As always, I just don't know. The thing with the instructor, well, it's sort of a half relationship. But, as always, there's this complication that I can't stay away from my best friend/ex. I don't know, I keep being interested and uninterested, yet more often interested, in my best friend, though at the same time I honestly just question if we've ever had anything in common. Basically, it's turned into all small talk with him. I know that this is all silly, that neither of these guys are likely to be important to me in a few years. But, it's this whole I don't know for sure thing.
ah, whatever. This is all just so ridiculous and silly.