I finally decided to check and give the boards a visit. Thanks for the birthday wishes last year
Wow it feels like forever ago since I've been here, in a different life. Grad school has opened my world to so many different programming languages and so many places in the world of computers. Operating systems, networking, web development, and of course game design.
I presented my master's project about two weeks ago. I was nervous at first but after that I had a lot of fun - I had two of my professors come up and play the game together and watching them have fun (even if they got a game over twice) made my day. I'm still waiting for the grade (documentation is always the scary part, I don't know if it was complete enough) but otherwise I am completely done with school and have started job hunting. So it seems once again my life is about to change.
What else...oh, I started my first relationship in January. He is from new jersey and is so wonderful to me...he lives kind of in a ghetto area, and has for a while, so it has taken some adjusting on my end to the things he says or does, just as he has to adjust to me. But of course being different from each other is not necessarily a bad thing, and so far it's working out.
Sometimes I think about these boards, and my own message boards I ran in middle school. I still can't believe how much of a jerk I was to some people (Lauren) and I just wish I could apologize. It is so weird to think I used to be a homophobe, that I was such a hypocrite that I convinced myself I was straight and just having "urges". And how I used to think I knew everything, especially as a board administrator.
And today? I still might not know much more, but I do know better than before. I know better than to waste time judging others and pushing them away. I know that, despite what I thought up through freshman year of college, I DO need other people. I know that there are christians like me that do not see conflicts with things like homosexuality, that accept people as they are instead of giving a wag of the finger.
Well that's all. I have no idea how deserted this place is so...
*tumbleweed rolls across screen*