playing DDR with the girls down the hallway, which is always fun times. And I discovered double mode (using two mats at once) which is really fun. See there is a good outcome for a rather dreary day. *nods* DDR is how I plan to regain my presently obsolete cardiovascular system. And how I plan on keeping myself from getting too bored over the summer. Now I just need to work on getting dad to buy an air conditioner for the living room.... Air conditioners are nice.

Thank you so much for boredom striking! Your grandfather looks like he was such a nice person.

Wonderful news... your grandmother is out of a successful surgery! I know you are happy and relieved. It is totally amazing what results are occurring with cataract surgery. I know of about three or four people who have undergone cataract surgery and voila... no more glasses. How phenomenal medicine has become! I know! Someday I might get laser eye surgery too, but not for several years, at least. I'm afraid of what would happen if they messed it up. Plus I've had glasses since I was two. So it would be a strange transition. Oh! And I figured something out today. Dad emailed me the pdf of my car's owners manual. So I was looking at it today, and realized I felt nervous. There was nothing to be nervous about, nothing I was reading was frightening, and in my mind I wasn't nervous, but biologically, I felt nervous. And then it hit me: conditioning! My mind associated driving (stimulus, the thing that makes me nervous, which is a response) with the owner's manual (unconditioned stimulus), so the driving manual became a conditioned stimulus that elicits the conditioned response of being nervous. And then I linked it to Phil. I wasn't nervous the first two times I saw him (over the summer and at his college). But the next two times (over winter break), and then thinking about him after that brought on feelings of nervousness. The reason? I was driving with him or to him! So my brain associated Phil (unconditioned stimulus) with driving (stimulus), which makes me nervous (response) to make Phil a conditioned stimulus, with a conditioned response. You have really thought this through. I like your thought process. Phil... hmmmmm. I guess this makes it more than just driving. It just crossed my mind at random. Now I just need to make a concentrated effort to relax when I'm driving, as well as when I'm thinking about anything related to driving. As for my day today, it's been raining, which means our campus is once again flooded (whoever decided it was a good idea to build a college campus on a cranberry bog needs to have his head examined....). And I was playing DDR with the girls down the hallway, which is always fun times. And I discovered double mode (using two mats at once) which is really fun. See there is a good outcome for a rather dreary day.

OMG!!!!!!!!!!! Are you okay? What happened?

I can fix that.

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Absolutely!!! You deserve an award... here you go. *hands Krisluvsdogs The Platinum Moon Award*

You outdid yourself!!! The i at the end is absolutely phenomenal and totally creative! Here is your award... The Platinum Moon Award!!!

Wonderful news... your grandmother is out of a successful surgery! I know you are happy and relieved. It is totally amazing what results are occurring with cataract surgery. I know of about three or four people who have undergone cataract surgery and voila... no more glasses. How phenomenal medicine has become! I know! Someday I might get laser eye surgery too, but not for several years, at least. I'm afraid of what would happen if they messed it up. Plus I've had glasses since I was two. So it would be a strange transition. Oh! And I figured something out today. Dad emailed me the pdf of my car's owners manual. So I was looking at it today, and realized I felt nervous. There was nothing to be nervous about, nothing I was reading was frightening, and in my mind I wasn't nervous, but biologically, I felt nervous. And then it hit me: conditioning! My mind associated driving (stimulus, the thing that makes me nervous, which is a response) with the owner's manual (unconditioned stimulus), so the driving manual became a conditioned stimulus that elicits the conditioned response of being nervous. And then I linked it to Phil. I wasn't nervous the first two times I saw him (over the summer and at his college). But the next two times (over winter break), and then thinking about him after that brought on feelings of nervousness. The reason? I was driving with him or to him! So my brain associated Phil (unconditioned stimulus) with driving (stimulus), which makes me nervous (response) to make Phil a conditioned stimulus, with a conditioned response. You have really thought this through. I like your thought process. Phil... hmmmmm. I guess this makes it more than just driving.

Nocturnal is nice!

hurrah for beeeaads!!!! horatio, you need to c'mon down (or up depending on what part of florida you live in) to louisiana and celebrate mardi gras! there will be gumbo beads doubloons beads crawfish parades seafood king cake and all kinds of awesome stuff to do! New Orleans gets a little crazy with drunk people though, so id watch out for that or you could go to somewhere like Crowley or Rayne for a Cajun Mardi gras which is completely different (and a lot of fun) then NOLA's mardi gras so yes EVERYONE should come to mardi gras! I would have to come up, over and then down. My cage is near Cape Canaveral or Cocoa Beach... east of Orlando. Seriously, I would really like to celebrate a Cajun Mardi Gras. Crowley or Rayne... now I will have to look those places up.

EEP! what kind of menacing hamster would do this!?! who could reword my bad wording but HORATIO!!! :rolleyes: Now bad wording... I just deleted the duplicate of the poll. Just thought you might have forgotten that the first post is the one I leave up. It changed from the last time. Now I can add the poll to your post. If you want to reword it, please let me know and I will change the first post to whatever you prefer. you lost me after 'duplicate' well, i think its lovely and should stay exactly the way it is! What I meant by duplicate was the question and answers you wanted to appear in the poll, would have also appeared in your post. Does that help to clear everything up?

How sinus problems can wreak havoc with your head! They are horrible!!!!!!!!

wOOt! my clever disguise worked! Exactly!

EEP! what kind of menacing hamster would do this!?! who could reword my bad wording but HORATIO!!! :rolleyes: Now bad wording... I just deleted the duplicate of the poll. Just thought you might have forgotten that the first post is the one I leave up. It changed from the last time. Now I can add the poll to your post. If you want to reword it, please let me know and I will change the first post to whatever you prefer.

I have it on my list to do for tomorrow. The last couple months, I have had time for nothing but Airbus and tomorrow is a day off. So, I am going to get as many of those things on my to do list as possible. Yours is number 2. Thanks!!! How's life on the west coast?

You could always write another story, or continue with Part Two of the first one. well i was fantasizing a bit when i had time left over after my english midterm...but nothing concrete. just more hormones acting up. ~Liz I would have you think of the millions and millions of dollars that are made with romance novels. There are lots of people who enjoy reading these fantasies because it helps them escape for a period of time from the hum-drum of everyday life. So, keep those thoughts, you might make millions as a romance writer. haha even if i did do well i dont know if id want to be known as a romance novel writer...i ususally laugh/scoff when i see those kind of books. i think this was just a fluke...maybe ill try writing other stuff. ~Liz But you are soooooooooooo good at it!

You are a really talented writer. This is superb! Very moving and very powerful! Please do give us more to read.