Mega Wolf

I'm not switching plans just for a phone.

my dog killed my hamster.

Yeah, I either need to get a Blackberry or get an Acer netbook for this summer. xD

Well, in regards to the ex situation, I've grown indifferent, for now. xD As far as my current situation, my boyfriend is really sweet and I'm happy with him.

March my favorite open class drum corps, basically. xD So, anyhow, my computer fails because this one that's working is too old to allow me to upload the pictures from my camera.

All is well.

Today I did the Literature AP test. My essays were horrible. Hopefully I pass. And hopefully tomorrow goes well for US history. >.<

You're likely not to take as long as I am as far as posting pictures. The laptop, where I usually put my SD card and am too lazy to hook up my camera itself, is failing right now. XD

It's more of a dark grey, with a black stripe. And no, I haven't been to Legoland, although I don't live so far from it. XD

AP tests... >.<

It's mostly black. What type would that make it?

I want things to change. I don't really know. I love him as my friend. There's things about him he told me but never told his best friend. And there's things I told him. Perhaps trying to be friends is more pain than it's worth.

Yeah. I really don't think being friends will work so well. He's nice to me now, but, it just feels fake. He's not being him. It's weird.

I got a hamster on my birthday. It's amazing and friendly, likely female, but you know, flipping over dwarf hamsters isn't always easy. XD It's actually more shy than friendly, but doesn't bite at all.

*procrastinates some more*

Heh... it's weird. He started talking to me again. At this point, though, it's... not quite the victory I thought it would be. I mean, he added me as a friend on one website and then we talked on there, so I added him on the other website. We stopped and talked for something like three minutes today. I know it'll take time. It's less painful than not knowing him, yet feeling this distant is just barely better. But at this point it's easier to come to terms with the fact that we'll likely never be close again. The convention I was at this weekend included little retiring addresses for the state officers who basically spent a year together right out of high school, and they're all basically exceptional people. The first retiring address was about lifetime friends versus "seasonal" friends. He said the goal is to have lifetime friends, but losing people, even those you're really close to, just happens. And to just not take the friends you have for granted, and try not to lose those you're close to.

lol I'll put a pic when I'm not so lazy.

Yeah, I probably should stop selling myself short all the time.

She knows German and English and minimal French. XD She's a lot of fun. Mostly, she's into art. Oh, and we dyed part of my hair red.

It's just frustrating... I can't really come to terms with the fact, seeing him all the time yet being unable to say a simple hello. I had a dream that he gave me a hug and apologized, and everything was fine. Everyone was friends again, I didn't have to avoid eye contact anymore, and I was happy. Then I woke up. And it was a bit depressing, because it made me think of how he was my best friend for over a year and that was just thrown out the window because I just thought he should just get over me because I wasn't worth the trouble anyhow.

I still am sad that I'm not friends with Julian... it's somewhat annoying me.

So Julia, my pink-haired foreign exchange student, is extremely awesome.

My relationship is good. XD We still sew when we can, and we spend a lot of time together.

Yeah, OOT probably isn't exactly most applicable to relationships. XD

He's fine, he's a lot more stable now. With mood swing pills working.