Mega Wolf

Here's to another good year.

You know, this has been a good start to the year. So tame. I think it might be a good mood to have set after the craziness that was 2010.

Haha, well, some people weren't meant to be artists, I suppose.

I'm still in my hometown, but I'll be heading back to college mode soon.

We're at the end of 2010!

Wow, that is so awesome!

My Christmas went pretty well, without incident. Haha. The food was delicious.

Well, if I can get a job within the next couple of weeks, I might be able to audition for another place. See, I auditioned for this marching thing I do. But there's another organization I'm interested in that I still have time to audition for. The summer marching I do costs around $2000, holds auditions now, has monthly camps, and then all of summer is taken up by this show. Which is why I'd need the job first.

Well, jail friend got my letter a couple of days ago probably, and now I just wait for the reply. Basically I was truthful and told him that being his main source of hope(with him being in love with me) is just way too much for me to handle. I mean, really? I'm barely started with college. This is ridiculous. Things are going well with the boyfriend. While this is different and not the usual over the top whirlwinds of hearts around me kind of start, every day is better and I become more and more interested. It's different, that's for sure, but, really, isn't different what people need to try? 'Cause my life got pretty ridiculous, I think a relationship that's not boring, but without a crazy emotional rollercoaster might be good for me.

Haha, oh dear. Wow, people seem to have popped up while I was busy. That happens a lot, doesn't it? xD Come to think of change, I came back here, after being here for a short stint in 3rd grade, in middle school. Haha. Life sure is different than I expected. xD

It's SoCal cold around here.

Well, I'd been terribly busy with an audition that didn't work out for me. So. I'm just sort of moping at the moment.

Heeey, I'm here. lol

Well, checking in from the living room this time. Change of scene. haha

His next court date definitely isn't until about mid-January.

Well, to give an update. The not-relationship actually ended up turning into a relationship. Go figure. hah. Actually, it's going pretty well. Really well. So, I'm okay with that. Jail friend is too in love with me again, I need to, once again, talk some sense into him. But, that's a bit sensitive of a topic that I need to be careful with, I don't want him to have too much hope for some kind of "future" with me and at the same time don't want to just kill all of his hope in general. But, I know him well enough that I believe I'll be able to do that, very carefully. There was an awkward birthday party about a week ago. I went to it, with my original plan not really being to go, I knew 3 people when I initially got there. One of the birthday girls, the one I knew, went to rent a movie. The other was her fraternal twin that I'm not really familiar with. I sat with the two that were close friends of mine, only planned to be there for a short while then to head home to practice. So, me and the two friends, we were kind of the scorned lovers couch. The other female had just gotten out of a year and a half relationship because she was cheated on, the male was the one that had been with the girl that ended up with my prom date after meeting at a show. You know, that prom date that never spoke to me again out of nowhere. Other birthday girl says, "oh, your best friend is coming" to male, referring to the girl who also happens to be one of her best friends. Male says, "hey, that means your best friend is coming too." I kinda freaked out and said, with little pause, "look at the time. I should be heading home to practice." Female friend said that I had to stay because she didn't want to only be talking to one person at the party. So I did stay, because the birthday girl I know told me I had to at least eat the pasta that she made. Took me forever to eat it, and by the time I finished, it was too late and the ones I didn't want to see would be arriving any minute and it would be more awkward to leave and see them outside. Conclusion: The Disappeared Prom Date was, without a doubt, shocked to see me, though he casually said hello to everyone including me, and hid in the other room because the shock was too much for him(as stated by the hosting mother actually quoting him). He's gained 20 pounds-ish and grew out facial hair when he clearly shouldn't have tried. His girlfriend is loud, obnoxious, bossy, and tone deaf as well as less attractive than when Male Friend last saw her. I killed everyone at Apples to Apples and I successfully got over it and made him feel terribly awkward. I'll call it a successful night.

He probably won't be able to have another court date until January. His lawyer is on vacation and the judge will possibly go on vacation during December.

My room is always really cold...

They're trying to get $3500 secured for the lawyer, his actual trial starts in something like two weeks. So, there's no information out there really except his name/status/court date. Anyway, he says he has a good feeling about all of this, that he'll at least get it down to a year in county, which would mean he'd at most be in there for 7 months, two of which he's already been in there for. I don't know. I feel like he's not considering the idea that things might not be so easy and perfect, but, I'm doing my best to refrain from saying too much to him on that because I wouldn't want to throw more negative emotions at him because I'm realistic, perhaps even being cynical. Half of me says that there's not even really enough evidence to say that he did anything, the other half says that it doesn't matter and things are somehow going to turn out terrible.

My recital went fine, without coughing. But the cough has still not gone away. >.<

Gorgeous!

I'm feeling better, but I still have a cough that could come back up tomorrow during my recital.

Yes, it is indeed scary that as inhumane as the conditions may be in there, there are so many places where it could be worse. He's accepted many of the conditions. In fact, the conditions in jail tend to be humane and sensible with the only exception being the guards. It's probably going to come down to he said - she said. Best case scenario, she doesn't show up and there doesn't even have to be a fight. And yeah, that whole thing where he's naive and would text back anyone who would text him, pure foolishness that will cause him trouble now. I can't visit him tomorrow, but hopefully I'll be able to visit next week on Tuesday. I don't know if he has that new lawyer- his sister hasn't replied and I don't know what's going on now. I checked the sheriff's department website and his case hasn't been updated.

Yes. The more I think about it, the more settled I become with him fighting the case. Although we are told that our justice system says innocent until proven guilty, in a case like his it is more the other way around. He is guilty until proven innocent and has harsh consequences ahead regardless, if he were to just not fight it. Even now, since he is in jail fighting, he is still there in jail, and cases like his are not well protected.

Hope so, having a headache makes trumpet painful, and that's no good with my recital on Tuesday.