Jesusfreak

Thank you!

I am so sorry to hear this. It is hard when a good friend is going through some deep personal problems. What you have not considered is just how much your friendship means to him and how he knows that he has someone to turn to when he wants to talk. Your friendship means quite a bit and is a form of solace during this time. I can hope so. Hopefully he was able to get a good night's sleep and is feeling a bit better today, but that doesn't seem too likely. I get the idea that he's been through a lot over the years, although I don't know the details, and his brain works in ways I can't even begin to understand. He's really a fascinating person. *shrugs* Oh well, I guess there's not really much I can do for him aside from keep him company unless he wants to talk abouut it, which is also not all too likely. In other news, I had my first education class today (which, thankfully, got out really early, because technically we're booked to be there from 8am to 2pm). The class looks like it's going to be really awesome, and the teachers, one of them seems a lot like a politican, and the other one is a veteran of the school system, who knows all the ins and outs of what to do and what not to do. In October, we're going to start going into a local middle school to observe and ultimately teach classes, which is going to be awesome. I just need to go get some more professional looking clothes now.... Oh no... Not professional looking clothes!!!!!!!! I remember the coolest professor I ever had was my anthropology professor who wore hippie clothes and had a huge, thick braid that was longer than her tailbone. Hahaha excellent! Once I get an actual job, I'll wear my normal nice-ish clothing. But until then, especially when dealing with people who are going to be my references when I apply for jobs, I need to look and act professional. *twitches* *starts acting like my fur itches* I understand completely. You are smart in knowing how to play the game. LOL Hahaha thank you. LOL And Marius seems to be a bit better today. Not quite back to normal, but better. I watched Donnie Darkoe for the first time today. Strange movie. Glad to hear Marius is doing a bit better. He seems like a very sensitive guy and emotional problems will take a bigger toll on him, than someone without a sensitive side. You are such a great friend. It makes me so happy that I know someone like you. Aw, thank you! Yeah, Marius I think has had a rather troubled past, and he only likes to reveal his past to us in bits and pieces. And it seems that when things come up that relate to his past, he sometimes gets upset. Although I think a decent part of his depression has to do with a lack of girlfriend (and why he's still single is a mystery to me), and that might be causing some self esteem issues. I'm sure he'll be fine though. And I'm just glad it's Friday. Yay the weekend! Now I know why you need naps... you are starting to become nocturnal, like me. I have no quesses as to why he is still single, but I wish I could tell him that he is still young and there is so much to life before he worries about having a girlfriend. When you are young, this is the time to find out who you are, where you want to be and get all those adventurelust spirits out. When you become involved with someone, even moreso, settle down and start having a family, your life and freedom changes dramatically. So now is the time to enjoy life, meet people and develop your career. Give him a hug for me. He sounds like such a gem of a guy. As for the weekend... party, party, party!!! Oh, I think he knows, but people get lonely, you know? And he is an amazing guy, and we all tell him that on a regular basis. And if by party you mean sleep in, go to the dollar store, nerf wars, DDR, and swivel chair jousting, then rock on! By party I mean exactly all the things you mentioned. You forgot the most important party item... just do nothing and enjoy it. I am not a get dressed up, go to a gathering of people, half of which you do not know, make pretty conversation with a bunch of people who are drinking too much... I would rather stay home and take a sand bath. Hahaha exactly! Although I like getting dressed up. We just got done watching Harold and Kumar go to White Castle. That movie is sto dumb, but it's really funny.

Time for some camp pictures:

Aw, thank you!

I am so sorry to hear this. It is hard when a good friend is going through some deep personal problems. What you have not considered is just how much your friendship means to him and how he knows that he has someone to turn to when he wants to talk. Your friendship means quite a bit and is a form of solace during this time. I can hope so. Hopefully he was able to get a good night's sleep and is feeling a bit better today, but that doesn't seem too likely. I get the idea that he's been through a lot over the years, although I don't know the details, and his brain works in ways I can't even begin to understand. He's really a fascinating person. *shrugs* Oh well, I guess there's not really much I can do for him aside from keep him company unless he wants to talk abouut it, which is also not all too likely. In other news, I had my first education class today (which, thankfully, got out really early, because technically we're booked to be there from 8am to 2pm). The class looks like it's going to be really awesome, and the teachers, one of them seems a lot like a politican, and the other one is a veteran of the school system, who knows all the ins and outs of what to do and what not to do. In October, we're going to start going into a local middle school to observe and ultimately teach classes, which is going to be awesome. I just need to go get some more professional looking clothes now.... Oh no... Not professional looking clothes!!!!!!!! I remember the coolest professor I ever had was my anthropology professor who wore hippie clothes and had a huge, thick braid that was longer than her tailbone. Hahaha excellent! Once I get an actual job, I'll wear my normal nice-ish clothing. But until then, especially when dealing with people who are going to be my references when I apply for jobs, I need to look and act professional. *twitches* *starts acting like my fur itches* I understand completely. You are smart in knowing how to play the game. LOL Hahaha thank you. And Marius seems to be a bit better today. Not quite back to normal, but better. I watched Donnie Darkoe for the first time today. Strange movie. Glad to hear Marius is doing a bit better. He seems like a very sensitive guy and emotional problems will take a bigger toll on him, than someone without a sensitive side. You are such a great friend. It makes me so happy that I know someone like you. Aw, thank you! Yeah, Marius I think has had a rather troubled past, and he only likes to reveal his past to us in bits and pieces. And it seems that when things come up that relate to his past, he sometimes gets upset. Although I think a decent part of his depression has to do with a lack of girlfriend (and why he's still single is a mystery to me), and that might be causing some self esteem issues. I'm sure he'll be fine though. And I'm just glad it's Friday. Yay the weekend! Now I know why you need naps... you are starting to become nocturnal, like me. I have no quesses as to why he is still single, but I wish I could tell him that he is still young and there is so much to life before he worries about having a girlfriend. When you are young, this is the time to find out who you are, where you want to be and get all those adventurelust spirits out. When you become involved with someone, even moreso, settle down and start having a family, your life and freedom changes dramatically. So now is the time to enjoy life, meet people and develop your career. Give him a hug for me. He sounds like such a gem of a guy. As for the weekend... party, party, party!!! Oh, I think he knows, but people get lonely, you know? And he is an amazing guy, and we all tell him that on a regular basis. And if by party you mean sleep in, go to the dollar store, nerf wars, DDR, and swivel chair jousting, then rock on!

Peculiar Mind Your eyes captivate me, and your mind fascinates me. I don't understand you, but I do. Like a puzzle, I want to put the pieces together, some of them are there, but why don't you like sunny weather? There's more to you than meets the eye, and the days you nearly cry, I wonder why, as I stand by, but there's not much I can do, except talk to you. Sometimes it makes me want to cry too.

Forward and Back Looking forward, looking back, the things in my mind, far from the back, Thoughts are whirling all around, triggered by sights, smells, or sounds. Where am I going, from whence have I come? Maybe I'm just being dumb. Of course you probably don't know, how I wish we didn't have to go, so many miles away from each other, or how you're not "just like a brother." Much of what is in the way, is just the price of gasoline to pay (oh, and a driver's liscence). Somehow it all just seems to fit, but will you be willing to go with it?

Falling vs. Standing Falling in love, I'm not sure I like that. Rising above, facing the challenges, Standing in love, now that sounds better. In love I stand strong, "In sickness and health, In poorness and wealth." I hope not to falter, to and from the alter. My steps will be sure, my intentions pure, I hope never to fall, but instead stand tall.

I am so sorry to hear this. It is hard when a good friend is going through some deep personal problems. What you have not considered is just how much your friendship means to him and how he knows that he has someone to turn to when he wants to talk. Your friendship means quite a bit and is a form of solace during this time. I can hope so. Hopefully he was able to get a good night's sleep and is feeling a bit better today, but that doesn't seem too likely. I get the idea that he's been through a lot over the years, although I don't know the details, and his brain works in ways I can't even begin to understand. He's really a fascinating person. *shrugs* Oh well, I guess there's not really much I can do for him aside from keep him company unless he wants to talk abouut it, which is also not all too likely. In other news, I had my first education class today (which, thankfully, got out really early, because technically we're booked to be there from 8am to 2pm). The class looks like it's going to be really awesome, and the teachers, one of them seems a lot like a politican, and the other one is a veteran of the school system, who knows all the ins and outs of what to do and what not to do. In October, we're going to start going into a local middle school to observe and ultimately teach classes, which is going to be awesome. I just need to go get some more professional looking clothes now.... Oh no... Not professional looking clothes!!!!!!!! I remember the coolest professor I ever had was my anthropology professor who wore hippie clothes and had a huge, thick braid that was longer than her tailbone. Hahaha excellent! Once I get an actual job, I'll wear my normal nice-ish clothing. But until then, especially when dealing with people who are going to be my references when I apply for jobs, I need to look and act professional. *twitches* *starts acting like my fur itches* I understand completely. You are smart in knowing how to play the game. LOL Hahaha thank you. And Marius seems to be a bit better today. Not quite back to normal, but better. I watched Donnie Darkoe for the first time today. Strange movie. Glad to hear Marius is doing a bit better. He seems like a very sensitive guy and emotional problems will take a bigger toll on him, than someone without a sensitive side. You are such a great friend. It makes me so happy that I know someone like you. Aw, thank you! Yeah, Marius I think has had a rather troubled past, and he only likes to reveal his past to us in bits and pieces. And it seems that when things come up that relate to his past, he sometimes gets upset. Although I think a decent part of his depression has to do with a lack of girlfriend (and why he's still single is a mystery to me), and that might be causing some self esteem issues. I'm sure he'll be fine though. And I'm just glad it's Friday. Yay the weekend!

I am so sorry to hear this. It is hard when a good friend is going through some deep personal problems. What you have not considered is just how much your friendship means to him and how he knows that he has someone to turn to when he wants to talk. Your friendship means quite a bit and is a form of solace during this time. I can hope so. Hopefully he was able to get a good night's sleep and is feeling a bit better today, but that doesn't seem too likely. I get the idea that he's been through a lot over the years, although I don't know the details, and his brain works in ways I can't even begin to understand. He's really a fascinating person. *shrugs* Oh well, I guess there's not really much I can do for him aside from keep him company unless he wants to talk abouut it, which is also not all too likely. In other news, I had my first education class today (which, thankfully, got out really early, because technically we're booked to be there from 8am to 2pm). The class looks like it's going to be really awesome, and the teachers, one of them seems a lot like a politican, and the other one is a veteran of the school system, who knows all the ins and outs of what to do and what not to do. In October, we're going to start going into a local middle school to observe and ultimately teach classes, which is going to be awesome. I just need to go get some more professional looking clothes now.... Oh no... Not professional looking clothes!!!!!!!! I remember the coolest professor I ever had was my anthropology professor who wore hippie clothes and had a huge, thick braid that was longer than her tailbone. Hahaha excellent! Once I get an actual job, I'll wear my normal nice-ish clothing. But until then, especially when dealing with people who are going to be my references when I apply for jobs, I need to look and act professional. *twitches* *starts acting like my fur itches* I understand completely. You are smart in knowing how to play the game. LOL Hahaha thank you. And Marius seems to be a bit better today. Not quite back to normal, but better. I watched Donnie Darkoe for the first time today. Strange movie.

You will be! I don't take naps often, but now I've got morning classes and my bedtime of between 12am and 4am doesn't look like it's going to change anytime soon, so naps will be necesary.

I am so sorry to hear this. It is hard when a good friend is going through some deep personal problems. What you have not considered is just how much your friendship means to him and how he knows that he has someone to turn to when he wants to talk. Your friendship means quite a bit and is a form of solace during this time. I can hope so. Hopefully he was able to get a good night's sleep and is feeling a bit better today, but that doesn't seem too likely. I get the idea that he's been through a lot over the years, although I don't know the details, and his brain works in ways I can't even begin to understand. He's really a fascinating person. *shrugs* Oh well, I guess there's not really much I can do for him aside from keep him company unless he wants to talk abouut it, which is also not all too likely. In other news, I had my first education class today (which, thankfully, got out really early, because technically we're booked to be there from 8am to 2pm). The class looks like it's going to be really awesome, and the teachers, one of them seems a lot like a politican, and the other one is a veteran of the school system, who knows all the ins and outs of what to do and what not to do. In October, we're going to start going into a local middle school to observe and ultimately teach classes, which is going to be awesome. I just need to go get some more professional looking clothes now.... Oh no... Not professional looking clothes!!!!!!!! I remember the coolest professor I ever had was my anthropology professor who wore hippie clothes and had a huge, thick braid that was longer than her tailbone. Hahaha excellent! Once I get an actual job, I'll wear my normal nice-ish clothing. But until then, especially when dealing with people who are going to be my references when I apply for jobs, I need to look and act professional. *twitches*

I am so sorry to hear this. It is hard when a good friend is going through some deep personal problems. What you have not considered is just how much your friendship means to him and how he knows that he has someone to turn to when he wants to talk. Your friendship means quite a bit and is a form of solace during this time. I can hope so. Hopefully he was able to get a good night's sleep and is feeling a bit better today, but that doesn't seem too likely. I get the idea that he's been through a lot over the years, although I don't know the details, and his brain works in ways I can't even begin to understand. He's really a fascinating person. *shrugs* Oh well, I guess there's not really much I can do for him aside from keep him company unless he wants to talk abouut it, which is also not all too likely. In other news, I had my first education class today (which, thankfully, got out really early, because technically we're booked to be there from 8am to 2pm). The class looks like it's going to be really awesome, and the teachers, one of them seems a lot like a politican, and the other one is a veteran of the school system, who knows all the ins and outs of what to do and what not to do. In October, we're going to start going into a local middle school to observe and ultimately teach classes, which is going to be awesome. I just need to go get some more professional looking clothes now....

My classes start the 5th. That's good that you're meeting new people. I find a good way to meet people is to keep your door propped open when you're in the room so people can walk in and say hi. Yeah, we've got the door propped open a lot. Except when I want some me time. Yeah, personal time is always a good thing. So are naps. Naps are excellent.

So, my time back so far has been wonderful, but I'm really worried about Marius. He's seemed really depressed and melancholy lately. We both walked Lara back to her residence hall (which is far away from everything but the frat buildings, and it was late), and on the way back I asked him if he was okay, and he said no. So I asked him what's wrong, and he said "nothing." And then he said, "this summer's been really bad for me." So now I'm kinda worried about him, because I don't like seeing him in such a bad mood, especially because he's such a great guy.

Yeah!!!! Jesusfreak!!!!!!!!!!!! You can just walk into the Apple store and get on line on any of their computers, you don't have to sit outside. Sorry to hear summer is boring. I can't wait for you to get back to college, then we will hear from you lots more! Good luck to your little sister. I know, but I prefer using my own computer. Yeah, and only 4 more days! I sooooooooo can't wait to go back to college. I just hope dad fixes the washing machine here before I have to go back. I'm running out of clean clothes, and I don't want to take 2 weeks worth of dirty laundry with me to college. o.O Haha, yeah, that contradicts the most important reason for visiting home: doing laundry for free. I'm also excited for my classes to start, which is in 4 days too. But laundry here at college is free too. I'm finally back at college and all moved in. I just have a bit of organizing to do tomorrow, so my room will be organized chaos instead of just pure chaos. Today was a good day overall, it was awesome to see all my friends again and all that. Lara, Marius, and I all went out to Wawa sometime close to midnight. And tomorrow I have the day off. I just need to get my enrollment holds cleared in the office (my loan didn't go through yet). And that's pretty much it. I should go to sleep soon because I've been awake since about 5am. o.O Welcome back. Hope you can get the admin stuff resolved so you can tackle the chaos. Glad that you all had time to get back together and go out for some fun. Yeah, it shouldn't be that big a deal. I'm approved for the loan, but on one of the pages of paperwork we apparently missed a line where I was supposed to sign it, so I had to sign the paper and send it back, and then it needs to get processed.... But I'm sure they'll understand that.

My classes start the 5th. That's good that you're meeting new people. I find a good way to meet people is to keep your door propped open when you're in the room so people can walk in and say hi.

Yeah!!!! Jesusfreak!!!!!!!!!!!! You can just walk into the Apple store and get on line on any of their computers, you don't have to sit outside. Sorry to hear summer is boring. I can't wait for you to get back to college, then we will hear from you lots more! Good luck to your little sister. I know, but I prefer using my own computer. Yeah, and only 4 more days! I sooooooooo can't wait to go back to college. I just hope dad fixes the washing machine here before I have to go back. I'm running out of clean clothes, and I don't want to take 2 weeks worth of dirty laundry with me to college. o.O Haha, yeah, that contradicts the most important reason for visiting home: doing laundry for free. I'm also excited for my classes to start, which is in 4 days too. But laundry here at college is free too. I'm finally back at college and all moved in. I just have a bit of organizing to do tomorrow, so my room will be organized chaos instead of just pure chaos. Today was a good day overall, it was awesome to see all my friends again and all that. Lara, Marius, and I all went out to Wawa sometime close to midnight. And tomorrow I have the day off. I just need to get my enrollment holds cleared in the office (my loan didn't go through yet). And that's pretty much it. I should go to sleep soon because I've been awake since about 5am. o.O

Wow Jesse, you moved in early! It's pretty normal to get sick the first few days of college, just make sure you keep yourself hydrated. And I'm glad to hear that you're keeping away from the frat parties. If you started going to frat parties, I'd really start to worry about you. You're too awesome for frat parties. *Starts thinking, "I'm too sexy for your party, too sexy for your party..."*

Yeah!!!! Jesusfreak!!!!!!!!!!!! You can just walk into the Apple store and get on line on any of their computers, you don't have to sit outside. Sorry to hear summer is boring. I can't wait for you to get back to college, then we will hear from you lots more! Good luck to your little sister. I know, but I prefer using my own computer. Yeah, and only 4 more days! I sooooooooo can't wait to go back to college. I just hope dad fixes the washing machine here before I have to go back. I'm running out of clean clothes, and I don't want to take 2 weeks worth of dirty laundry with me to college. o.O

I'm at the mall in front of the Apple store where I get free wifi. My summer's been going pretty well, but it's been boring. I can't wait to go back to college, like you have no idea. I've been keeping a little journal in a small notepad, but of course it's back in the cabin. if you want, I can post it later when I remember it at college. My little sister goes to college tomorrow, so we're all out at the mall todat. We had dinner, and we're going to see a movie in a little bit. Jesse: You're brilliant, you'll do fine.

Well, I go back to camp later this evening, and I probably won't be able to get back online until September when I go back to college. So, if I don't get a chance to post until then, enjoy the rest of your summer!

Haha. I can't look at Hillary Clinton with out getting freaked out. Mostly because one of my friends (who is turing thirty soon) seriously thinks she's the anti-Christ. No joke. So, every time I look at her, I picture red glowing eyes and horns on her head. Definitely won't be voting for her. I had to take you up on that... Hahaha Jesse I love you for that. XD Hilary Clinton scares me... Can you just imagine what it would be like if she was prez? *sudders* The thought scares me. It scares me even more that I have no say in it! Oh, don't worry, if she makes it as the top democrat, I'll be sure to vote against her. You need to vote in the primary. This is where you get to vote for the top candidate. Perhaps we can stop her before she gets any further. You can't vote in the primaries unless you're affiliated with that particular party. I'm registered as independant.

Haha. I can't look at Hillary Clinton with out getting freaked out. Mostly because one of my friends (who is turing thirty soon) seriously thinks she's the anti-Christ. No joke. So, every time I look at her, I picture red glowing eyes and horns on her head. Definitely won't be voting for her. I had to take you up on that... Hahaha Jesse I love you for that. XD Hilary Clinton scares me... Can you just imagine what it would be like if she was prez? *sudders* The thought scares me. It scares me even more that I have no say in it! Oh, don't worry, if she makes it as the top democrat, I'll be sure to vote against her.

this poem was inspired in part by the music I'm listening to right now: Piano Cascades by Dan Gibson (for those who care to look it up, Phil found the sheet music in just a few minutes) Waltzing in my Mind Waltzing in my mind, To songs of a kind, That I know you'd enjoy. A girl and a boy, That's what we are, We've both come so far, Are we meant to be? I'll wait and see, Because God keeps changing my plans on me.